My LOvE FeR YoU wAs BliND...

2007-02-16T19:11:00.000-08:00

So clever,
Whatever,
I'm done with these endeavors.
Alone I walk the winding way.
(Here I stay)
It's over,
No longer,
I feel it growing stronger.
I'll live to die another day,
Until I fade away.

[Chorus:]Why give up,
why give in?
It's not enough,
it never is.
So I will go on until the end.
We've become desolate.
It's not enough,
it never is.
But I will go on until the end.
Surround me,
It's easy to fall apart completely.
I feel you creeping up again.
(In my head)
It's over,
No longer,
I feel it growing colder.
I knew this day would come to end,
So let this life begin.

[Chorus]

I've lost my way.
I've lost my way,
but I will go on until the end.
Living is hard enough.
Without you fucking up.

[Chorus]

I've lost my way.
I've lost my way,
but I will go on until the end.
U-uh, u-uh
The final fight I'll win,
The final fight I'll win,
The final fight I'll win,
But I will go on until the end.

2007-02-16T07:08:00.000-08:00

THIS IS FER THE DUMB DUMB DUMBIES LIKE ZI QI FROM MY CLASS THAT MY BLOG'S URL HAS CHANGED TO WWW.FINALGOODBYE-.BLOGSPOT.COM
SO PLEASE CAN U ALL GO UPDATE AND TAGG?

2006-10-08T23:36:00.000-07:00

heyysss all.. lol..
today was maths and geog...
well.. i kinda scrwed up my geog so i pray fer the best..
maths... ok.. if i dun get a1 cause of that empty cone question and cut open thing...
i am really gonna run around.. scream my head off and jump off the building..
honestly.. first time i actually feel good bout this test.. lol..
ah well.. over the next two days i am gonna die.. die die die die!!!
i havem't study chinese finish yet.. i cant rmber a shit bout history besides the dates..
1819 which is when s'pore is founded and when raffles signed tad treaty wif tungku hussein..
1950 which is maria hertogh riot..
1954 which is antinational service riots..
1955 which is hock lee bus riots
1956 which is the singapore singapore chinese middle school student's riot
and that communist ideas were spread from russia to china then to malaya then to here..
and that the japs captured s'pore on feb 1942 and left aug 1945..

i am so freakin screwed...
ah wells... i hated history in the first place so who gives a shit? i'm dead all in all.. lol...
and for the first time in my life i feel bad bout science..
i mean like i've forgotten all bout chemistry and bio!
GRARGH!!!!! this really stinks ok?
T.T i am so dead.. and there goes my subject combi..

And here's a shout out to:
Debra!
lol... happy birthday gurll....
haha..i onli jus found out it was her birtday today wen i went on to msn and she told me..
lol.. heyy..rmber dun use TAD pic to trick guys.. or they'll probably die if they met you in person.. =X..muahahahaha..
and lucky you... dun have exams.. T.T

And to Angela!
well well.. heard you are sick..
well..jiayous la.. try to come fer exams although you'd feel shitty..
hope you get well soon..
yupp yupp..drink lots of water.. study in bed and do well fer exams!
see ya next time!

ah well.. gtg.. wanna make one final attempt to read the chapters of history...
and probably i'll be changing my blog's website soon... but i'll keep in touch with those who
i want to by tagging.. see ya'll..
gd luck fer remaining mid years! tckers!

2006-10-06T01:48:00.000-07:00

It already has almost been a year.. yet it seems like a life time ago...

life has that effect on you..

It passes so quickly doesn't it?

EOY are already here and i am like an idot here blogging..

ah heck..i'll jus take 20mins...

yesterday was really stupid..

i was listening to mp3..reading geog notes and was walking down to the bus stop..

and this stupid driver had to come all the way in my face and horn at me..

i was shocked out of my freaking skin..

of all things he had to do he had to come straight up to my face.. he couldn't have like horned from far away..

well...an idiot's born every minute and i'm one of them..

yesterday i was suppose to blog but i jus dint feel in the mood...

i was jus too pooped.. really tired and i jus went to take a nap..

stupid.. of all times..

i get one of my stupid insomia nights yesterday..

i dunno why i suddenly got it..

but i felt really down and depressed..

it was just so saddening..

hell.. i jus got up.. went down to get a cup of water and medication and got drugged to sleep..

the stupid medication was for running nose which i obviously dodn't have..

i jus took it fer it's drowsy effect..

so i waited fer bout and hour and soon knocked out onli to wake up at 6.30..

although it somehow felt like i onli slept 5 mins although it was 6 hours..

and i kinda got this hungover effect that morning..

ah well..

and lately i got this stupid pimple outbreak..

i got like so many dots on my face..

geezzz.. can't wait for them to be totally gone..

never liked pimples..

ah well...

oh yeah..

here's a shout out to:wei hua

Sorry fer smashing ur nose fer the SECOND time during basket ball!!

I DINT MEAN IT!! IT WAS A FREAKIN ACCIDENT!!!

grargh... the first time was i passed the ball to him but he looked away..

and when i shouted out to him, he turned and..SMASH..

T.T

then today was that i jumped fer the ball and so did he...

we both landed with me carrying the ball and stupidly enough..

my elbow smashed his nose again.. wha lao..

i dun wanna ding him anymore sia..

and i betta be more careful next time..

It has left a lasting memory in my mind..

I felt both happy and sad..

I felt happy for You..

That You could find what i couldn't provide..

That You were happy..

And i felt sad..

Sad at how pathetic i was..

How lousy i felt..

My days on this world are already numbered..

I don't know how long more i can live..

Another day?

Week?

Month?

Year?

I'll never know..

But i know that i'll always remember You..

And in my dyingt moments i'll smile and say to myself..

"I loved Her with all my heart..

But some how it din't seem enough..

But i'm glad i made it worthwhile.."

Maybe You din't hear it..

But i said my Goodbye..

It's so much easier to just Forget you..

To wipe You totally out of my memory..

Then to know you and to constantly remember You..

These Memories are both my greatest strenght and weakness..

But i know that there will be other strenghts out there..

This is why i choose to forget..

I'll burn to photos..

I'll erase all memories..

I'll tear out those moments in my diary..

And i'll definetly forget You in time..

'Cause i choose to..

I cried..

These Tears i cried..I'll Never ever forget them..

Just so You Know.. I Was..

Of course You wouldn't know..

Hung up inside your own heaven up in the clouds..

while i was stuck down in purgotary..

I saw..You know that i saw..

I cried..And I still am..

I hope it was fun for you to see me fall apart..

Not all sorrows..

All scars and wounds..

All Pains can be seen..

They are all hidden behind this happy face..

I hope i don't ever have to talk to You again..

I don't wish to see You again..

Our paths may cross one day..

But i'll acknowledge You as any other stranger with the same look..

This Friendship was never meant to last..

Your principles tell me so..

I don't hate You..

I can't Hate You..

Maybe one day..i'll greet You with a new name and face..

And defitnately with a new memory..

This is my Last and Final Good Bye..

2006-09-10T01:28:00.000-07:00

heys all...
i'm just kinda really down and depressed once again.. fer four reasons this time..
1) holidays are ending
2)i can't see Her tad often anymore..
3)i got one more chapter to study fer science ct tmr..
4)i dint do any homewrk..

lol..
i am super gonna get screwed fer this la can... i still have to go and photocopy the whole freaking hist work book cause i lost it.. again! fer the 3rd fucking time!
Who the fucking shitty fuck keeps takin my wrkbok?!
I'm gonna rip ur fucking head off u bitch!
grr...

Once again.. i am thinkin bout the 2 people in my life that i am thinkin of the most right now..
both of them need help in some way..
m,aybe not one of them..
that person is capable of handling things on her own i guess...
though she makes statements tad onli apply to her and not to those around her..
whose who once felt so whole and happy.. whereas the other..
has just walked astray..
not knowing what to do.. that person steals.. drinks and god knows what else..
if i were to have to help one of these people..
i'd help the latter...
it is useless helping one who'd be so selfish to themselves..
to hurt others where others cant hurt them the way they did...
life's neva fair.. indeed..
but this time it was out of 'life's' hands and this was caused by the own person will.
if that person wasn't happpy with something..
that person should just be upright bout it..
and tell me what's wrong.. but no..
she had to some how seemingly lie to me and to trick me..
and to just hurt me where it would hurt me the deepest..
i try not to hold a jurdge against that person.. tryin deep down to be friends and to help in any way possible.. but yet it seems so hard..

as for the latter... i dunt see much of you any more..
and it's stupid as i've just seen you the other day on friday..
it was fun being with you..honestly..
i can know so much more bout the world of your mafias so called... haha..
i wish i could just see more of you some how.. it's so difficult to talk to you to know you more..
when i msged.. i tot that u dint want to answer my msgs and you were unhappy..
unhappy bout something i did..
i felt so bad deep down inside.. till i realised you weren't ignoring me..
but jus that you dint have your phone wif you..
i felt that i was to blame..
i feel so helpless in this world..
i want a sense of belonging.. some where out there i'm sure it is there..

To see you again it would be good..
i miss you already when it is..
when it is only the 3rd pointless and cold day..
without you it jus feels so empty..
come back firefly..
and light up my life...

2006-09-09T02:40:00.000-07:00

A shining blade..
A little tear..
The blood is such a nice wonderful sight..
It's sweet poison to me..
Maybe You don't realise..
But it gives me sweet relief..
---Cut here it says..
And i obey..
Only because It helps me greatly..

I feel dead..

I feel hollow and have no heart..

I don't feel for anything around me..

Death and blood seem like such a beautiful thing..

I have no sense of belonging,

I need something to press me on..

There's nothing in this world that i can live on for..

Or to fight for..

Life now seems so meaningless..

So different from years before where everything was beautiful..

some how nowadays i dont enjoy everything i do..

i try to make the best of everything..at least i got friends i know i can lean on..

friends who are there for you and give you a helping hand and support you..

not the kind that pushes everything to you and just says thanks..

not the kind that back stabs..

not the kind that casts evil stares at you..

not the kind that blames everything on you when something goes wrong..

lol.. the drawing done by celseteis still on my hand.. lol..

i've been staring at it on and on..

it's rather funny somehow..

Done By: celeste cheng..

lol... that's what you can read on my hand..k wad eva...

it's fading already.. gonna go over it wif marker again later when i get home..

this morning when you woke up i was like really tired..

couldn't sleep cause something was constantly in my mind..

i dun know what it was but it just stayed there..

jus some feeling..

i wonder what it is.. some one tell me..

i've lost enuff sleepp over other stuff..

celeste ah celeste.. stop stealing..drinking ALCOHOL in excessive amnts already la..

so young do this kinda thing already.. dun larghz..

stupid gurl..

Why is it that humans do things and only think bout themselves?

they dont think bout the hearts that they hurt of the people that love them so..

life's a bitch..

Or perhaps it is only humans' nature to be so self centred...

guess it's the same for me.. i judge people before looking at myself..

some how i constantly try to remind myself that i am not perfect so i cant judge..

onli god can be the one and onli judge..

but honestly.. think bout it.. how many of us do things that please us but not others..

lol... kk.. well goin fer the bbq party now.. see ya'll

2006-09-08T09:08:00.000-07:00

Glad to see you've moved on,
Solved all whims and woes..
But sadly,
It's not what i can say for myself..

sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad...
happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy....
take your pick...
i felt both these feelings todae..
well first of all the day went betta then expected..
i woke up by accidently banging my head on the wall... =.='''
then i met my frwen at PP at bout 9.15...
She,celeste, and i just sat there and toked and toked and toked..
actually she was the one who did majority of the talking..
i jus sat there listening and commenting and drawin..
maybe not too wise on the drawing part..
then she just took my marker and pulled my hand out..

me: "Hmm? what u tryin to do?"
"Draw on you..."
"Err.. wouldn't you prefer to draw on urself?"
"No.. I like to draw on pple.."
"Right.. and you are not a 'pple'?"
"No la.. i mean that i enjoy drawing on others.."
"RRRiiiiggghhhttttttt....."

And then i jus have to sit there watching her draw on my hand..
honestly it was painful cause my wrist was twisted.. lol..
but i dint complain..
should or would i? XP
the drawing is still on my hand..
kinda went over it a few times wif the marker..
i dint want it to fade.. dont ask me why..
when i look at it i jus feel kinda happy..
lol...

"Done.."
"Err, you drew it upside-down from my view.."
"Oh shit..stupid sia..AH i dont care!! hahahaha!!"
"How am i suppose to look it?Stand on my head?"
"Why not?"
As she said this she started turning her own head.. LOL!!!
We laughed alot together..
Then soon she had to go for her drama... kool eh... she is a CHIJ gurl btw..
So i jus sent her off to her school..

honestly but there is somethin i realised then..
Sins ARE forgiven in this world!!
By both God and Humans alike!
Last time she and i always quaralled de..
she call me basterd.. i obviously called her bitch..XD
then soon i gave her the nickname mini skirt gurl..
The reason being that one dae she walked into tuition wearing a miniskirt..
and she like jus said to teacher..
"My mom made me wear this...And i hate it alot.."
lol.. this was the statement that sparked my evilness..lol..
we really hated each other last time...
yupp... but now... We are good friends!!
aint it kool?
O well.. after i dropped her off at school she thanked me and i jus nodded..
lol..maybe i should have done more?
O well... there are other chances..
then went back to park way and waited outside mavis..
Then i met Alex..lol...
it's another alex ok?
then we went to but bubble tea..
lol.. i had milk tea!!!
haha...
then i met up wif my friend joey and we went for lunch and arcade!!
and we ended up late 5 mins for tuition.. but guess wad?
the teacher was late himself..
stupid sia...
Then i had a zinger meal upsize for lunch!!
lol...And then i met up wif sean's friends and went to marine parade there to play bball...
bball.. lol.. my fav ball game..
i dun rmber playing any other ball game other then b ball.. lol...
in any case.. i played 2 games and went home and played a bitta com..
then i got ready and made my own way to simei to have dinner..
AND SHOPPING!!
lol... well.. i continue tmr bah.. it's too late...
it's 1 o'clock.. my god.. i wonder if celeste is asleep yet?
lol.. see ya'll later!

A year has gone.. How long more?

2006-09-03T01:23:00.000-07:00

I jus need You to know..
It's almost been a year already..
If you dont rmber..I can still rmber the reason for it..
Perhaps you dont..
But u said urself that..Giving up doesn't solve a thing..
But then..
What happened to me?
Why doesn't it apply to me at all?
Guess life's ain't fair..
I Wish that..
I wish that this wasn't my final goodbye..
Sweet poison i have always had..
i wish i could die..

2006-08-26T02:37:00.000-07:00

hey alls... i know i haven't post fer a long time.. srry...
i was changing the template of my blog...
life's like shit so far...
i am so gonna FUCKING fail my chinese orals can?
WHA LAO EH!!!and which teacher did i get? dou sian shen!!
i got that bloody china faggit...
o well.. i dun give a fuck about chinese can?
I dun even like it.. i prefer chinese..
o well today i met wei hua.. kerrie..sheena..derek..and chris to go sakae sushi...
i ate like 25 bucks away in like 45mins?
my god.. we were suppose to have a All-You-Can-Eat-Sushi buffet..
BUT!! guess wad? buffets are available from mondays to fridays onli..
Blardy hell...
o well.. but everyone also fergot right? so cannot blame WH...
he's a nice guy and we all fergot too..XD
tmr is gonna b fun fun fun fer me...
THE SAFRA 6KM RUN IS TMR!!!
yayness!!!
almost the whole freakin part A is goin and guess wad?
onli a pathetic 3 part Bs are goin...
lol.. but there's a ctach fer the 3 of us...
we get to be incharge of part A...
yayness... and the stupid thing is that we are meeting at 6.15 in the blardy morning..
here's the reasons why..
1) we must report half an hour early-0730
2) warm up will be conducted and plus water parade-0700
3)get everyone to the run in one complete peice-0630
4)give people some time to get their asses at raffles place mrt station..-0615

srry part A if this is too early fer u guys..
but i carnt afford to get u guys late...
i'll blardy get killed by john-eh..alloy..cj they all...
i'll get so farkin screwed can?

i got to see a friend of mine...
jasmine is her name..
pls shut up about this all ncc people who went fer camp feast.. pls dun remind me..it's bad enuff tad u all talk about it and that the sirs there saw it..
T.T i dun wanna b reminded of that bloody thing...
lol...
as i was saying i got to see her.. from the car that was like 2 lanes away from the road..
and my mom did something really stupid..
lemme describe properly the event..

my mom stops at the traffice light..
i look out the window and i saw her..
"hey.. that girl's my friend.."
my mom says,"which one?" =.= wtf?are you blind women?
"that one.." as i pointed..
And suddenly the fucking car window comes down in my face and i kinda jumped..
"MOM! WAD THE HELL ARE YOU DOIN?"
"ur friend wad...say hi largh" as she brings up the window.. =.=
" yes she is my friend but i dun go saying hi to my friends who are 2 lanes away from the car.."

dots... it was like so stupid..
and speaking of cars...
limying.....ur stupid marcus nearly got banged down by my dad wif his car...
i mean he was like bouncing his foot ball and..
suddenly it went across the road and wad does he do?
NOT NOTICE THE FARKIN CARS!!
WTF?! he wanna die dun come and dent my dad's car can?
we are trading it fer the newer camry.. it is like really cool.... looks like a lexus..
yupp..i am excited when it is ready.. 2 more weeks i think.. i fergot..

well i gtg.. see ya'll

2006-08-10T01:45:00.000-07:00

hey everyone.. i went to the national stadium the ohter day.. and purely to enjoy.. slack.. eat macs and enjoy the FIRE WORKS!!! well it was all readlly cooll here are lots of photos!!
but these are onli from my phone.. the rest are still in the camera gettin fixed up.. so jus bear with me on these..

Wheee.. here comes the singapore flag...

It's suppose to be the size of two basket ball fields!!

Whoa.. here's the very first display of it.. that's from the stadium..

This was a stupid early shot i took.. check it out...PURPLE!! lol..

Whoo!! bright white ones that really were bright..

Wootsss.. this came from the side of the stadium... so damn big and loud...rawr!!

WHOO!! this one came after the one above.. it was really really really really bright and loud..

I have videos but lemme up load them to youtube first and show you all.. i aint a member there yet.. plus i'll get the camera images out and you can see my dad's photography skills..(boo)

kiddin... he's ok wif the cam.. ok..see you guys.. gotta pack my room up.. it's darn too messy and my mom's friends are comin over..

Oh yea b4 i ferget.. Mun Mun... rest well.. guess u ain't gonna have p.e.fer quite some time.. lol.... Be careful next time kaes? the doctor said you were very lucky right? luck dun come twice!

see ya'll!!

3rd august 2005hours

2006-08-09T23:36:00.000-07:00

Am on the bus now.. On the way home..
CCA ended bout 6 today... And i have since then been callin people for your number..
You've got CCA tomorrow i heard...
Try not to be so slack anymore bahs...
You are always like that de..
I am so excited.. i am suppose to get ur number 10 hours later..
but wheater i'll get it or not i dunno..
many of my friends make fun bout wad i did..
"I do not like her!" i admit...
But my hjeart says other wise..
I pray that if it does happen.. it will be forever..
It would never die.. But keep growing..
Indeed it is.. The way You behave..
Some how You do catch my attention constantly.. i dunno why..
but you just do..
People make fun of you.. But i stand by and for you..
It's the simplest act of love i can do..
I still long for a glimpse of your face...
It's been onli 2 days and my heart longs For you so deep..

3rd Aug 1420hours

2006-08-05T02:46:00.000-07:00

Now i am in CD lesson.. and wer are listening to the song "Hello God"
And i wonder out of the blue.. wad is ur religion?
I've been thinkin lately.. mostly about you..
Perhaps When i get ur number i may admit..
Maybe.. yet again.. Maybe not...
Maybe i'll just stay as ur friend..
I couldn't sleep well last night, i was thinkin too much about you..
Your voice still rings about in my head,
I miss you so..
My friend told me that you were in normal tec course..
I wished i could help you wif ur studies.. and have a sense of pride some how..
i wonder where you stay.. I'd like to know..
My heart still longs for you.. You are yet so far away..
When can i ever meet you again?
This is like a fairytale to happen..
But will it have a happy ever after? i'd wish so...
Still i'd wait for this to take it's own course..
Soon.. CCA will start.. and it for sure will remind me of you again..
It makes me laugh to see how slack you are in it..
laugh...
your laughter makes me smile..
Perhaps i will invite you out one day? and who knows what will happen from there?

2nd Aug 1738hrs

2006-08-02T03:55:00.000-07:00

I'm thinkin of You right now and i wonder,
What are You doin right now?
Slacking? Perhaps, since You said it was your hobby.
I can still remember what You said then, yes.. i can..
I can still remember Your look and smile..
At times You may have caught me lookin at you,
And i quickly turn away in fear of the truth being known..
And yet I am happy that I could catch a glimpse of Your face.
You were rather vain i felt ; from the things You did..
But most girls are, are they not?
And i though that You looked good in Your attire anyway.
I though You had really cool looking eyes..
And now i snap back as my phone rings..
It's my friend..To give me Your number..He aint got it yet..But..
I shall wait patiently for it..
At first i wondered who called..
Yet somehow I always Wished that it was You..
As it appeared as an unknown number to me..
And perhaps we would talk and message for hours.
During the game i remember..
I'm sorry for what i did..
It may have spreaded rumours which You may not like..
I'm truely sorry for it..
But at least i am man enough to say and admit to the things i have done..
I wished that we lived nearby to each other and could meet anytime,
And i'd help You when You need help..Just as You would..
I miss You..

2006-07-29T05:18:00.000-07:00

Hey Everyone.. it's been long since i posted..
i was busy makin this skin.. yupp... aint it nice? i stole some of the photos.. XP
so i did credit the girl who found the photos.. Thanks a bunch..
well... NCC yesterday was really slack.. and i really mean SLACK!!
i mean like we pump onli like 120?
tad's all!! we had so called p.t. where my group did pt first.. we ran.. pumped.. did sit up..
blaH BLAH.. then we played captains ball..
and there was this lame rule where when ur opponent scored a goal u had to pump 25.. lol..
so evryone made a plan with out letting the seniors knowing.. we allowed ea group to score one and stuff. so we like kinda pretended.. but in the end everyone still had to pump 50.. wow ness..
right, then we got ready for masters parade... where we got a bronze total defence.. and our orientation badges.. at first i was wondering why is it that there are part b gettin the badge when we dint do much? till i realised that it was jus given to everyone, fer wad?
i dunno.. who cares? so long as we got another badge! muahaha
well that we got that and we owed 88 pumping fer i dunno wad the hell.. lol..
in total it was really honestly very very slack..
and speaking of being slack.. mr kwang..
my DnT teach.. was going through everyone's ideas.. he went through everyone's 3 ideas..
but when he came to mine.. he looked at my first idea.. the convo was like this,

"Why is this on a small peice of paper?"
"O i was walking when i got ispired and jotted it down.."
"O i see...hmm.."
"=.="
"Well i like this idea alot....."
"O ok...."
"And u know what? i dun wanna look at the rest!"
"wad the...."(hearing is not beilieving)
"CAuse i think this idea is every good and i want you to do this.."
"err.. ok.." (diao)
"please go home and go and make ur mock up.."
"ok.."
it was like so wierd.. and i took time to think of the other 2 also.. bohoo...
and i also took time to actually think it over and draw it nicely.. dots..
wasted..haiz...
blah blah blah and it went on...

speakin of which.. leonard came online..and he makes me think of miao qian..
who which should b given an award for callin me an ass hole..
it was like this..
she was laughing with her friend like mad people out side the toilet there....
i walked past rolling my eyes..
and she said..
"Dun roll ur eyes at me like that... ass hole.."
i dint say shit and walked on.. unknowingly why.. since that incident
(for those who know..actually onli nick) i have not talked much..
well then i jus walked on.. actually i was looking for Someone..(notice the caps)
but dint find that Someone..normally i would responed to her with this..

"Ok Miao Qian..But u must know it takes a bigger ass hole to recgonise another ass hole.."
of which would impliment that she was a bigger ass hole..
but no... i dint say a thing...
rawr...so bad de you MQ.. wad happened to the guai kia from last time?
lol.. gtg..
packing for camp feast!!!! YYYYYYEAAAAA!!!

2006-07-21T06:05:00.000-07:00

heys alls... i dint post fer long... have been busy.. lol.. studying and tad founders dae shit...
well done to everyone the other dae!!!1
YUPP!!! we stayed till like 6-7?
haha... KEEP IT UP EVERYONE!!!
which would go to...
1) NCC
2)NPCC
3)GB
4)SCOUTS
5)GG
6)BB
7)DANCE (though i din see the perfomance)
8)STOMP!!
9)SJAB!!

haha.. yupp yupp..o and i fergot..

10)PUB!!!!
yupp..they spent alot of time( and money on streamers and stuff) to decorate the whole freakin skool.. it was like damn kool!! muahahaha... KEEP IT UP PUB!!!! XD

well.. they got the NCC to blow balloon fer em.. ea person got to blow one.. lol.. it was like alot.. cause there's already 27 in part B and i think 28 in part A so u go do e math...
haiz...now i got muscle ache like idiot like tad.. cause todae we pump at least 300?
lol... 200 was 5 by 5... still it was crazy.. wen i recover all the blood suddenly flow down... ouch man..den P.T. was weird..
i tot it was gonna b IRON MAN but nope.. sad sad sad sad sad and good cause i got muscle ache from yest cus NCC carry chair from tower hall to main hall.. darn heavy i tell you.. lol...
the event, founders dae is gonna b a really good one.. lol.. YUP!!
50 12 dollars streamers... which means e school spent 600 on the big poppers alone.. wad about the small ones everyone is gonna get? lol... and imagine the mess!!! lol...
yupp.. anyways WH oso fell sick..(bohoo no one from my class changin into no.4 wif me..)
well den got alot stupid moments todae..

1) when mr yao was askin me qns about ncc and stuff...

yao "So...How's NCC?"
Me "ok....."=.=
"sure or not?"
"yes sir..."(how sure can i not be?)
"do you think the punishment that the seniors give you are reasonable?"
"most of them yes.. but there are few monets when it is not really.."
"like when is it unreasonable?"
"like yest.. they asl us to run frm the tree to NCC's mr oak...then they knock us down 20 every 5secs"
"wha..really argh? who knock de?"
"errmm... i fergot.. dunno who la...one of the ps i think.."(dotssss)
"U DUNNO?! like this yest onli u oso ferget?"
"yes... err acctually i dun really bother to rmber.."
"dun bother argh.. then wad? u jus do la and den dun care?"
"yes sir.."
"oohhh....so u r tad kind of follower kind and not that leader kind is it?"
"err not really sir.."
"So if i asked u to talk infront of ur own part will they listen to you?"
"yes sir..."
"out of respect or friendship?"
"I would suppose both sir.."
"So u are tryin to sae tad u dun have enuff chances to do so is it?"
"errr kinda i guess so" (oh shit)
"ok nvm.. u rmber those....

blah blah blah and it went on.. he was askin me y i wrote those 3 cadets name to b e best ones and plus he asked me the worst qns.. who do u think is the worse 3 cadets...?
oh shit... i couldn't say names...!!!
RARGH!! Y U ASK ME? I DUNNO!!!!!!
anywae i anyhow sae la.. lol..
den leonard got qoute i "shit" from csm jonathan..
he said tad leonard was laughing when he said he wasn't..lol..
den leonard had to pump 50 without us.. wth....
i dunno wth he did.. something to do wif laughing..
but hell it was serious.. man.. i dunno wad happened larghz..
i jus left early and went canteen.. den wen xin suddenly tok to me...
i was kinda surprised actaully...we dun even sae hi except fer tad one time...>.<
WX "Eh alex..has NCC ended yet?"
me "yea it has ended," durt i know y she was askin so i added..
"but the sec3 are having a briefing so i dunno wad time end..."
"orh ok...thanks.."
dun come and ask me wad the reason i knew was.. u wanna know u go see her blog urself.. i aint gonna sae a thing..
lol.... i gotta go to skool at 9 tmr.. but i goin at 6 go slack..
sianded..stand der pop popper.. lol.. i feel kinda stupid...
And to top it off.. WH may not b der tmr.. he's still sick.. lol.. but part B gonna watch POC tmr.. 2.30.. lol..my mom lemme go but she onli gimme 10 bucks..bohoo...
NICK!!!!!! I WANT MY 30 FREAKIN DOLLARS TAD U FREAKIN OWE ME!!!!!RAWR!!!
hehee..
well.....i got nothin to do now.. i completed my other drawing... haiz..i jus feel depressed suddenly cause i feel tad alot of sad things are happening now..
geezz...
next week is esplanade concert week thing.. plus next monday is hist common test and i dun understand a thing la.. lol..no la kiddin...
but at least all the NCC pple will miss one dae of skool cause we will all b at a camp that is fun but it is compulsory if u wanna b promoted... which, in this case, doesn't make any freakin sense at all.. lol.. a fun camp so u can b promoted.. wth?
lol....o shit.. WH lehz? damn man u betta get betta by then.. u got one week and a few hours.. lol..
i mean like u dun wanna miss tad camp right? PAINT BALL EH!!! PAINT BALL!!!
lol.. or so i guess.. lol.. i wonder how its gonna b like.. hopefully the toilets are good too..and speaking of good.. the food too.. lol..
wel i gtg.. lol... big dae tmr.. see ya'll

2006-07-08T02:04:00.000-07:00

Hey alls.. wowness..
i realised that my blog is like so dead? hahahaha...
i am gonna go blog hopping again..later tad is..
i found the skins i was lookin for!! hahahaha!
it took me 3 hours to go through all of em.... sadly the song was suppose to b "For You"
By the callin.. it was e sound track in daredevill...
besides "wake me up inside" by evan~..
yupp..
today i woke up and had to study... breakfast was not back yet.. so i had to study first... i studied geog... and i will study again..like a slacker...
then i went out to PP.. bought some clothes and my swimming trunks... my god...
its been like 6 years since i got into a pair of trunks.. wha lao..
i felt so damn weird in it larghs...
RARGH!!!

wen i tried on the costume on at home...
my maid and sis were lookin at how it was.. i mena they were lookin cause i wanna
ask em how it looked and how it was lar..

(sis)"Hey hey wait.. lemme see smth.."
"What............."
"Wait lah! Lemme see ur hip there.."

I just stood there and let her look at it..

" wha lao.. Ur hips there got that V-shaped line"
"So what? I dun like it.."
"Dun like it?? It's nice largh!"
"Please Lah..."
(Maid)"Hey That is damn nice lah..."
(sis)"Yar...U know how many body builders out there want that kinda thing?"
"No..Not really...Do you?"
(Maid) " It Really is nice lor.. Not many people have that"

Then my sis started poking my stomach..
"Nice muscles"
"Please LARGH!!!"
"honestly!"(continues pokin)
(hits her hand) " Stop it! I ain't a manequine"
(maid) "eh.. at least u dun have much ribs pokin out now.."

i looked down and to my side..
"oh yea.. I just realised.."
(sis)" Ohh...I just seen that too.."
"Yay... i got not much bones exposed like a guitar.."
(maid)"hahaha.. last time can count how many u got.."
" MUAHAHAHA!!!! NOT ANYMORE!"
(sis) "Down here have.." (points at my side)
(Maid) "That is normal la!"
"...... my stomach muscles are outta place.. i trained em wrongly at p6 ya know.."
(sis) " AhH That is u cant do ath bout the largh"
"...." (pokes stomach)

LOL! i was like standing there lookin at my trunks...
Or acutally more like peerting at how i looked in my trunks and how my hip there were
Lame... but honestly...it's been freakin long since i got into trunks..
oohhhh... speakin of which i am having chicken curry fer tonight's dinner..
yayness... my fav... home cooked.. can smell the curry..
haha...
As i were saying.. last time i neva liked trunks.. i always wore a suit.. dun ask me why...
i neva liked exposing my body..even when swimming..
lol... but not so bad.. at least these pants are square cut..
no V Shaped shit..my mom wanted me to get one like that..
i told her.. the square cut or the suit or nothing...
so ahahaha.. had the pants...
it kinda reminded me of my pri school pants..
they should be this small if i were to wear them... now that is..
well...ooo..5.23.. i wanna go excercise..
no wait.. i can't; i got muscle cramp from workin out the other day..
i think i like over did it..
tralalala...speakin of which.. fer those who are intrested.. tuesday.. got b ball match..
i wonder if AH is playing.. i think they are.. my mei from Temask is gonna go there...
well..
i gtg...it's dinner.. yayness.. se ya'll!

2006-07-07T05:49:00.000-07:00

i felt like writing some stuff about my life at a point of time inbetween the end of sec1 and till now..

Wasn't it Amazing?

We had it for a year and more..

I had always been happy about it..

Everytime i prayed to God,

I asked him to forgive me for the sins i had done,

The sins i had done to b by ur side..

And yet again i thanked him..

For what?

I thanked Him that u were still here..

By my side

And for the time that We had spent together..

I always looked out for You then..

To see if u were ok..If no one was giving u troubles..

And i confided alot of secrets in You..

And so did You..

Still rmbr that time on e bus?

We were caught..

I wasn't ashamed then..I just was smiling away..

I was some how happy..

There's no words desciable for how i felt..

I was always smiling..

No matter what happened..

I wish here i could say it was my happy ending..

Like in a fairy tail..

But as i said.. It was like a fairy tail..

But this wasn't..

Jus like how i felt..

Wen i received tad Message..

I was really saddned..

Right then I was on the bus..

And,perhaps u don't know,

I sat at the back of the bus and cried..

I just cried..

I Wished we had gone through thick and thin together..

Helping each other some how..

There was the Other day..

We took the bus back home together..

i sat next to you..

I was thinkin

"What is it i am doing here?"

I felt like jumping off th bus then..

And running home..

Or any where..

But i Din't..

I wanted to say then..

"I need you..please.."

But i Din't..

I knew it was pointless..

Then the other time i msged you..

u said things to me in a different mood..

In a happy light mood..

And b4 u said it i knew what happened..

I laid in my bed and Cried..

I cried myself to sleep that night..

My eyes were red the next day..

I felt like a helpless person in a bottomless pit..

Where ever i went.. when i tot of you..

I just cried.. no matter where i was..

Once on the similar bus we took...

I cried.. People stared at me..

i just cried.. I din care...

i felt weird...

That night..i gave in to the blade..

I bled.. i just looked at it..

And suddenly it felt better...

Then one other day...

I was thinkin too much i suppose..

Bout the past..

I dunno..

I fainted In the Rain... Nobody knew i was there...

But when i came to 3 hours had passed..

it was 4 in the afternoon..

I went home and changed.. and cut once again..

i felt better then..again..

U have no idea..

When school was open again..

what i did to hide from you..

i'd walk one big round to avoid you..

To not see you..

I ran away..

I hid and waited for you to pass..

Looked away just not see you..

All this was...just..

To run away from the actual facts..

I grew hate and Grudge..

Unknowingly..blaming You..

For everything..

The Pain..

The Memories..

The Breakdown..

But somehow.. it came to be that..

We turned from foes to frwens..

Yet..now we say hi to each other..

It's just so diificult for me..

U smile so innocently...

And makes me feel happy and not so pressured..

to just say 'hi'..

But then again..

Why is it that u don't reply my sms's?

i wait by the phone fer ur reply.. but u don't..

i feel messed up..

I both Wonder why u ignore me..

And want to 'be frwens' just as u requested..

U once gave in to the blade too..

i was concerned..

I worried for you...Hoping that..

U dint cut some where wrong like your wrists..

I was also concerned when u got those blisters on ur shoes...

I kept askin how it was..

and u always said it was ok....

I found it hard to believe..

Soon.. ur msgs became shorter and shorter..

and finally u dun reply...

i switch my phone off..

To stop myself from waiting fer ur msg..

I guess i'm just stupid..

i dunt know wad to do..

I wish..

I wish That..

I wish that i could..

Could wipe u out of my life..

it sounds easy and tempting.. may b i should?

the decision will b made in due time..

fret not..

fer i may migrate soon..

some where far away..

Then u wun have to see me anymore..

And So wunt i~

Whoa.. this is really long.. well gtg.. see ya'll..ath to ask just msg..

2006-07-07T05:48:00.000-07:00

hey.. well today was kida of a stupid day some how...
i dunno how.. it just felt so la..
well skool ended at like 12 todae.. i reahed home at 2 btw..
we had these periods...
1) geog (wth..)
2)P.E. (yayness)
3) SEL (boo.. cause no mr tay)
4)Hist

P.E. was still e best subject.. i liked today's programme...
lol.. we took height and weight.. so shud dup.. lol.. i ain;t gonna sae shit besides my weight..
38.5.. rargh.. i miss 40kg.. but der will b cons if i get fat.. lol..
depending the way i gain it i guess..
well we had p.e. and it was the same as 2A..
hey~~ leonard.. lol.. (hinting at smthin)

nah.. i aint gonna say it to anyone unless they alreadi noe then tad aint my prob..
lol..well.. surprise surprise.. my wounds from my stupid roller blading stunt is gettin better..
yupp and i managed to run and play b ball with a little effort..
we were suppose to run 6 laps around the field todae but i ran 9..
i just felt like running.. so i did... yupp
well i noticed tad 2A ain't exactly wad u'd call active.. NO OFFENCE!!

*whew* which kinda reminds me of one dae.. some nice fella go post on e ED club member blog:
"We'll be back next year.. you watch out.."
wha lao... fer this we pump 100? 200 plus? lol.. but we deserve it..
heck.. not like we can do shit..

ok so as i said i noticed tad 2A wasn't very active.. after their run they just sit ther and do nothin till recess was over.. lol!
i was der playing b ball all e way.. so happi.. but i din shoot in much todae..
just ain't my dae today and plus i have not played fer a freakin long time.. so dun blame me..
well i shot mostly 3 pointers.. amazingly i can shoot so many.. last time shoot 2 gonna die liaos..
hmmm.... i saw tad really tall gurl tad i last saw at KKH.. and then there she was again..
wha lan... she is really damn tall la.. rargh.. they were like onli running up and down the breath of the b ball court at the bottom.. so damn lucky.. lol...

rargh... but i think i over did it in the b ball and running.. i got muscle cramps.. luckily i got no NCC.. if i did i'd be reporting sick all e time..tralalala..
i went to wen xin the blog.. the 2A one also.. wha lan.. i was walkin down from school then she suddenly say 'hi' to me.. i nearly tripped and fell..

she suddenly call me like tad is realli so out of e blue.. wha.. o then i went to her blog todae.. u wanna read just go read ur self... i aint gonna say shit bout it..
well.. i am suddenly feelin in a poetic mood.. haha...
gonna think of one.. moi wanna type more poems.. i like p~~

OOOOOOOOOOOOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!
RAAAAAAAARRRRRRGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!! the bloody adapter fell on my foot..
ouchy..*sniffles* right..
ok...hmm.. just wondering y is it i am suddenly listenin to Simple plan?
lol.. i like em alot! i like the songs Everytime.. One..Perfect..Jump..Shut Up!..Crazy.. and alot more.. haha...
well gtg...
be bac after my shower..

2006-07-02T19:58:00.000-07:00

hey alls... ain't posted fer a long time.. srry.. was busy wif stuff.. lol... like watching movies and playin and studyin.. lol..
later i am goin out wif king jun and sheena tad clinc and Cheryl TAN tad clinc..but i dun think i will follo em to k box.. lol.. my dad dun like and want me to do so.. dunno why..
i hope we watchin movie at tm.. then i can go arcade.. muahahahahaha..
well i really like this song tad i changed it to.. it called endlesss love by jackie chan and some stupid gurll i think i said tad b4.. it was used in the show the myth..
it ROCKS!! the myth rocks!! lol.. here's a poster..

I think jackie looks a little stupid in this show with tad long hair tucked in tad helmet.. and there lots of funny parts.. and lots of computer animated parts.. lol... one part to notice if u watch this show is when he accidently poked the korean guy with his sword.. you will see it move left and right.. lol..

well in total i rate this show 4 stars! lol... yayness...haha...

oo...it's 11 now.. gotta get rdy soon..well i guess my posts are all very crapp... well last sunday i watched super man returns with my parents.. it's so damn stupid and lame la.... i hope mingjun they all dun wanna watch tad later.. go watch garfield!! hahahaha... In this show..garfield2, garfield is treated as royalty.. it rocks la.. then u see him do all kinda of stupid things in the palace..lol...

which reminds me.. i still owe cheryl mun a movie... **sobs** i'm goin bankrupt from buyin my comic Kyo... i suddenly jumoped from 10 episodes to 20.. lol.. and it is 5 a book.. wow.. ok.. so 50 dollars was spent there.. it was suppose to b 3 from some second hand book shop but then it sold the whole thing to some one... boo.. so now i must buy new ones.. lol.. 5 dollars..

tralalalalala.... i'm listening to jesus of suburbia... now this part is i dont care and dear beloved.. i like dear beloved.. "dearly beloved are u listening?!"Speakin of which.. i was tokin to cheryl Tan on msn just now... and i wun tok bout wad has happened to her lately.. lol..yayness... Kuro is online.. tralalalala...haha...

suddenly i'm thinkin bout setting ur goals and reaching em.. lol.. my next goal is to make a candy red coloured bouquet! yupp! so i must await the next time i go to the flourist.. haha... get cute littlered flowers.. and then some ivy... (wandering into flower land)

ok pls shud dup.. i ain't gay! just because i like flowers dun mean i am gay! so SHUD DUP!! lol.. ok see ya'll goin to have lunch..

2006-06-30T02:09:00.000-07:00

1. Will you tell the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth so help you god?

yes..i solemly swear across my heart(crosses fingers behind back)

2. What kind of shirt are you wearing?

errrmm....i'm kinda topless right now.. just got bac from sprts dae..]

3. Have you ever kissed anyone in your friendster list?

Have not kissed(besides my parents) so tad's outta e question..

4. Do you have 'a thing' for anyone on your top 8?

err.... yea.." live life to it's fullest!"

5. How many people in your friendster list do you know in real life?

dunno.. i hardly use friendster.. i quit..

6. How many kids do you want to have?

dunno... 2? (lol)

7. Do you have a good relationship with both your parents?

YEA!

8. Do you make over 40k a year?

at my current age? i wish i could..

9. What name would you want to have besides the one you have?

i want it to be Nanahara Shuya..

10. What did you do for your last birthday.

Cut cake..sleep..

11. What's your main ringtone on your phone?

Endless Love And You Are The One..

12. What time did you wake up today?

5.30a.m... todae i sports dae..

13. What were you doing at midnight two nights ago?

smsing and reading comic book..

14. How many of your ex's are on your friendster list?

dunno.. totally..

15. Do you like having your hair pulled?

pull WAD hair?

16. Name something you can't wait to do?

.... get my own room and paint it black with a stary sky..

17. Last time you saw your mummy?

last night.

18. Do you get along with your siblings?

Yes.. and at times No..

19. What is the one thing you wish you could change about yourself?

My Face..

20. If you had $250,000 how would you spent it?

keep 240,000 and spend the remaining 10,000

21. Have you ever talked to Tom?

No.. I dun just talk to any tom dick or harry..

22. Describe what colour underwear are you wearing?

wait..lemme check..oh.. it is Black and it's hush puppies..

23. Last thing you ate?

Zinger meal set upsized and chessy fries..

24. What's your favourite month?

June, October and December

25. Your least favourite month?

Err.. when eva the exams are..

26. What's the last piece of clothing you borrowed from anyone?

errrr... nothin? i dun remember..

27. Who is getting on your nerves right now?

Me...

28. Most visited webpage?

www.newgrounds.com

29. Last person you text messaged?

Cheryl Tan =D(hey...)

30. Last person to make you sad.

Cheryl Mun.. (hey..dun do tad to urself anymore ok? sort things out nicely next time wif him..)]

31. Would you take a bullet for your best friend?

Yes.. but hopefully i dun die..

32. Favourite kind of drink?

Coke light... Coffee( cappuchino) & Tea( Earl Grey Tea).. Honey and Lemon tea..

33. Favourite food?

JAPANESE FOOD!!

34. Favourite dessert?

Dunno.. not sure actually..

35. If someone u hated died..what would your expression be?

Nothin much really.. just solem... yupp... death is nothin much to me now..

ok now look.. i did this fer fun.. cause i'm really bored and i got nothin to do fer now.. actually yes i do.. i need to go change fer outing..
no it ain't a date.. watchin super man returns.. lol! hopefully can go arcade or smthin.. but i highly doubt it so.. watching at orchard..
speaking of which.,. when u go to princess theatre...
dun any how touch the area around ur seat especially if the movie b4 urs is some RA,M21,Nc16 kinda thing.. honestly... dun... really..

well today we din do much.. we did nothin much... wait not we.. me.. lol.. to day was sports day..
NCC got 2nd place.. boohoo.. lost to english drama.. and did u know on the walkaton day.. their cca board glass plane broke? dun ask me how.. i just know tad it did...
after sports day.. Riane,Nick,Cheryl and I went to east point the KFC yupp... i had a Zinger Meal and chessy fries.. lol... i'm gonna put on weight.. which is kinda good... i'm skinny,, but not to the level tad u can see all my ribs stickin out and stuff... come on dun be SICK! unless u are tad kinda very slanted fella then i can't blame you.. ok.. well then nick and i went to popular.. and suddenly half wae der.. ncik had to go take a shit..(lol)and i bought 4 episodes of my comic.. yayness! i'm at episode 21 now i think... or 20.. should b 20.. dun care.. i already read 2 episodes.. yupp.. and i am awaiting vampire knight book 3.. yupp.. me wanna read.. wanna wanna wanna! lol.. well.. gotta go! see ya'll!
TAKKAIRE EVERYONE!

周记

2006-06-23T21:14:00.000-07:00

在第二个星期我本来要参加 (Outward Bound Singapore)。但是我生病了，结果只能呆在家里做工课和玩电脑。本来我真的要参加这个活动但是我生病的很严重，受了医生的治疗后，他告诉我我不能参加OBS了，那时我啼笑皆非。

从此我就呆在家里，每天躺在床上休息，在第三个星期我恢复了健康后，我和Nicholas一起出去玩。我们也去买一本书，这本书是整班需要读的，它是一本英文书。过后，我遇到我的姐姐，她刚好要在买衣服所以我就跟着她。

在最后的这个星期我班举办了烤肉会，本来我要去划船但当我的父母亲发现时，他们是不要让我去的，但最后他们还是让我参加了。在烤肉会时，只有十多个人参加。我们就在海边玩，玩到六点后就准备火了。我们吃完的时候大概是七点半。吃完后我们就到靠近的灯塔玩一些游戏然后到十点时，我们个个都走自己的方向，回家了。

2006-05-28T07:23:00.000-07:00

hey alls.. this is a pooem tad i wrote fer two pple..

1) Kelly..
hey.. i dun blame u realli.. i understand(some how) sorry fer the hate i grew to you.. thou it was like fer 2 hours? We must go out for another movie one day when a nice one is on!! then we'll laugh at nick's outrageous behaviours.. like his gay ice cream

2)Her..
hey.. i understand that u realli want it.. but it was kinda a big shot gun relation ship so no harm done! =D

ok so here the poem is:

What should I say,

Since faith i had in you,

is now dead,

And truth away From you is fled?

Should I be led With doubleness?

Or to follow Faith and stay on?

I promised you,

And you promised me,

To be as true friends,

And nothing less,

As I would be.

But since I see Your double heart,

Farewell my part!

I Sense that i am unwanted,

As if some plaything..

Though for to take

It is not my mind,

But to forsake

[One so unkind]

And as I find,

So will I trust:

My instincts,

Or your words that somehow,

Which seems to bind me so strictly?

Can ye say nay?

But you said That I always Should be obeyed?

And thus betrayed Or that I wiste--

Farewell, unkissed.

The Faith i had in you,

Has died along with my heart,

I no longer know what to believe..

You smiled,

You spoke,

And I believed,

And i was,

By every word and smile,

Deceived.

Nor hope I what I hoped before:

This last one is vain..

Deception..

Deceived once again..

I bid mi'lady farewell..

i really like this one plus another one i wrote.. hey!! this is copywrited!

i am sendin it in fer e school magazine.. haha.. i already had one poem enter and i want another..

the other one is love.. this one would be love and betrayal?

i dunno u take ur pick..

yea once again i was pondering over the importance of friends in life and realised that little friends do i have..

(nick, kenny,jolynn,cheryl,wen xin, christianto, mingjun,weihua,amany ncc seniors..)

geezz i dunno.. i dun think i have alot.. my friends from tuition sae that i am anti-social..

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well it is true that friends in life are imprtant.. at times when u feel so down over some teenage stuff who else but them to talk to? i mean our bloody parents dun understand shit bout us.. heck.. even my dad is tryin to match make me.. haiz.. wtf.. he keeps thinking i am veri veri veri hurt after any breakup.. wadda idiot.. he really is so shud dup.. and yea back to e topic of friends..honestly.. you'll find that u spend at least half of your life out wif friends.. ok let's not sae life.. day.. u realised? yea yea yea?

durin recess u dun sit alone now do you? unless it is wif an opposite sex that u hate or smth..

i mean u'd group wif em right?

and when eva u needa listeing ear.. who is alwaes there? your good friend!! when u need a shoulder to cry on whose is it that u would drench? ur friends!!!

your parents would onli not bother you and leave you in ur room where u'd onli feel worse..

haiz..

i dunno why but it suddenly hit me so greatly and i have been thinkin bout it fer a long time..

life's really gonna be cold with out any friends.. they are the ones that reach out a hand when you fall and they are the ones you laugh and learn bout things in life with..

you go through thin and thick with them!! wow-ness...

lots of examples eh?

haha..

lately i have also been thinkin bout my prom night..who'd i go wif? XD!!

Jie ning and i were discussin bout it the other day.. i shall grow talle most of all.. i am already 155.. yay-ness.. i wanna reach 6 feet.. haha...

i oso wanna watch over the hedge..=D

i oso wanna play arcade..

i oso wanna become 40 kg...

loll.. i am wondering..

suddenly thinkin bout relationships..hee!!

god has everything planned fer me i know it..he has already decided everything fer me..

haiz.. i just hope tad everything works out to plan..

hee...let life take it's course!! just go wif e flow.. ^^

AAAAAARRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH....

o.o doesn't tad mean god has decided whom i'll kiss and whom i'll marry...

eeeekkk!!!

it's scary to b able to do this kinda stuff u know? creeppppyyyyy....

damn i gtg and sleep soon..cause i gotta go back to school tmr afternoon.. i gotta give some crapp shit form back to CCP cause he damn ass hole he go give us on friday then we have to go backk...

geez...

of yea and the other dae i just went back fer my dental.. damn it hurt like mad and the apinkiller was already alot la.. boo..

i still got another session to get it filled.. =D then no worries bout ath else liao except fer the tooth droppin off..><

they are havin the student council selection camp soon.. haha.. yea.. cehryl told me so dumbeedeedoo!!

lol.. i like tad phrase..hmm... well gtg..

i'm gonna get started on my ferrari model.. haaa!! bb alls... and dun b an idiot to msg me on the 12th to 16th of june.. i ain't gonna b any where within 300 m of my phone.. cause i am goin fer OBS.. so see ya'll then!! boohoo.. no com..b!!

2006-05-27T23:33:00.000-07:00

NE-YO LYRICS

So Sick

Mmmm mmm yeah
Do do do do do do do-do
Ohh Yeah

Gotta change my answering machine
Now that I'm alone
Cuz right now it says that we
Can't come to the phone
And I know it makes no sense
Cuz you walked out the door
But it's the only way I hear your voice anymore
(it's ridiculous)
It's been months
And for some reason I just
(can't get over us)
And I'm stronger then this
(enough is enough)
No more walkin round
With my head down
I'm so over being blue
Cryin over you

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

Gotta fix that calender I have
That's marked July 15th
Because since there's no more you
There's no more anniversary
I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memory
And how every song reminds me
Of what used to be

That's the reason I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

(Leave me alone)
Leave me alone
(Stupid love songs)
Dont make me think about her smile
Or having my first child
Let it go
Turning off the radio

Cuz I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)

Said I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishin you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
Why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)
Why can't I turn off the radio?

2006-05-27T22:11:00.000-07:00

hey alls.. haha.. srry i din't post fer a long time..
i was busy wif my other blog.. the url is: www.AbyssOfDeath-.blogspot.com
yea..but it is password protected.. if u want e password u gotta be in my ciecle of trust..
yupp..i may wanna change e pass montly.. so u had ask and not hack or wad eva shit..><
yea.. haha.. yest.. i went to play lan game.. lol.. the game tad i played most was GB..
no.. not gangbang... but gun bound.. carn believe my account is still there..
lol.i'm onli a double wodden so shud dup..
yupp.. i just gained 60gp yest.. haha.. play 2 hours.. i did play other games but ehck i ain't gonna to bout tad..
lately i noticed e importance of friends and was wondering bout all the hate i had for anyone..
i realised tad it was alot.. >.haha.. so yea.. i got rid of it all.. i mean it is really bad..
cheryl mun and i seem to b on betta terms now it seems..
haha.. were're gonna catch MI3.. yea i know i lagg la..
i have not catch it yet..but i catched Xmen3 the last stand with nick and kelly!
yea.. not e kelly from our school..so yea.. haha..
kelly said i was dao-in her tad day..and she was trying to give me 'why are you daoing me'
look.. but sadly i din't notice cause i din really look at her.. dun ask me why i was like that tad
day.. i just am.. perhaps by stress?
oh yea chere.. betta take care of tad foot.. try not to walk too much (sounds stupid)
i mean like our bloody school is on a freakin hill!! some nice positioning it is on..
stupid..in fact every day i go home confirm will get foot ache.. lol..
ever tried walking 10 mrt stations b4?
i did tad once.. fer fun.. turned out i had 13 blisters on my foot.. geezzz...
got a scolding from my dad cause my wounds dun heal very fast compared to others..
yea.. speakin of scars.. i was tokin to chere bout self-inflicted wounds b4.. haha..
yea.. all e scars on my arms are all caused by penknifes and some funny tool..
yea.. oh!! yea i made it into OBS!!!!! yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...................
OUTWARD BOUND SINGAPORE!!!
yea yea yea yea yea yea yea yea yea yea..
haha.. here come the 3 other badges.. then next year go again.. XP
haha.. we'll b kayakin fer 3 days 2 nights or so CCP says..
muahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.....
BB got 3 pple goin.. sjab and ncc got e most.. hee! oh ya.. and my dearest jie si jie(wierd) is goin too!! hahaha!! siao liao.. hmm.. come to think of it..
i really have not posted fer a long tie alrdy.. haha.. i'dike to see WH blog.. it's kidna dyin i see..
he is oso goin fer OBS.. hee!! dumdeebeedoo!!
oh yea andtokin bout nick and kelly tad day...
Nick used this reason,:

"I need to talk bout somthing important to her later, so i need to sit next to her"

And guess wad? he din't day shit to her.. lol.. wadda liar... instead he keeps leaning towards my seat..
and when he walks he keeps bangin into me and i'm like

"will you keep the fuck away from me for the 10th time?"

and when we went to 711.. we were lookin bout fer stuff but i and kelly din buy ntohin.. onli nick did..
kelly was like sayin this to me all of a sudden when i was browsin through the lousy selection of wine,:

"Hey alex, why dun u buy that? i'm sure you ned the extra tinglin sensation one."
"Kelly, i dun realli need that cause i am a virgin and i plan to keep my virginity you know.."

yea.. she was like pointing towards the condom selections.. haiz..
And there was a point where Nick went and bought this, "gay ice-cream", and it had sort of a top part which was a green jelly and a bottom part that was normal ice cream.
Well there was some point where he was eating the jelly bit and the whole
bloody thing came off and he practically choked on it.
Kelly and I were laughing insanely and then i was like going something like this:

"You're supposed to LICK the ice cream!"

"How the hell am I supposed to lick jelly?!"

"Haven't you heard of NIBBLING?"

and there came another point of time where i was pissed at nick so i held him i told kelly she is obliged to kick his middle leg and this was her post..

Alex was FRICKING FUNNY. He kept going "Can you stop standing so close to me?!" to Nick and scuttling away like Nick was some faggot. And at some point he grabbed Nick and told me, "You may now kick his little area." AHAHAHAHA! I didn't get the chance though. :(

lol!!! yea and there were two really intamate lesbians.. yea... we saw two of em right after e movie..it was really kooll...alothough i dun think they were lesbians.. i just assumed cause they were really close together.. yea.. one of em was crying.. so i guess e othe one was comfortin her.. yea.. but they just seemed intimate in a really wicked wae.. lol...
oh yea.. in Xmen 3... Scot, Jean and Xavier..
jean is kinda evil i guess.. she was killed by wolverine at the last part..
they were like this..
Wolverine is staggering up this little hill with parts of him bein blown away then he quickly recovers from the wounds very quicly too.. he's actually torn down to the skeleton.. u can see his adamantium skeleton..fianlly he reaches her and suddenly screams in her face in pain(lol) then:

Wolverine: Stay with me jean!
Jean:Help me..(crying)
Wolverine: I Love You..(crying)
then he kills her with his little claws and screams...

Jean is actually a class 5 mutant... yea.. xavier and scot was killed by her..scot's life force was sucked dry by her.. something like rouge and then xavier is blown into dust by her.. it was really lame la.. many parts.. i like angel too.. he's kool except for the part when he was young and was tryin to cut off his wings with cutting tools.. there was alot of blood(=D) and feathers all over the place..
lol...
yea.. then yesterday i went to my mom's friend's house to get away from my house and get my mind off the break.. then i was there watchin totally spies..>< it was very lame.. but it was rather kool animation.. really u look carefully.. it is..
then i went upstairs with the daughter to play gun bound..
NO... NOT TO DO ANY OTHER OBSCENCE STUFF!!
altough she was really irritain cause she kept messin up my spiked hair.. lol.. i just kept pullin off her hair vand and messing uo her hair.. heck i tied her up with a skipping rope with e help of her younger sis.. XD
obviously i untied her..lol.. u dun expect me to just leave her there tied up do you? her mom will kinda scold me.. oh then when i went to their fridge i saw this bottles of drinks.. one was sake and the other was liqour.. i had a drink of both.. woots.. it was really kool.. (hick)
i nearly went drowsy.. drowsy.. not drunk there's a difference.. geez...
NO I DIN'T DO ANYTHING WRONG!!
heck.. i typed alot(scrolling up)
yupp!! i'm gonna stop.. hope u all like the old skin and the new song.. XD!!

2006-05-14T07:21:00.000-07:00

heys alls.. ok this is gonna b a proper post.. lol.. now i am at a lan game shop wastin my time and money away doin this.. i feel like a complete idiot.. lol..
so yea i changed e skin and song accordin to HER wish.. lol.. she was pesterin me twice to do so yesterday and today..
yea and andy just asked me if i am free tmr.. actually i dun even know if there is school..
i feel so idiotic.. geez..i just played warcraft, CS, and dunno wad la..
i feel so damn crappy.. i think me wanna go back to palying GB... muahahahaha.. geez.. here damn noisy sia.. heck... wel i got 60 percent fer chinese.. wows.... an improvement from b4.. muahahahaha....woots....
wows.. everyone here all playin dota and gb.. i feel stupid la...
i can b doin this at homebut here i am typin.. ah la.. i du waste time.. later all..

2006-05-14T03:32:00.000-07:00

hey alls...wow.. finally can post again.. har har har... or actually finally i bother to post again.. har har..oh yea jolynn.. pls shud dup bout ath concernin me n Her.. meanin dun u dare mention Her name to any one..
graghh!! lol.. i'm a bitta insane today cause i lost my freakin phone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 3 days ago.. when i went ice skating... at first there was 2 police pple when my dad called em.. then suddenly 7 came... WTF!!!
it's scary la...lol... well.. haha.. such logic.. 7 police pple fer one hand phone... good use of tax mulah..XD
btw my sis got a N70.. She has a N70... T.T.. and here i am w/o a freakin phone... bohoo....
i gotta use my dad's phone la.. and stuff.. then i only can call her.. i mean i prefer to message la.. bohoo...
speakin of which.. she and me are 5 days old jolynn.. haha.. yea when she said she wanted to patch.. a bus just nice went pass... XD!! then at first i could not hear wad she said.. lol.. then she was kinda like blushin.. lol!!... yea.. u were...
the other time went bugis and PP twice.. like idiot like tad sia.. just walk around like two lost souls like tad...
and not to mention to b like idiot... my blog skin.. dunno why .. mayb my internet is shit.. the webby open damn slow..den i keep thinkin template got prob.. geez...
wanna die sia la...
oh yea speakin of dying... here's a phrase i heard e most often so far..
"can u please go and die?"
lol.. okok... i give up.. i ain't got much left to crapp bout..
this post is just fer e sake of updatin.. i'll make a nicer update another time.. seya'll..

2006-04-29T01:59:00.000-07:00

first of all.. to the person who typed on my cbox as alexsux...
was eva.. u think i suck.. very well.. it's de way i like it.. the world hates me and i hate de world..
andyways.. do post more and lemme know more.. haha..
next.. it ain't rude to take photo of e person sleepin if e person allows..
so get ur facts right b4 u accuse me of being rude.. i do things within bounderies...
and it is a fact.. obviously u r not of this class 2j so u dunno.. but u shld have seen their group la..
i mean joycelyn wanted a big role and could not even memorise the script of a minor role..
ask kenny la.. and wad the heck.. i neva said that my own grp is extremely good.. i din't even say we did good lar... lol..
and so wad if my friends are all gals? at least i have e balls and guts, unlike u, to make friends with them...
u hopeless wif girls then dun come and blame me just because i have gals who r friends.. :P
and i dun flirt... wad i do is mingle not flirt..
if i wanted to i would but that is against morals... so i dun flirt..
make peace not war..
tralalala... neva mind.. dun matter... haha...

well my dad just got back from KL with a whole new set of dvds.. yay!!
and... i watched underworld evolution and am awaiting for the show the davinchi code...
according to e book.. jesus has a wife... O.O
geezzzz.. ok.. yea.. it says that the women performed an act of.. err... 'wifery'
to jesus by breaking a bottle of perfume on his feet.. yea.. appartently...
OOhhhh man... imagine wad happens if it is all real... jesus has a wife...
OR even worse.. wad happens of they find out that jesus is a fake??
NNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNOooooooooooooooooooooooo....
man.. wad will happen to all the christians around the world?
imagine everyone laughing at them about the god that they believed??
damn!! world crisis... imagine wad would happen to all the popes... geezzz... ok..
then wad will then explain the being of man? science? buddist teachings? man...
such complicated things should be ignored by us youngsters...
haha.. ignorance is a bliss.. =D
nick's got a nice blog skin up.. was gonna ue that but heck...
lookin fer some nicer one perhaps?
haha.. gtg... time to get outta e house and stretch some muscles... see ya'll

2006-04-25T02:16:00.000-07:00

heys allss.. fianlly can post again.. but this is gonna b a really short post i think... it is also dedicated to a few subjects.. not the studies subject but the people that kinda subject..

firstly..
1) My e lit performing group..:

Hey everyone.. though we may have done badly.. at least we managed to memorize our scripts unlike kenny's group... haha.. neva mind.. do badly there's nothin we can bout it..
at most just do badly la...haha...

2)My 'Family'

Thank you fer today!! thanks fer e company in e canteeen n e knowledge especially JIE SI JIE!!! (sounds weird) thanks fer helping me with my math.. =D i'm really rotten at it.. haha... huiling.. dun take so many photos of people sleeping la.. and YIYEE!!! u loom so cute when u sleeping.. XD...or so tad is wad every one saying la.. hahahahahaha!!

Look at yourself!!! haha... everyone was like takin photo of you la... and u still slepp sleep sleep sleep... and fer everyone else.. haha... evryone pitied the vendors cause they were cheated!!! BBBOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!! dr boon or whomsoeva told them that sec 1 to sec 4 were gonna have recess from 11.30 to 12.30..but never!! instead release us at 12.00 so everyone all go play lan like derek, nick they all.. some go else where and eat.. then the vendors all got so much food wasted!!!!

BBBBBBBBBBBOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!! XD...so my family and i all go and fork out money and ate as much as possible.. haha!! was gonna explode..X( and also got no more money liao.. i onli got 4 dollars fer e rest of e week...=(((((((

3) My calss 2j

haha!! good luck fer e mid terms everyone!!! dunno ath must ask e pros in our class bout that.. i know tad jai min is all rounder!! haha.. those tad take e maths retest de.. good luck...hope u pass this time.. ^^.. i think i'll fail la.... and class please try and keep e class room clean.. it looked like pigs sty.. just pick up wad eva litter around ur place and stop littering ok liao la..study hard!!

4) My two friends!!

ok You first.. haha.. dun message me so much la... exam liao eh... must study hard la... u message me 283 messages u know? lol...and dun think can meet u at e park any longer cause i need to study.. sorry... hahaha...

ok now huiling.. u sae u wanna go make flowers too right? can but i am goin all e way to thompson there to buy... and you like e baby's breath so much.. haha.. yea it is very nice.. but withers after bout 2 day but it still looks as nice as it is when it is fresh... haha.. hope u manage to create that wild thing fer ur mom.. and ur baby cousin is so cute!! hahahahahahaha!!!

hahaha tad's all pple.. i gtg prepaer fer tuition... see ya'll!

2006-04-24T02:07:00.001-07:00

hey allssss....
hahaha... yesterday m went clothes shopping... wif my mom..
i dun mean really kind shopping thin but i realli needed clothes.. once again all my clothes are either brown or black...
lol...Geeezzz....dun ask me why i like black tad much i just like it..
something like a sloitary colour if tad makes any sense...
any ways got this dumb looking haircut and hope to get rid of it...
the barber din't even touch my fringe and sideburn and they r freakin long..
mr chua catch me.. head will roll sia..lol...
anyways.. yea today when i walk outta toilet at e canteen i noticed alotta 'yellow circles' looking at me...it was e 2k pple... X((
arrrggghhh.. this hair cut was stupid in e first place.. my hair ain't even long enough to look e way it shld la.. mayb i shld return to e old haoir style.. haha...
still i like my side burns.. sianded..
then today that stupid lit performance.. wwwwwhhhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...........
total shocker sia... so mnay pple neva bring stuff la.. whwwwwwwhhhaaaA!!!
die like shit like tad lor.. then today still got tad stupid math re test where i think i am not gonna do any betta... shit la.. it is chap 6 n 7 tad keep holding me back.. bwals!!
so of copurse i go ask my sis.. JIE SI!! to help me.. har har har..she maths pro mayb..
dun care la.. so long as can help me...
then shit la.. tmr still got two ke to lean fer ting xie.. bwals...!!!
all cramp n like shit like tad...
well i decided to make this really nice boutique fer my grand mother.. this is how it looks like...
I DID IT MYSELF!!! I DID NOT GET SOME ONE TO DO!! >.< style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/6478/1290/320/Image000.jpg" border="0">

i did it my self!!! muahahahahaha!!! kinda reminds me of zig zag that comic book... and this is my first piece only!! hahaha.. then i did this small bouquet out of the remaining ones and gave it to a friend...

A small little pretty one.. i only know e name of one flower so called and that baby's breath.. it is a weed actually... some thing like a sign of love.. i was really amazed at what i did and plan to make on on mother's day.. muahahaha...

i shall make that one outta three different kinds of roses.. but i gotta go to thompson there and buy which is bloody far away... guess i'll have to ask my dad to drive me there on a sunday or when ever.. hahaha..haiz... i guess to everyone i am a very ego-istic person.. angry selfish rude and act cool person... but i do have my soft spots.. i ain't that bad a person once u get to e good side of me... whihc i must say can b quite difficult...

speaking of which...i've been thinkin bout the phrase ' u can't judge a book by its cover'...thinkin bout that makes me think bout friends... how do we know who r true ones and those who r not? i then realised that things in these world are so hard to trust..friends especially, some behave so nicely infront of you yet talk bad bout u behind ur back.. some one may seem to hate you alot but is dying to tell u that they love u inside.. and some people may seem so happy in their life yet go through lots of suffering and torturing inside..haiz...

think bout it.. if a person can act so nicely infront of you yet backstab you like that.. then thre is no knowing wad they could possibly do to you... i mean like there'd b no limit... haiz... i dunno what to say man.. haiz... sianded.. it has almost been 150 days since my grandmother passed away... i'm glad aat least that she is a peace..amongst other people.. my maid had a dream one and it said that my grandmother was telling my maid bout how worried she was bout me.. bout my health and well being.. and so my dad kinda went craazy bout it and made me drink these funny ash water where u burn the jing and then u mix it wif water then drink and he also got me carrying this weird looking amult around in my wallet.. geezzzz... this is like so damn scary and lame at e same time.. haiz.. and yet it remains to the question: which religion should i b in?

and then i thought.. if people ever found out that jesus was a fake(OH MAN!!) what would happen to those chrisitian that believe in him so much?.... (goin mad)

wow.. ok.. this is really madness..

2006-04-24T02:07:00.000-07:00

2006-04-13T08:11:00.000-07:00

hi alls... how r u all...
here i am at my cousins house usin their laptop and i feel damn sianded..
i wanna go downstairs!!! heck.. so yea.. here i am watching lost and messaging....
my friends...i was tokin to cheryl mun...
sms i mean... i realised that 2k girls can b veri veri veri scary lookin..
my friend whom i shall not disclose says tad they all look damn skanky...
lol...this kinda thing oso can...
hmm...lost is a very boring show.. and yea!
DUN WATCH INSIDE MAN!!!
it sucks as a action show...i mean it like moves so slow and i tot it was gonna b a good show.. lol..
siaz, hey kool!!derek is tokin to me and is askin smth of me but is not tokin no more..
hmm.. wad a weird person...
derek i mean.. he angry also smiling... sad oso smiling... everything oso smile... joker sia...
sianzzzzz.....he ain't tokin!!!
wasting my effort.. in any case i am gonna lend my Fm cd to WH n he suppose to
burn his initial d cd fer me...
lol....i wanna play xbox.. or psp..my cousin got both..
actually oso a PS2.. rich like shit sia...
lol...sianded.... tmr i got like tuiton frm 10 to 2... all do test paper..do do do do do do do...
crazyshit!!sianded!!! sian sian sian sian...
i wnna go downstairs!!!
sianded... heck dun wnna tyoe no more.. this keyboard sucks... see ya'll!

2006-04-12T05:18:00.000-07:00

hi alls... i'm back....sianz...
i nearly broke my ankle...Sobz....
landed wrongly on the right foot....and now i carn find my ankle guard...
and damn it hurts....
and when i din't come on fer 2 weeks i think suddenly i get so many taggs...
ok...well hope u dun mind me disclosing this to whomsoever reads it...jolynn..
well all she said on my tagg is because her grandma died about 3 days ago i think.. maybe 4...
mines been a 102 days that mine has left me... ='(((
everytime we pass the block 9 of SGH... the car suddenly becomes very quiet..
and my grand dad will always look at that block.. so will i and i onli noticed the silence and the looks not too long ago whe i felt that i should let it go..there's nothing we can do..
we all will have to walk down that path one day regardless....
memories...why do we have such things?
i wrote a so called poem at the beginning og my blog there that box.. and changed the song to whatshername...
related to the so called poem...i love the song in any case...it comes from past memories...
or actually the experince of it...*sigh*
and speaking of my tagg board,
cheryl mun went 'yea u btr listen to wad WH says..'
and Wh said..'dude u btr watch out.. i dun even think 5 of you can beat toh...'
lol...ok....a few things..
why would i want to overpower him or anything? jokes...
or even if he did beat me up.. i wouldn't much care...
cause everything i face everyday now is nothing compared to a beating...
if i said my body was breaking down...no one would believe it.. but heck..
i make wads best of wad i have...left....
and another thing.. even if toh did really beat me up or anything...
i'll let him... for ath i proberly deserved it.. and heck..
and wows..Mun and Toh did not talk to me...
Mun said that stefan said that it will not be worth it..
honestly..he's right! lol.. thnks stefan!oh btw.. i wrote ur name on the three best cadets thingy...
i wonder who wrote mine...guess no one..
yea.. so he said i'm not worth it...yea...
honestly... wad they would say would just go in one ear and out the other...
or i would not even remember wad they said...
it all really depends...
in any case i choose to never hold a grudge to anyone..
like in my so called poem.. i choose to forget all the memories and forgive me if i forget you..
so yea...i'll choose to forget certain people...
but obviously not ignore you la!
you say hi i say hi.. kinda thing....you know.. just be wad u call.."blended in wif the crowd"
well yea.. shit sia.. the mid years are out in 3 weeks..shoot..
i need to improve my math...revise chapter 5,6,7 and the algebra stuff..
yea....
whooo...i love this song..it's called ocean avenue...by yellowcard...
it rocks...i love it.. wow... i love something.. ok...
i also like Blind...heck.. why am i crappin so much..
and there seems to b a prob with my blog.. the song does not play...
and i need to get more links and edit some of them...
haizs...no one intresting online de.. and i wonder if she ublocked me... gonna send a mail to her soon any ways....
wad??!! hey i can b a sentinel person ok? i told ya all u dun know me well enuff....
yea and you noe there is this acticvity to do wif kindness week,...
limying or rianie worte this bout me.. i am not totally sure bout it.. i'll confirm..
its something bout... bein more friendly and scary in class...
wow...i'm scary.. ok...i aspire to b like that scary dude in ZigZag..
the one that mei is terribly scred of.. those who read shld know la...
in any case one girl say i got AP look(incredible shit)
then they say i am scary or smth(incredible shit)
one say that i am hao lian(ok i agree to that)
and some say that i am a moral booster(Incredible SHIT!!)
in any case some of you may have caught me rading this book...
or novel which eva...it's called armageddon summer...
it's a little bout god and believers and love..
well i gtg... take care of my stupid ankle... and get started on that..

HEE!!!! ^^ i carn't wait fer this tuesday!! finally another week has passed..
and i can see Her again.. just treated her to dinner the other time... haha...
gtg!

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2006-04-06T06:00:00.000-07:00

hellos all.. lol... i realised y my blog wld post so many...
i press e button too many times.. lol..
must learn how 2 stop that..
well nothin much to type except i think i noe y 'they' wanna tok to me bout...
but i mean this is MY blog... i have EVERY reson to type wad eva i want la...
ur prob if u let me hear bout wad eva shity stuff or BGR or wad so eva...
like i said...I HATE people who say Screw freedom of speech...
u ain't happi bout wad i post then tell me.. i'll se if i can be bothered to open the filters between my ears and brains and listen to u crapp bout wad u ain't happi bout..
dots...i mean if u ain't happi then live with it...
u stop talking to me?
Like i care...
i told ya i have neva been under anyone's jurisdiction except teacher's and family's
so PISS OFF!!!
muaha....lol..
in any case...my mom is play mahjong now.. and it is right next 2 mii...
i am goin deaf la...wow.. i am amazed...
i actually packed up my table and from a space of onli 3books able to fit in the space
to 10 books...lol...pigs are flying man....
i haven't finished my 50 tiems correction...not even start on it...
lol.. betta get started on it...
wow..and suddenly when my mom's game stops she scolds me..
wad the shit...
hao sin mei hao bao...send her my poem then she like this to me..
wha lao....fer get it man...
well i suppose i'll have that tok tmr..
betta be or i am gonna b damn sianded and diaoded la..
qoute i :'it's either tmr the day after or two days after..=)
wad the shit.....like this oso can lol...
sianded...
i polished my boots any old how and they seem to be quite shiny.. ferget it... that women gettin pissed ... bitach... gtg..bb

2006-04-05T03:39:00.003-07:00

hey alls..
back here i am... now e latest scar in my life...
i am suppose to have this conversation or so called conversation with mun and toh..>.<
my gosh man.. wad r they gonna ask me?
lol.. a few lines are running through my mind now...
here are they..
i'd give them with my answers... gosh..

1) Toh:Do you still like her?
Ans: No.. I have lost any intrest....

2) Mun:Why do you keep spreading rumors bout us?
Ans: I din't pread.. i just heard from friends...(dots)

3) Toh: Why are you bullying her?
Ans: In wad way am i?(dotssss)

4)Toh: Can you leave us alone? Especially her?
Ans: I'd be happy to...(duh-uh)

5) This is a likely one-Mun: I hate you...
Ans: I dun realli care....(dots)

6)This is kinda impossible-Toh: I AM GONNA KILL YOU!!
Ans: Uh-Huh..........................................

yea and on one day when i just thought that the day would be nice.. some one said this on msn..
(ahem)ready?here it goes...

WILL YOU SHUT THE FUCKING FUCK UP AND GO SOME WHERE AND FUCK?

two things ran through my mind instantly...
1) Wad the shit did i just do?
2) I am not ready to lose my virginity so soon damn it...so i am not gonna fuck..
then she was like telling me she wanted to have a convo
and then she suddenly blocked me..
lol...heck...then i was like.. i dun wann a go to school.....
haiz...kao... a convo with her...
PLS LAR AUNTIE!!! -_-
school is already farkin bad enuff fer me.. will you leave me outta this?
='(((((((((

when i was askin too much bout wad they wanted to talk bout.. dots dots...
and that's pretty much all that i can think bout... haiz...
i still have not done my 50 times chinese correction...
and other stuff.. yeah and i just created this poem fer lit
and it is going into the eagles magazine so wait fer it!
it's bout love... lol.. dun ask me why i so like tad
ok.. then today fer ACC i finished my rock and i managed to carve on every side of e rock..
kool man..
i wrote on one side in chinese..dreams never come true.. and on one other side..
also in chinese...as the days go you will know the persons charateristics... kool...
i like it..it's been my moral in life...
oh and i bought this little doll...
no not a barbie doll.. but this farnny lookin one that is a devil.. it's a keychain...
then i got Fort Minor, The Rising Tide
and Modern Rock Cd#02...
They both rock!!! they are rock actually... lol...
here's my rating...

Modern Rock-----------------4.5 over 5stars
Fort Minor, The Rising Tide-----------------5 over 5 stars

yea pretty much...and i watched ice age 2.. rating is 4 stars..
it had really good animation in any case.. lol..
and i changed my blog song to this song called Sugar, We're Going Down...
it is really nice.. i am gonna put the two CDs into my ipod...
it needs charging.. haiz...
in over roll i would say this day was ok.. oh yea..
nick treated the gang to seoul garden or wad so eva...
and then nick said that i could go but i had to pay... then
yuin theng and limying din't want...
then yuin theng suddenly told me this.." i din't make the decision!! not me!!"
FUCKING LYING BITCH, MOTHER FUCK!!
fraking backstabber... and there's that limying too...
oh i dun like him make stupid face like i neva see like tad... father fucker..
i dunno why i tok to them....
>.<
like i have said b4.. i hate the world and the world hates me...
well.. gotta eat dinner.. hungry...
bb
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Catch Phrases:
Me: (silence and madness brewing within me)
Wei Hua: yea.. 11 o clock can go man
Jolynn: He's an idiot..

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2006-04-01T22:44:00.000-08:00

hey alls, i'm back..lol..
that sounds like so lame la... wad eva... i sound like a skank...
hm... well i changed the song to yue ding...kinda nice i think..
i just added one more link.. lol... got so littlw la and my blog is like DYING!!
people... lol.. pls come more often and tagg more pete's sake!
jokes... welll tomorrow is science test.. i have not studied fer chapter 11 so i'm gonna like die..
heck care.. then i have tuition tomorrow at 7.30..
wonder who i'll meet...any old friends...i wad i mean..
i know thta i'll meet one on tuesday... tuesday is science..
my friend vannesa not anyone from my school will b there..
she tried to make me fat the other time at KFC... i had already eaten lunch in school and
she wanted me to eat wif her again...
haiz..so wad to do? eat with her lor.. lol... kana made to b fat... lol...
neva really liked KFC in the first place.. heck...
whoaaaa..... my mom suddenly just like walked in.. that was scary... lol...
in any case.. i was really close to vanessa...
once again i repeat it is not any vanessa from my school..
the vannesa from my class ain't my type and the one from sports class ain't either..
so shut it...
as i was saying .. i was really close to her.. not the kind of pyshical close shite...
but i mean as in brother and sister...i forgot which school she is from but.. heck.. XD
well today i had to wake up at five.. god i must b crazy to do so..
i had to go pray to my ancestors and grandmother..
which makes it not so bad fer a reason that i woke up early...
then i could skip tuition..^^...
hahaha... but my dad asked me to kneel and pray to my grandmother bout it..=.='''
wad the heck.. then i came home and watched TV so called...
was watching mr and mrs smith then i fell asleep infront of the tv.. wowssss...
fell asleep infront of TV...
lol...so i went to sleep cause it was onli 10 and then i woke up at about 1 and went to eat junk stuff while watching a show called twin effect.. really cool..
once again to do with vampires and stuff...just like blade and stuff...
lol...then i went to study fer science... hmm.. seems i did study a little... lol...
maybe i'll really study hard tonight...^^
adn perhaps pigs will fly... like now my sister is studying..
or daydreaming bout her boyfriend and i wld not b surprised.. lol...
snort.. i gtg... study or something la....
lol... bb

2006-03-31T06:17:00.000-08:00

hey alls....
whoa....suddenly everyone is suddenly online... whoa... scray...
cause my com is laggin cause of the i tunes.. it is converting my songs...lol
laaaagggg.. i shall wait fer the com to finish the conversion then continue..
hummmmmmmmmmmmm.....
yea!! done..now i got the entire cross cd in my MP3...
muahahaha... still remember that tomorrow is WH's bdae..
BTW... WAD THE HECK IS WRONG WITH YOU ALL???!!!
STOP ASKIN ME IF TERE IS ANYTHING BETWEEN HIM AND HUILING!!!!
HOW THE HECK SHOULD I KNOW???!!!
YOU WANNA KNOW THEN JUST GO ASK THEM LA!!!!
KKKKKAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO..............
WH managed to escape the wet wet pond today.. lol...
tomorw got NCC nafa test.. lol.. hopefully dun nned to run 2.4.. if need then i am gonna cry sia.
i think part a will b there tommorrow.. hmm...
yea and wh we are finally ONE STAR PEOPLE!!! hahaha...
rembr the promise! you said de.. i'm gonna add it to my wish list.. ^^...
hhaha..
oh yea i transfered tuition to mavis to you all who know it..
yea i'm goin on moday and on tuesday.. haha..so i'll b at PP every week twice.. muahaha...
oh yea.. thinkin bout weird stuff...
the other day i found Cheryl Mun's boyfriend's text book in the toilet..
i mean like WTF??!
u talk to ur girl friend in the morning then u go toilet to piss or wad so eva shit and u leave ur freaking text book in the toilet and let ur girlfriend's ex find it and make her to return it to you? wtf la Bryan Toh!!
any ways.. this is the short post.. so later!
i wanna sleep..

2006-03-29T05:31:00.000-08:00

hi all.. long time since i posted.. yeah been kinda busy lately...
well last saturday and sunday as i may have said b4 is kayaking..
then yeah.. me and WH have recieved our ONE STAR AWARDS!!! MUAHAHAHAHA..
Wh and i promised that during the next class BBQ...
we would follow the class to the BBQ pit then we were gonna rent the kayaks
then we were gonna kayak all the way to the bbq pit and drag the kayaks up to shore..
hahaha...
it's gonna b fun man.. and today i realised that rianie likes boats too..
she was asking if she could follow me when i went kayaking...
lol...of course, i mena like DUH-UH.. u can't
u need to go for the course first...later we capsize and u dunno how to come out then how?
i dun wanna have the guilt of some one's death on my soul and definetly not the karma..
so yea...
well... some one i forgot whom said i was more tanned then b4..
i mean like duh.. hello? six hours in the sun.. sleevelesss shirt.. and no sun block lotion..
duh...i would b tanned...
sianzed...then yesterday and today had that farnny DNA course thingy that i had to
go with the prick of the year award winner..
joycelyn.. it was kinda fun and boring at the same time..
in total we waited for about 45 mins throughout the whole course just waiting for the mixtures
to seperate out or to get spun... bla blah blah...
lol....after flicking mark it then into the spinner machine.. the same thing..
well in the end when the DNA fingerprints came out,
i realised that mine were very dark and i had very unique DNA finger prints...
i mean like everyone's DNA finger prints were like on line A.. then mine would b below theirs...
then yeah.. felt weird..lol..din't eat lunch too.. and we ended up there half and hour early.. and my mp3 gonna run outta batt... :(
then afteer that i went to TM to look for a bag hoping i could find a nice one.. then in the end nope.. and it was gettin late.. so i went to e mrt station..
then i saw three 2k girls...
and WTH???!!! u gimme that kinda glare fer wad??
my gosh... not like i am a freak or smth
i know my eye runs but still dun need to satre at mii right? wth....
anyways.. yeah.. we did all that shit at the DNA course and in't get no shit...
heck.. it was fun btw...
so nothing much la.. came home.. use com.. eat.. use com ..edit show and tell..
practice the script both fer lit and english.. then practice drums..
haiz...sianzed
bb! DIR!~

2006-03-24T04:35:00.000-08:00

hey alls.. haha..
preawarning.. this is gonna b a very short post.. any way i was wondering why my blog shows the same post 3 times?
veri the werid sia..lol..
wth...
anyways... today e pt was kinda a killer...
wad we had to do was this..
lepoard crawl half way around the PT ground...
then frog jump the rest.. then do the window..
then walk half of the parrallel bars then did 5 dips then walk the rest of it.
then after that go to the 4 inclined pull up staions and do 10 at each..
then go to the 4 sit up stations and do 10 at each.. then do one set of monkey bar
then do the chin ups.. at least 6.. then every one all cheat la.. they all jump till they reach above thr bar then say they alrdy.. kao..damn responsible sia..(Grins)
then after that 40 small logs fpr each hand..
then 20 medium logs for two hands together
then 5 ENORMOUS logs for two hands together.. kao...
then climbed the wall..
then hold in pumping positon for about 15 mins
then pump 10
then leg raiser for 5 mins..
then another 10 pumping
then leg raiser for 10mins,.... then finally end..
we had cover and consument today..
which means you have to put leaves and everthing in and all over your uniform..
and wei hua, eugene, and me did the best.. we passed and were good...
yea!!
muahahahahaha...evil sia...
and we felt damn stupid cause we had to walk around the school after that..
look like idots like tad.. like a walking bush...lol.. then we had targeting and shooting stuff la dunno wad la..
then nothing much lor... last parade?yea..guess so...
the part a had 2 bottles of sparkling juice la..kao.. we onli had one.. then we got ntohing else.. they got 1 packeet of twistes or wad eva la.. and it is one person on pack...
nvm la..
then me and wei hua went fer dinner at school canteen..
i had one ice lemon tea, one packet of famous amos and 4 toasts.. lol..
then i was messagin Cheryl Mun.. and when i said oppz... din't see ya there.. hi. :)
then she said oh hi.. *surely you never see me there one la. i see that you r veri hungrrry.hehs..
i mean like duh.. after all that not hungry?
siao...
but i did eat alot.. i came home then ate again.. now i am just gonna burst man.. i wanna drink green tea...^^
lol..wad the heck sia..i needa go study fer test today man.. shoot... cause saturday and sunday 1 to 7 is kayaking fer NCC... sianz...
monday is chinese CT so must study now.. heck la.. at least no difficult stuff... ^^ yea..
hahahaha...
well gtg..
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catch phrases of the day.

me:Wha shit man.. haveta study fer that stupid chinese test.. wad the heck..
& WAd the shit..................................
&KKKAAAHHHHAAAAYYY
Wei hua: WAD'S UP MAN...
& stop saying bout me and huling la.. there's nothing
&ZZZAAABBBBOOOMMMMBBBBAAAAFFFFOOOOOOOOOOOO(lol)
Kuroda: RARR!!! STUPID CONNETION...
&AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH(lol)
Gerald's father:..... (silence)
My maid:tot u veri tierd?go sleep la..(i got test to study fer la kao...)

2006-03-22T06:51:00.002-08:00

his shello alls..
whew finally i am back.. wow after changin this skin..
i really love this one more..
it's more me if that's wad you call it..
ok now i am gonna do soemthing else in my posts..
i think i have seen these in other people's blogs so i'll play alone.. ^^
ok wad ill do is wad they call a shout out..
yea.. so at the end of this post i'll put.. lol..
i dunno of i do it right or wad la..
ok so now i changed the skin.. took me very long to find this one...
i was like searching like mad...
hey all you people out there.. must ask people to come to my blog and tagg can?
my blog is like soooo freakin dead..
yea..i mean like so little taggs.. all from e same people de..
speaking of taggs.. (ahem)
cheryl mun now thinks that i am demented and alone...
wth.. this person is some unknown dude..
any fer the last freaking time it is not me.. damn it la ok?
what the geck i mean just beacuse some one types like you that person is you?
what kinda link is that..
so u r telling me at least 100 people are me?
no link kk.....
and cheryl mun oso said that she was happy i said hi to her...
wow...like that oso happy?
ok lorhz? wan to always be happy? jokes...
shit man.. tomorrow have to fer tuitiob.. this sucks.. any way my mom wants me to stop this tuiton..
if i can persuade her i'll tell her that i wanna go check out the other tuition centre and that she allow me to stop this one..^^ then tomorrow dun need to go..
muahahahahahahahahahaha..
but honestly this tuiton is not doin me much good.. and furthur more..
that tuiton is at parkway.. more time fer me to go shopping and stuff.. hahaha...
crazy or something man me...
hmm...
but if i transfer i'll take a monday and thursday tuition time? betta timing lorz..
hopefully i dun forget or wad so eva.. like during the holidays i forgot all bout tuition on one of the days..
kana screwed upside-down by my dad...kao.. he hit me..sobz... joking.. any ways...
i oso have this show and tell thing coming up..the whole calss does..
i am number 16..wad the man...
i mean like i was so shocked.. i din know wad to show!
i decided mydrumsticks.. then i was helping mrs rod carry her freakinly heavy laptop..
actually it's not heavy is just that the freaking strap cuts into my shoulder..
man..then she was talking to me bout all my stuff... my medical condition..
how i was..all that.. then she suggested to me..
to show the class a video of me playin the drums.. a short one..
and i decieded to use the"this is a beat..watch what happens when i add a cymbol, speed and a fill in..watch wad it would sound like"
LOL!!!!
i saw this off the net la.. lol.. hmmm...
i think i need more links.. and oen thing i know is that i need SSSSSLLLLEEPPPPPPPPP.....
haiz..
well.. ok 2 more stuff.. today science was kinda complicated and easy at the same time..
we learnt digestion and were learning bout enzymes..
really cool... i can remember a couple or so.. like carbohydrases, protienses and dunno wad else la..
all damn comlicated..
nurhafiza onli went hrough it roughly.. BBAAAHHHHHHH.......
i'll go memorise myself.. and also i got NCC kayaking this saturday and sunday.. 1 to 7..
one prob is.. the upcoming C.T. is chinese.. damn.. how man..
no time to study.. i carn possible study at night..
i'll be too tierd..freaky! man.. hopefully ye lao shi tell us sooner..
then i can study fer it sooner..as per normal.. haiz..
hopefully i du failit lor.. i failed lit.. i got 11/25 i have no idea what the shit happened..
man...i am so gonna get killed by my father.. skinned and hung up..
wait i forgot there is second attempt and third attempt..
hopefully mr's granesan or wad so eva.. i dunno how to spell her name.. will let me retake without having to show the paper... if not i can start digging my grave..
man.. ok so i gtg.. man how to sleep......
haiz...gonna die larghzzz...
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2006-03-18T07:02:00.000-08:00

hey all.. okok.long time since i posted..haha..
busy with my car..was tuning my car. .. of course not the real kind but the com game type.
I was updating and tuning in total the..
the following is for all those car racing and stuff fanatics..
-ECU

Electronic Control Unit.. for those intrested.. well actually i just wanna crap here..
What ur ECU does is that it regulates the amount of mixture of fuel and air into your car..
the manifold can be found in here..
if you tune it right.. u can squeeze some seriouse power outta ur ride..
and you can also tune your engine in such a way to which you would use it most in the race..
one of the most important parts of a car tuning..

-Suspension

The suspension as you all know is what helps the car take corners..wheather you want your car to take the corner..
wheather you want it to take it as a drift or as a sharp turn..it all depends on you and the race..
here u can also adjust your Steering ratio..
A general tuning guideline is.. tune your sway bars then tune your shock absorbers followed by the toughnest of the spring..

-Drivetrain

Here there ain't much to tune..one option..
wheather you want your car to have a greater accleration or more speed..it's up to you..
normally like if you having a drift race you'd make your car be better at acceleration.. while if you are racing sprint you would want to have more top speed.. while at drag.. that'll be up to you..

-Turbo

This part og your car regulates the amount of air that enters your car.. and this amount of air is ejected at a high pressure back into your engine which gives it that extra torque... this air is normally ejected into the system at the change of gear where the most torque is lost..

well that was all i did..
so yea that was wad i di for the forst three days of the holidays.. evaluate stuff with a calculator infront of the bloody screen and put the car on the dynamo and test run.. haiz..besides thati went for the class bbq on wednesday..
yea...
was kinda boring though...no one was there.. cause of coure it was organised by our class comittee so wad do you expect? lol..
so nothin much...i boguht 4 cans of jolly shandy at first..
in the end i drank 25 cans at the end of it.. i went back home half dead..
acutally almost a little drunk.. lol...then i woke up the next day with a splitting headache..
does that happen to you drunkeds out there?lol.. pretty sucks then.. jokes..
well so i just went in to the sea along with reuben and raynor...
well in total lemme name those who went..

Joyce, JJ, Cheryl, Limying, Riane, Reuben, Raynor, Ming jun, Wei hua, ND, Mendel, Sheena, Kerrensa, Amelia..

well yea that's pretty much all.. sianz..
just because it is not one of our teacher who organise little people went.
lol..
oh and finally i got a little tanned.. ^^..finally damn it.. i have been super white all the long..
finally i get to be copper in colour...hmm....
so nothin much la...then there was this once me, limying, cheryl and riane.. went to the toilet.. they wanted to do dunno wad.. and i wanted to change my clothes..i soaked up enough sea water..stinks the eyes ya know..

i gtg gotta sleep.. i'll continue another time.. bb..

2006-03-10T06:31:00.000-08:00

hey alls..
i changed the song again..
i changed it to smth with a bitta more life this time..
it is called ever after.
by whom?
i dunno..
but i dun really like it.. i am gonna change it to some song..
a little more punk..
anyone knows the name of the song that was palyed on i not stupid too?
i like that song... talking about freedom..
it kinda rocks but it was not sung by Jay Chou right?
hmmm...
today's PTC was surprising..
haiz...
i got a2 fer all but chinese and maths...
whhy......
whyyy....
heck and my father still findds it difficult to accept that i improved on the subjects he asked me to..
=.='''wth...
sianz..
amazingly i got s2 fer geog and lit..
^^ it is the eight postion in class but i sharre this mark with 2 other people..
speaking about lit...
we were separated into 3 groups and then we had to learn to role play...
i got actor!
muahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahha.....
this role means i am suppose to assign roles to people...
to whom ever i want according to my thought..
muaha..
we got 3 weeks to out this whole thing or skit together...
and once again it is according to this stupid
to kill a mockigng bird book..does the people not realise that we students have become bored of this stupid damn cursied book??!!
damn it sia..
tokin bout books, i have added a book into my wants list..
it's called the pickup game..
the book is written by this author who goes into the art of picks up artist and writes them all down it to a book and sells it..
i really want ti cause i wanna learn..
you know that it is reasonably acutally easy to make a girl all doddy and stuff but the heart of a women is the place no man can hardly go to..
it is all filled with mysteries..you'd be surprised about that..
ok errr...
Guys point of view:
General thought: Why is it that i can't seem to figure out what she was thinkin? what was she thinkin?

After a date: Was overdressed? How was my actions and behaviour? Should i have gotten her a gift when we met?

shoot...
dad's back..
gtg bb

2006-03-09T04:13:00.000-08:00

hey all...
damn it mans..
tomorrow is friday.. my death day..
there is that BLOODY PTC tomorrow...
FYI.. ptc means parent teacher conference..
MY GOSH!!!!!!!!
man i am so like screwed...
can i enjoy my life till i'm at least 21.. got to ride a motorcylce..
and yea.. lose my virginity?
lol.. kidin..
well... i dunno la.. still i know that i am gonna die..
any way i have enough money to buy that bag i have been eyeing..
but i gotta consider first..
see if it is really good and nice..
it is some kinda army nag..^^
as always u know me.. i am like tad..
haiz...
i dunno wad to do man sianz..
oh yea i am gonna explode bout something...

MENDEL YOU MOTHERF*CKER!!!
WILL YOU STOP IT BOUT HAT FU*KING INCIDENT?
AND DUN OUT WORDS IN MY MOUTH AND IF SHE SLAPS
YOU OR ANYTHING PLEASE DUN ASK ME TO DO ANYTHING!

whew... ok that felt better...
talking bout which..
i just complated a drawing and i am gonna upload it now.. wait..

cool ain't it?really.. i drew it on my own.. of course i got it from a comic book the three pics.. haiz...

i gtg

shower.. and prepare for my death tomorrow..

2006-03-07T06:36:00.000-08:00

hey all.. sianz i got nothing to do..
ok i got inspiered or how ever you spell it from cheryl mun's blog..
okok...
errr..HERE..WE.. GO..

What are the seven things you hate the most?
1)Hypocrites
2)Backstabbers
3)Purple
4)Living aimlessly like i am now..-_-
5)Insults
6)Classical music
7)Myself

What are the seven things that you like the most?
1)Pink
2)Black
3)Comics
4)Drawing
5)Basket ball
6)A challenge once in a while
7)My NCC Bros! I LOVE YOU GUYS!

If you were granted seven wishes, what would u wish for?
1)For my demons within me to be purged.
2)MY DRUM SET!!!!!!!
3)A new bike..
4)A Xbox 360..
5)Advents children the movie..
6)Unlimited rounds of lan and arcade games
7)My True Love..

Seven things that you wish to do b4 u die..
1)Lose my virginity..
2)Touch many hearts and make those people smile.
3)Be called father..(kinda related to first one)
4)Find my true love..
5)Make my dream house. not as in make it but as in decorate it.. ya know..
6)Spend 3 weeks in italy with my true love
7) i dunno...

well i gtg..sleep..good night

2006-03-03T23:37:00.000-08:00

hey all.. this is my first post of the month.. haha...
crazy and irregular sia all my posts...
well today i woke up at 7 had
two slices of toast and a cup of coffee..
then my dad fetched me to bedok reservior..
yea..
fer ncc..suppose to have it every week?
jokes..
and today is my first run of the year..
seems i must train.. but i must be crazy to jog 4.3 km.. it's like from my house here
jog to the siglap connector park all the way to east coast then back.. my god...
far...indeed man..
sianz..
then after the run Sheng chao, pang yi, jem,yi yang, jing feng and some others and 1 part a cadet..
went to tm to eat..
i had the egg muffin meal..
jokes..
then i came home and slept for 4 hours.. jokes.. 10 to 2...
wad a pig i am..
then yesterday.. hmm..
yea NCC was kinda like a killer yesterday..
roll call then water parade..
then our PT so called became changing parade and pumping parade..
jokes..
then there was this one time we did 5 pumping on the hot tar ground meaning road..
and bloody hell..even though it was onli 5... the ground is so freakin hot that
no 0ne could actually hold it there..
every one was like jumping around on their hands...
if u did manage to hold your hands there for 5 mins..
you could eat ur hand practically..
jokes..
then till now many of us still got the burns from that pumping..
jokes..
and jie si got a fever that day..
Rest well ok sis?=D
get well soon!
then mr yao was not happy at wei hua cause he did not tie a knot at his boots..
so he got pissed off and asked us to bring
our uniform on monday and fall in for UI..
sh!t man..
i mean like i got tutition on monday..
then wad?
wear my uniform there?wha.. crazy man..
heck.. looks nice any way my uniform..
^^..the colar can really stand.. as in really stand.. cause i added alot of startch..
but at least not as bad as the SJAB..
their collar and other parts of their uniform have to put wax and melt it into the uniform..
jokes man.. i mean like it's really uncomfortable..
then so wei hua apologized to yao and then got a lecture in the end.. yao said that he got some kind of a attitude problem..
then of course WH asked me if he had some kinda attitude problem..
and of course we all know he does so i told him
that he really was too AP..
i mean he really gives you that kinda face that shows you ignorance
and makes you feel lame at wad u just said kinda thing..
well..
we all have our own demons to fight..and along the way we always hurt people and stuff..
then when i came home naturally i used the com and
talked to kuro as always and who'd expect cheryl mun to appear..
jokes..
then talked to her bout me having the chance of me having lukemia..
and she was like..(qoute i)

Really.. u should go see a doc la..and u are taking this matter as a lughing matter and here i am bein worried bout you..

then i asked her.. "uh-huh..and why are you so worried?"
thou then replied..

"i mean like u are my Ex and a good friend of mine.. i dun wanna lose you.."

whoa..
ok wad eva... but please do not fret cause my dad onli suspects it.. he's not sure..
i have not even confirmed with the doctor yet.. jokes..
seems that she is really concerned bout me ahving bloody cancer..
still i realise though i may not have lived my life to it's fullest..
i know i did as much as i can..
and even if it really is my time to go i shall not fret and cry bout it..
with my last few days..
i'd write letters to everyone who means something to me..
tell you who i'd write to.. in order of merit..

-Cheryl mun
-Wei hua
-Nicholas
-2J
-Andy,Alexander and the whole outreach in toto..
-AHSYF
-And to any one who means alot to me in my life..

still i know that i will not die..
hey come on..
i'm still young and healthy ok?jokes..
i mean not like i am gonna just drop dead infront of everyone..
but it really is freaky to see something like that...
i am once again reminded of my grand mother..
i never did make it in time...
i never did make it in time to see her give out her last breath..
i nearly fell down on the way..
i ran all the way from the first floor to the 5th..
i ran..i just ran...
hoping that she'd wait..
though i had muscle cramp that day.. from NCC it was the 4th of jan..
a friday..
my muscle cramps just faded away..
i just ran and ran..
but by the time i reached.. i was a minute late..
the doctor was calling it.. 8.11 pm..
i was upset....
really..
it was just one minute..
then suddenly the whole world seemed to turn down on me..
it just seemed to collapse..the pillars of my life..
like my life was being sucked out of me...
you ever get that feeling on a day where u are just really tierd
and the day just couldn't seem to get any worse when it did?
that was what i felt onli 100x more life-leeching
my muscle cramp suddenly came back and i fell on the floor...
i got up and went near my grand mother..
i just cried.. my dad came up to me and told me that
she went away peacefully and painlessly..
she just fell short of breath..
haiz..
memories can kill you at times and yet save you..
it's just which side you decide to look at it from..
half filled or half empty?
it is really sad at times...

well here's something i just suddenly wrote..
i printed it out.. so here it is..

I was afraid to talk to you..
When i talked to you..
I was afraid to hold you..
When i hold you..
I was quiet with you..
Becuz I loved you alot..
I was afraid to love you..
Now that i love you..
i can't bear to lose you...
Some times we experince pain in love..
But yet if it does not hurt...
Then we can't call it love..
Hold on to the person you love..
Before he or she slips away..
And you can never get them back..

When u are together you pertend to ignore that special some one..
But when that person is not around you tend to look around to find them..
At that time you are in love..

Although there is some one that always makes you laugh...
Your attention is always drawen to that special some one...
At that moment you are in love..

Although that special some was suppose to call you back long ago
to tell you of thier safe arrival, ur phone is silent..
You pace up and down waiting desperately for that call..
At that moment you are in love..

If you are more excited for a short e-mail from that special someone
instead of many other long emails..
At that moment you are in love..

When you find yourself unable to erase the messages in your answering machine
Because just one of the messages are from that special some one..
At that moment you are in love..

When you get a couple of free movie tickets and you do not hesitate to invite
That special some one..
then,
At that moment you are in love..

Some times you keep telling youself..
that 'special some one is just a friend...'
Yet you can't help yourself from being drawn to that special some one..
then,
At that moment you are in love..

While you are reading this and some one pops into your mind..
that person is the very special person..

believe it or not.. yes..
i wrote this so called poem on my own experince..
or so wad i have felt and known..
i said known...
well yea...
nothin much else i got..
damn i wrote quite alot today.. even the scroller st the side is like damn small...
did i type that much?
ah heck well...i am gonna change the song..
and Cheryl mun said that Final fantasy sucks...
BOO!! go home!!
i mean it totally rocks!!
Anyone got ff7 advent children the show?
can send me or gimme?
ty!
i gtg...
wanna sleep.. muahaha...
biies!

2006-02-27T01:50:00.000-08:00

hey all..
kinda in a dump today..
got a splitting headache.. oerrrr....
grrr...
stupid sun..grrr...
and here i am infront of the com still.. lol..
damn.. today i was waiting out side of school for JJ raynor and reub when i saw jolynn..
not 2j de.. 2L de.. srry gal.. i dunno how to spell ur name..
jokes...wad eva..
then we went to TM..
at first to KFC..MY GOD I AM GETTIN FAT!!!
i mean like i put 3 kg in 2 months?
my gosh!!!! aRgH!!!
11!!!!111!!!111111!!111!!!(no link)
jokes..
yeah then we went around.. reub and i stuck together
while yuin theng, kerry and amelia went to other places..
jokes..
then we went back to TM..
we went to precious thought.. they bought amelia her stuff then we went to 77th street..
where i bought my necklace.. a scorpion one and a tattoo..
yea.. it rocks la..
just hope i dun get caught..
or hope it can't be seen through the school uniform..
today i tell you that ye lao shi gettin PMS or some shit man...
he issued at least 10 green form to different people ok? i even got one for just not
bringing dictionary!
WHA LAO LA!!
this is realli stupid.. then all those scouts that ponned a meeting or so right..
also got a green form and their parents had to come see them..
hope mr yao dun become my teacher..
(fingers crossed)
so derek got 5 green forms while riane got 4 i think..whoa..
suddenly 3 convo popped out..
brb..

LOL!!! every one please come to this link.. it's damn frakin funny.. it's bout the ord
f***..link-->http://www.starterupsteve.com/swf/f-word.html
lol...okk.
where was i?
oh yea..
bout teacher givin 10 over green forms..
still not so bad as that time that chinese onli lasted 15 mins and
gabriel got 3 green forms...
lol!haiz..
such
jokes...
i ain't got much to write right now.. hiaz..
hey! my headsches gone!^^..
eeekkk!!!...
i left my shirt on the floor...
lol..heck..
wanna go liao..
see ya'll oh yea pls leave ur name in the tagg board..

2006-02-24T05:53:00.000-08:00

hey all.. yea! i finally got my blog stuff up and runnin.. lol..
at first.. the blog song was when i'm gone..by eminem...
then i cahnged it to one last cry.. wadeva the song is u can just check
it out.. i will put wad is the song and by whom..
or is it who?
heck..
dun give a shit..
lol..
well today was quite a slacky day..
english at first was readin period so.. muahaha...
sadly i din't bring my doodle pad..
i was wanting to finish this drawing of this girl on
valentines day..
then the next pic i'd draw is this guy..
sitted on thr floor.. all wet and upset..
like there is this growin pain in him..
yea..got it from this comic book called errmm...
vampire knight yea..
the part where...heck to lazy to say..
well my grand mom's photo came back from the temple.. ^^..
not i can see her everyday..
but my parents thing that we should keep the photo away from people..
they think it might scare people outta their wits..
but of course i think differently.. i mean like..
she is my beloved grandmother..
i have every right to put her pic there and pray to her....
i mean poeple will understand.. i mean those who know that she has passed away..
would not find it scary or wad..
i mean like it is like when u go to ur friend's house and you find a picture
of their passed away kin.. you'd pay respects instead of freakin out...
you dun go,infont of them,
OMG!!! WHAT THE HELL IS THAT PIC THERE FOR? IS THAT PERSON LIKE DEAD OR SOMETHING? IT'S SCARY!
i mena the person either be ashamed and freaked out or most probably
bash ur face in.. i'd be the second as i have said b4..
lol..speakin of which..i am trying to add snow flakes to my blog..
as in it will fall kinda thing..
anyone know how to do pls tell me? ^^
wad eva..
and here i am now.. tokin to cheryl mun.might b surprising,
surfing the net for the drum bars so i can make my own music.. and doin this at the same time..
talk about multi taskin..
lol..snore...
i am a pig sia..
amazingly i went to the doc for my 3 mothly check up..
and had put on 3.5 kg.. whoa..
lol..the doc said most of it was muscle mass.. some how..
wad joke...
my josh.. how time flys.. lol..
gtg..
bb

2006-02-11T02:36:00.000-08:00

hihi all...
yea yea i noe i neva post fer a long time alreadi la...
so shud dup...
damn i can't type properly... NCC yesterday la..
lol...alotta mad things happened la...
staff screamed at us..(not surprising...)
wen yong said that part a this time weaker and lousier then us when we were part a..
lol..
heck..we all have been there...but this time we realli got alotta plum
pple that look like marcus..
thou there are a few exceptions...
we also got these twins...
darn diff to tell who is who...
lol...everyhting bout them is similar...
even the glasses they both wear...wth...lol...
sianz...
have not gone around on the net for a long time...
nothin much to do at home besides rot and do homework...
i have to redo my that stupid powerpoint presentation..
the one about this chinese bookreview..
i realised that when u write or type or wad so eva...
it may seem long
..shit...
gotta eat dinner...
another time pple

2006-02-02T02:44:00.000-08:00

hello all....
got back from school a long time ago.. ate some stuff and am chatting on msn now..
chatted to jac and hamtaro now.. haiz nothin much to say la...
well today i and a group of friends went to see kenny's house...
they went swimming actually...
so i no choice,can't swim in my uniform which is madness, i went back to school...
then i went to finish up the project..lol...
then went pac to play pool...
with MJ, mendel and chris..
lol.. mendel said that i was very pro.. wad a loadda bull shit..
holy hell... my mom just came in... she askin why me never go tuition.. lol...
i have ta go on monday cause friday,tomorrow, got NCC...
haiz...dunno wad kinda stupid thing we gonna do this time..
maybe the same thing...
truthfully speakin of CCA.. i think that every single CCA is special in some way or another...
well mendel does not agree to it.. he says that onli scout rocks...
wad a lamer.. i hate this kinda pple...
damn irritating la... errr...wait.. me wanna update some songs into mp3..wait ah...
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ok back... i let the stupid thingy run first...
well up next i gonna put some of my grand mother's photo up on the blog..
well try actually... i dunno if i noe how 2.. cause me no do b4..
ok so up they come...
i mean like after this whole thing.. but pls dun say anything insulting...
yea..the photos are black and white still i think..oh well gotta wait...
and up next is my rating on a show and two songs...
yea.. here they are:

~MOVIE~
Memoirs Of A Geisha---------------4 and a half outta 5 stars (WWWOOOOOOTTTT)

~SONGS~
1)I Still by Backstreet Boys-----------4 outta 5 stars(YYYYEEEEAAAHHHH!!!)
2)We Were Meant To Live by Switchfoot------------4 and a half outta 5 stars(WWWWWWWOOOOTTTT)
3)You'll Be In My Heart by Usher-------------3 and a half outta five stars
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brb...
grrrr...my ipod got a prob....
heck..solved it...
gtg..dinner.. bye!

2006-01-30T01:56:00.000-08:00

hey all!!
happy new year!
lol..
i know i a bitta lagg..
lol...no la.. i got no time to come online.. or so not allowed to...
haha..
happy cause i inally got an mp3 player!
yea! it's an ipod nano.,...
at first when i got it..it was the first generation kind...
meaning the first batch made la.. then the screen actually cracked...
man was i hurt.. my dad scolded me.. but i knew that i did not do anything to it!
so i just got the beating and my dad went to an ipod outlet and tried to fix it...
apparently all first generation models are like this...
weird eh?
lol..so ever mind got it replced.. i actually got this ipod for $250..
when it is suppose to cost $450...
lol... got it at a special price me.. muahahaha.. almost 50% ya know...
then the unhappy part...
new year and no computer games...
wth..and derek they all playin DoTa like nothing like tad...
wth...see? i so guai... neva use vulgarities.. muahahahaha...
bhb sia.. well CNY wasn't as good as i had expected it to be...
apparently everyone was shocked that i wore pink as i had announced i would...
yea.. they din believe i would..
then i got my hair dyed a little gold...
haha..pple said it looked weird.. oh heck..
then i went back to tao nan...
it was fun.. till this dude came up to me and wanted to fight for no stupid reason..
wth? ... i stand correct that the world is full of people
who are a complete menace to society...
heck.. that dude was from tao nan b4.. except he was shorter then b4..
he got a piercing on his under-lip and on his left ear...
which suppose to mean he is gay! lol...
yea wad.. pple say u pierce ur left ear onli u R GAY! as in a homosexual...
wait brb.. tryin out the programme of the mp3 player thingy..

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WWWWWWOOOOOOOOTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i now have photos in my MP3.. wwwwwwwhhhhoooooooo!
now i can take stupid lookin photos of people and put them on my MP3!
ahahahahahaha!
watch out everyone!
any yet i can put photos of other stupid and yet cool stuff... hahahaha..
one draw back... alotta space used up...
=(..i onli got 1.58 gb left...wth...
i have like 78 songs and 24 photos yet... =X
haiz.. neva mind..man.. my ass hurts... i have been sitting down for like 4 hours in front of com..
lol...ahahaha!dinner time.. =D
wha i so spastic today...
anyways.. me gtg... lame sia me.. any how post like this also can... wth... bb all!

2006-01-14T20:15:00.000-08:00

whoo...finally..
i get to post again..
i did a link at the top of my tagg board..pls go click..
ok..
not much stuff has happened..
on friday NCC had alotta lame stuff..
like ur hands become ur legs and ur legs become ur hands...
so if they ask you to raise ur hand so called...
u gotta raise ur leg...
lol...
we then marched all the way form G.O. to the flagpost..
but in a squatting position cause like i told you..
hands become legs and legs become hands...
jokes..
but u may ask why?
nope not that they bad to us...
but actually we were gonna get our first badge...
NAFA badges.. yupp...
quite a number got gold..
a funny thing happened...
me and yi yang got 50 cents as a badge.. and we were like...???
jokes.. then we were suppose to shout to mr Yao.. the NCC incharge one..
then he came to us and actually put the badges on for us.. muahahaha...
i got gold...
wei hua got bronze...
then qyite alot got silver and gold.. i think more silver than gold..
got some people never get.. dunno why...
jokes..
then me and wei hua went to 7 11 with jj,derrick,aziel,nick,mendal,and dunno who..
lol...then we ate cup noodles!
jokes..i ate two... one big one medium so called...
and guess wad?
i wasn't even half full...lol...
i had one jolly shandy..alcoholic drink la..
refreshened then we went home..
everyone all go to parsiris dirrection..onli me go to bedok there..
lol..loner sia..
then went home and slept in an instant..
obviously i showered...i mean like duh..
actually i did not want to..
then saturday..went fer my one hour drum lesson..
any one wanna get a feeling of the drums can tagg me then
i can book the studio...then go play..
muahaha..
then i stayed home and learned spelling fer chinese..
jokex la...10 mins learn finish..
then use the com awhile.. then sleep..
actyually i was messaging Cheryl mun at night ...
till 12.17...
then she take so long to reply cause she was ,quote i, TAKING MY TIME...
lol...
then i fell asleep la..
then morning go for chinese tution..(GLOOM!!!)
then here i am... learning chinese again...spelling that is..
then gonna eat lunch and get tested by my mom..(GLOOM!)
haiz...aiya...i go play games...jokes...
bb

2006-01-08T06:58:00.000-08:00

hello all...
i am a bitta more happy now..
my grand mother just got cremated..
yar...
and on her bones we found crystals that were said that onli
holy people would have...
can't remember the name of it..but it was really amazing..
my whole faily fell to their knees
upon seeing grand ma entering the furnace..
so did i...wait.. i think i did not..
i was supporting my grand dad..
we were all really sad..
but when we got home we realised that we should be happier..
my grand motehr was now in peace...
no more suffering..
my uncle from my dad's side said that he saw grand ma sitting on the
lotus like budaha except budaha was above her..
in the chinese tradition they said that a person
would be sent to hell at first to be punished for the sins they have commited..
but as for my grand ma..
the monk said that she was so holy that she had not gone to hell..
she went straight to heaven... actaually called paradise..
i was happy for her..
she would never be sent back to this world o suffering and pain...
now when ever i feel upset i knew that
my grand ma would be ever so near me..

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hohoho..
found out that cheryl mun has a sec 3 boy friend?
play girl sia..
lol..so many steads...
wth...
neva mind..she dumped me and it is a fact i must accept..
nothing i can do will be able to change it..
any way...
congrates to all NCC!
we did damn well la..
u know there were 2 sports pple that wanna to transfer to NCC?
wohoo...hahaha...
amzingly got two pple doin 54321 pumping..
muahahahaha.. many did not see that coming..
muahahahaha...
lol...
the farnny thing is when we all go and snatch the sec 1 s... lol
u know i saw one SJAB guy bring one guy to his stall..
that's when 3 other guides were pulling the boy away from him..
then one of them start poking the SJAB guy..
damn farnny lor.. ganda saw it too..go see his blog la..
i no link him yet..
lazy to look throguh the bloody script.. it is like so farkin long la...
lol...
goin back 2 school tomorrow..
and here i am rushing my math home work.. ='X
neva mind.. i oso at last question any way...
ok finish laio.. muahaha..
there are two questions that i wanna ask all..
if you read this pls reply in the tagg...thanks..
ok first one...

is kindness repaid?

i dunno about that..
i shall not give any examples..
there is one but i have put the past behind me..
second question..

is compassion followed by love?

i got no examples on this one but pls gimme ur views..
and i just found out that i am screwed..
i neva do the power point presentation thing..
i am ssooooo screwed... damn..
i bet even nick did it...
lol..so screwed... BWAL!!
man.. talk about setting of on thw wrong foot with the chinese teacher..
a he may i mention...
lol..my first male chinese teacher..
oh and i forgot to mention..
for the next month or actually 49 days.. i am not allowed to have meat..
or to kill nayhting..unless it poses as a threat to me..
like u know a spider..
and wad eva may harm me..
this will give me a credit which i shall pass on to grand mom in heaven..
dun say a shit about this..
i'd do anything for my grand mom..
ah wells..
good night all..
and yar i am on chapter 14 of mocking bird book..
it was actually a real case i think...
it came out in national geographic..
i have not read it yet..
wow..imagine.. blacks gettin killed by uncloured pple..
yikes...
gosh i am happy i do not live in those days..
ok gtg..tagg me yar?
bb..
good night again..

2006-01-05T18:00:00.000-08:00

hey all.. sorry that i have not posted in a long time...

i have been mourning..

yar..my grand mother died u see..

lung cancer..

i saw the moment she went away so clearly...

it has been repeating over and over in my mind often..

she was at first waiting for my maid to come back form her long off day so called...

when she saw my maid.. she opened her

eyes and looked at my maid..

she had this happy look in her eyes and

then she closed them and cried...

since then she has never opened her eyes...

when i went to see her she was at her last breaths..
she was breathing heavily at first then she started to breathe
smaller and slower breaths..
then at one of the breaths where she breqathed out.. she stopped..
her chest stopped moving...
it just stopped...
so i suppose i could say that she went in peace...
to look on the bad side.. she's gone and much of the happines in the house would too be..
to look on the good side...
her suffering has ended and she has been called back to the Lord's side..
life is a weird thing at times...
so we are very sad..
but today which the 3rd day of her wake..(pronounced as wig..weird)
i was excused cause i have my NCC performance later..
so i shall be going for it then i shall leave n go back..
i have to leave for school in an hour..
i hope the performance goes well..
oh well i gotta go..
do stuff.. see ya'll..

2006-01-03T05:22:00.001-08:00

hey all....
hope ya'll got the school mood out now..
well..
sainz.. took me long to take out mine.. bleahz..
wad eva..
so this year i sec 2 liao.. muahahahaha.. senior..
but small small senior..
eh..soemthing wrong with my fingers...
i keep typing wrongly..
lol...dun blame me pls if i type wrongly..
sianz...
so nothin much happened todae...
juts the same shit as the
first day of last year..
my temp. form teacher like so bitchy la..
wha lao she realli ah..
forget it la who cares..
lol..
nothin happened today till after school..
my grand mother suddenly 'broke down'
my parents rushed her
to the A and E ward..
just in case you dunno wad that is..
it stands fer accident and emergency ward..
so we just stay there and look after her la...
hiaz....
doctor now gave her 1 week or so...
damn...u know this realli sucks...
hiaz... still this is life...
grand ma got lung cancer.. so..
her whole right lung is nothin but
a collapsed organ.. and her
left lung is onli half in working order...
THIS IS NOT FUCKING FAIR!!!
WHY???!!!!!!
sigh..
this reminds me that last time when she nagged
at me to do soemthing i always complained..
now if it were onli possible for her to nag again..
i guess two phrases in life are really true..

1) Absence makes the heart fonder
2) At the end.. u start to think of the beggining...

haiz...
life is a bloody bad place to live in at times...
things have never been fair..
sigh..
so now my parents are at the ward looking after her..
sianz...
i gotta pack my books tomorrow..
i mean fer tomorrow...
and i gotta pack my NCC stuff...
haiz..
got the orientation pratice tomorrow...
immediatly after school..
finally NCC got a singlet..
MUahahahahahaha!!!
ahhhh....
gtg..pack stuff and sleep..
alotta stuff tomorrow..
bb

2006-01-01T05:26:00.000-08:00

hey all..
hehe..
just had dinner...was chatting to tiffany and wan ling on msn...
so i heard Cheryl Mun got a new boy friend
from the sec one orientation camp...
wonder who it is.. =D
liked to know..
all who know tagg mi pls tell me.. hahaz
still remember that time she was walking
home with me..she said she wanted to sho stefan yar?
to make him jealous..
and just now i swore to wan ling if she did that she would get
a fucking slap from me..
oppzzz....
srrry...
i have been using that word too often..
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and hey hey! guess wad?
NCC now has singlets..
lol...
look at all the muscles and arms..
can get tanned too.. hahax!
rox la..
i like singlets more than normal shirts..
sianz..
to ge the studying mood out is really quit diff now...
haiz..
wad to do?
life's like that
sainz...
i am gonna type another one of my poems in to the credits part..
may be separate out the lines to give more time to read?
ya.. ok..
sianz...
wad eva la..
today i got nothing to report lorz..
i do this just to kill time...
oh yar i oso watch 4 shows to day to kill time too..
here they are..

-die another day
-ani-matrix
-passion of the christ
-rat race
-kill bill

yar..
oh and now i shall start rating songs and movies and stuff so that ya'll know wad i like..
so here are the ratings fer the movies..

MOVIES!

-die another day--------------------3 outta 5 stars
-ani-matrix-------------------------4 outta 5 stars
-passion of the christ----------------4 outta 5 stars
-rat race----------------------------2 half outta 5 stars
-kill bill------------------------------4 outta 5 stars

MUSIC!

album-------------------------------maroon 5, songs about jane
rating for whole album---------------4 and a half outta 5 stars
favorite song-------------------------harder to breathe

yar... ok
u think i wierd but wad eva..
hahaz..
gtg.. see ya'll

2005-12-31T08:07:00.000-08:00

HEY ALL!!
HAPPY NEW YEAR! =D
i wish all readers a happy and joyful new year full of surprises
and miricales!
lol..
i wanted to do the count down on this post but i did not manage to..
was in the shower.. =X
any way..
i do hope that the next year is good..
hopefully the entries of pple this year is good.. lol..
then actually my mom's friends got her daughter come in to
AHS!
ahaha..she got 249...
heard this year cut off is 245?
any way my friend happens to be in my sec 1 class.. =D
lol..
she is half deaf though..
still study so good... haiz..
i so lousy..
lol..
lately i seem to be downgrading my self..
comdenming my self too..
sigh..
just now i went lan with my dad..
made him angry..
killed him too many times in awp map..
any way i did not see jollin any more at the lan shop..
i suppose she stopped working there..
wad eva.. i don't care..
i wonder how our sec 1 this year will look like..
lol..
shud dup about me being short and stuff and gettin a sec1 GF..
wad eva..
hey i got grow ok?
i now 150+ cm dun so like tad to me can?
lol...
at least i not like joycelyn like tad..
sigh..
12.15 now..
wtf...
wad eva..
changed the song of my blog.. heee..
i no not many pple like it..
still i like..
lol..
okok..
i wanna go update my template thingy..
see ya'll

2005-12-29T18:39:00.000-08:00

hey hey.. ok so i changed my template everyone like?
XD..
jk..ok so today it will b like damn sian la..
got tution.. at 2 that is that's why i now post...
sigh..
why i so sway(unlucky) one?
heck...i am aiming fer IP course..
but hell it is gonna be difficult..
i look at sec 2 maths i wanna cry already...
how to do? sobz!
lol..
my friend is like goin off line and online...
her internet got prob...
haiz..
got alotta pple i have not tok to on msn...
hmmm...
brb...
i wanna get a drink.. lol..

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back..ok..hee...
so nothin much would happen todae lar basically..
sianz..
then i gotta go to the bike shop today again...
tell the guy to tune my brakes again fer me..
he do wrongly..
i wanted my bike brakes to be able to brake in a way it can ski...
is that how u spell it? ski?
wad eva..
i blur la..
i just woke up k?
dun so like tad to me lar.. wha LAO!!!
my friend is irriating..
can't blame her..
stupid internet.. mine oso got prob..
lmao...
sianz..
ahh...i wanna go play game...
before i gtg fer tution.. c ya'll

2005-12-29T07:31:00.000-08:00

hey ya'll...
sianz... school gonna open soon.. bohoo..
sianz..
the other day i went to internet pioneer with my sis..
and her boy friend ya..i told ya'll alreadi..
but i sw jollin there again..
is that how i spell ur name? =X
ok..lol..
then i was like wondering why she working sia..
heard her family got financial difficulty?
lol..
oh hey jollin if you happen to come here...
debra..u know her right?
i dun think she realli like you..
i oso dunno y..

lol..
actually i am not really laughing..
i just can't be fucked..

got that from one of my emo icons..
lol..
i like got so many..
oso dunno wad fer..
ok so today ar..
err...my mom on leave todae...
so we went to PP...
where i bought my new year clothing..
here it is..

~shopping list~
-2 zeusbe jeans
-2 zeusbe shirts
-1 no rules 3/4 pants
-shoes fer school..

yar..
that should add up to about..
150 dollars..(MY GOD!)
but who cares? i not paying =P
all the better wad...
then i went to lan shop again...
i oso dunno wad fer..
i play a little bitta dota.
i know i noob la..
i play with MJ,WH,Nick, Jon,mendal too..
i like so noob...
lol..
every one all bully me and kill me..
ok wad eva..
then had afternoon tea.. XD
then went home fer some r and r..
next went to meet my friend..

we went to pump up his bike tyres first then we went
to the bike shop near my house..
to get my brakes changed and tuned..
yet the fucker neva tune it properly.. tomorrow i gonna go find him..
and i gonna get new tyres soon..
all worn out..
lol..onli the back that is..
then we went cycling all the way to VJC..
about.. i'd say 5 km cycle in total...
then we cycle around the school and
went back which is yet another 5km..
then of course we both headed to our own homes...

had dinner...
and i dunno why i drank milk durng dinner..
weird..
lol..
watched last samurai..damn kool lar..
ok.. then here i am infront of com after i showered..
blalalalalalala....
i changed the template of my blog.. still have to link leon.. sianz.. i no time..
i gotta sleep soon..
and i got tuition tomorrow..
now my mom complain sianz..
lol..

well type to ya'll tomorrow...
see ya'll..

2005-12-27T04:35:00.000-08:00

hey all.. i noe i long time no post..
lol.. =X
so see here... alotta things happened yar..
ok todae i went out with my sis..
and her boy friend.. XD..
i noe that i veri 'bright' but haha...
who cares..
i did not noe he would be there..
my sis suppose to go see doc..
i suppose to go popular..
and cut hair...(finally) =D
my hair has been such a great nuicence..
it keep drooping over my fore head..
but now it short and kool...
yar..and....
i got my hair washed fer the first time!!! XD
felt so like weird...
but it felt like so kool lar..
wad eva..
yesterday...
i went out with nick to lan shop..
he told his aunt we doin work at my house..
i told my mom i watching movie with him..
so we obviously got into trouble...
but we saved our asses...
lol..my mom thought i was used by my friends..
i actually called nick's aunt and told her the whole story and truth..
obviously i did the same to my parents..
duh-uh...it is like a ton weight on my chest if i don't sae..
lol...
well and the latest lame thing is that i got sick...
gastric flu..
lol..
now obviously i got nothing wrong..
lol...and i am gonna change the song of my blog..
trouble is wad to change it to.. :p
nvm..
and christmas was suppose to be the season of giving..
but fer me unfortunatly..
it was not exactly giving...
i din't get anything..
lol...but it is just my desserts..
i also did not get any one anything..
lol...wad eva...
well holidays are ending and i think i really kinda wasted it..
i hardly went out..
wha...sianz..thinking about it..
ah fuck it la..who cares..
any way gtg..
see ya'll..

peace!

2005-11-22T05:01:00.000-08:00

hey!! i noe i veri long no post..
i veri busi la..
tuition..i am aiming for IP programme next year...
lol..i noe..
it sounds crazy...but i am giving it a shot..
heck...
can't believe it..we all gonna b sec 2 next year..
lol...it is like so fast.. but still got a lot of pple
in my school still as childish as ever..
lol....i wonder wad the next year will be like..
lol... but no worries.. i am goin to italy this staurdae!!
Oh My.....
i can't belive it lor..
italy then rome and all the cool places..
like collusium...
ahaha.. italy.. the country of cheese and wine...
lol...i underaged.. cannot drink wine...
did you know that italy is in the shape of a boot?
dun believe me?
go look at ur Geog book la...
lol....
hee....
today i went out with sis....
we shop (can't believe i did), eat..
play games...arcade games that is..
and in every shooting game we play, i have to save
my sisters ass....
like jurrasic park...my sis scared of the dinosaur...(LOL)
then my sister play the time crisis 2..
damn farnny to see her play..
she have not even complete level one area one...
lose 5 lives already...
lol...i come completed the game..
yippe!!
got 6th position...
lol...
and............
I finally got my black leather converse shoes!!
can't belive it......
i got it!!!
but it cost me $$71.90!!
OMG!!
my mom gave my sis and i $100 in total...
then i used 70 plus dollars....on a pair of shoes...
WTF....
my mom wants me to plan for the bloody trip... wad.............
i have not even play my game yet.. the wohle dae...
bohoo.....
okok..
gtg....
see ya'll.....

2005-11-15T05:31:00.000-08:00

hey hey hey...
wt....
brb...

grrr.. anoying friend... keep disturbin me...
lol..XD
i changed the song.. i heard on radio..
i foud it so kool..
i wrote the name down and got it..
hahahaha....
sianz..
nothin much to report todae..
well...
todae i did not go DNT... not suppose to..lol
my next time will be fridae..
lol...
todae..
went to cheryl mun's blog and read the tag's.. and well you can expect wad i got...
lol..
it was kinda farnny actually...
ahaha.. then all of the pple take it so seriously...
lol.. wad to expect form the 1k pple...
they are all sisters and bros in arms...
lol....ahahaha....

i just felt so wierd todae..
and i prayed.. i dunno why and i just prayed...
then i felt like reading the bible...
i dunno why..
it was just a force so strong..
i knew it was a sign so i took the time and read...
and i came to this verse..
it saes: 'show mercy and u shall to be shown mercy.'
so i reflected on wad i had done..

the taggie thing and all that..
and i felt so bad..
i knew i commited a sin..
i was so upset...thus i prayed for forgivness...
i just prayed and i realised something..
there is no point on makin more enemies...

thus i realised that i should not have done all that..
i regreted..
i tried to make up..
i said srry to cheryl first of all...
and then the rest i will just go along with it...

i just pray all will forgive...
and i dun wanna go into furthur details...
and at the end of all had did..
i felt so sprirtually strong and refreshed...
so alive so to speak..
i knew at that moment i had grown closer to god..
and i realised that i still had to do my quiet time even during the holidaes...
i wanted to grow spritually closer..
i just had too...it is one of my wishes..

oh well.......i got nothin else to do...
if any one,including you stefan, wants to hold a grudge against me..
i can't stop you...so be it...
any wae....
good luck to all in ur cca...
hope u get good enrolements next year... and best wishes...
bye!

2005-11-14T02:22:00.000-08:00

hey hey hey...
okok...todae..
hmmmmmm..........
oh yar..
some ass hole neva pass mesage to me so i missed out PT training..
bohoooo..........
i onli went for about 5 mins when i saw the PT group at the PT grounds...
so sad..
why i missed PT...
haha..
neva mind la..
so todae i din do much at DNT..
just slack la.. from 9 till 4...
lol..veri tiering....
then after that i just went to train myself at PT ground la...
here's wad i did..

1)3 times up and down the rope
(usin the one hand for one rope method.. like CSM alan like that..)
2)40 logs
3)5 chin ups..
( i noe it is veri little put after wad i did i too tierd..i oso neva eat lunch)
4)40 inclin pulls ups
5)10 dips...
(now my diaphram damn bloody pain.. bohoo..)

alot i did i think.. heee..
so guai...
haha..i am gonna start joggin again tomorrow...
go 11 o'clock in the morning get tanned.. haha..
u should see Jia Jie...
wha.. i tell u i saw him todae..
he in scouts mah.. and he in the DNT lab askin mr lee to cut
the scouts that farnny lookin logs which i have grown
tierd of in primary school...
eh.. i in scouts last time hor..
got best cadet award and DCA hor..
DCA is district communiters award, the most prestigious award hor..
but of course got 2 other pple get oso..
haha...
so bhb..
okok..then i saw JJ then he like so black la...
wha lao lor...
for me i dunno why i tan oso dun get tanned one...
hahaha.....
use tanning oil.. haha...
later turn black like charcoal..
lol.... -_-'''
wad i doin now arghz??
errrrrr.......
listen to green day.. extradinary girl...
i am gonna watch a movie on wednesday with my dad..
any one wanna join??
hahaha..
i dunno la..
let me noe by tomorrow ok??
email is Blade_Boy92@hotmail.com
then errrrrrr.................
dunno la cleared out my inbox just now...
got 10 unread.. haha.. still quite little..
all the crappy kinda mails..
except for the praying thing.. haha
wad eva..
hmm.....
tomorrow i oso dunno wad to do.. rot in frot of TV and Article 1:
i feel damn sad for my self.. i neva do my quiet time for a long time...
bohoo.. srrry god.. forgive me..

hey read this.. it's like damn kool la

Article 1: Statement of Love:THE KISS
1. Kiss on the hand = I adore you
2. Kiss on the cheek = I just want to be friends
3. Kiss on the neck = I want you
4. Kiss on the lips = I love you
5. Kiss on the ears = I am just playing
6. Kiss anywhere else = lets not get carried away
7. Look in your eyes = kiss me
8. Playing with your hair = I can't live without you
9. Hand on your waist = I love you to much to let you go
Article 2: The Three Steps 1.
Girls: If any guys gets fresh with you, slap him.
2. Guys: If any girl slaps you, her intentions are still good.
3. Guys & Girls: Close your eyes when kissing, it is rude to stare.
Article 3: The Commandments
1. Thou shall not squeeze too hard.
2. Thou shall not ask for a kiss, but take one.
3. Thou shall kiss at every opportunity.
Here are a few reasons why guys like girls:
1. They will always smell good even if its just shampoo
2. The way they call you after you just had a big fight.
3. The way she says "lets not fight anymore" even though you know that an hour later....
4. The way they kiss when you do something nice for them
5. The way they kiss you when you say "I love you"
6. Actually ... just the way they kiss you...
7. The way they fall into your arms when they cry
8. Then the way they apologize for crying over something that silly
9. The way they hit you and expect it to hurt
10. Then the way they apologize when it does hurt. (even though we don't admit it!)
11. The way they say "I miss you"
12. The way you miss them
13. The way their tears make you want to change the world so that it doesn't hurt her anymore.....
This chain started in 1997.
It is a love chain letter. In an hour you are supposed to send it to 25 people.
It is easy, just look into chat rooms and find them.
Anyway, send it to 25 people in 1 hour. Now here comes the fun part.
You then say the name of the person you like or love and then the person will say "I love you," or "Will you go out with me?"
NO JOKE!!!!! NOW THE CONSEQUENCES The consequences are: If you break the chain letter, you will have bad luck in future relationships. If you don't break the chain, then you will be a happy camper!!! CoNgRatULaTioNs!! You have been chosen to participate in the LONGEST and the LUCKIEST chain letter on the Internet! Once you read, this letter you must IMMEDIATELY (meaning within the hour) be sent to 25 people for ur whish to come true

hey dun get me wrong or anything..
i neva kiss first of all...
ok.. but cheryl did some thing to me that kinda shocked me...
and i am not gonna tell any one wad it is..
and i even if i tell u some how i am gonna tell u i am not gonna pay it back..
cause it is wrong..
lol..
i so hungry..
bohoo...hey..dinner is almost rdy..
heee...
i gotta get rdy i gonna buy my books..
apparently my parents got no time to bring me and they dun let me go on my own...
haha..
and my dad is takin leave on wednesday and we gonna have a hell of a time..
i am mostly closer to my dad.. but my mum and dad both pamper me alot...
OMG!!
i am listening to Whatsername now!!
obviously by green day.. it so kool!!
ahahaha....
love it alot...
oh well...
sian.....rotting and rotting...
hey my mum is back!! ;)
ahahaha...
bye!! gotta shower and eat.. bye!!

2005-11-11T04:45:00.000-08:00

hihihih...
ok i oso dunno why i so lame...
one dae go post twice...
maybe cause tomorrow i got no time...
here's mi plan of tomorrow..

8-8.30 = get up get rdy...
8.30-10 = drums
10-lunch = buy books for sec 2
lunch-6 = airrifle training
6-8= dinner
8-11 =rot infront of com playin GunZ or wad so eva
11-12 = training
12- 2 =keep awake due to i dunno wad
2-10 = snnnooozzzeeee

haha... madness...
wad eva..
reality this is...
haha wad eva...
speak of which.. during the past few daes..
au yang ke wei kept bein bully by me and my friend...XD
we kept like putting him
together wif this sec 3 girl...
she was older than him by 1 year but
he slightly taller than her...
so farnny lor they all..
heeee............. ;)
hey brb.. my mom want me to go shower..X(

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back.. ok nothing else much to sae lar..
bohoo...
some one craving for computer now...
lol....
computer oso can crave...
ekk....wad eva..
ahahaahaha...
srry i gone mad.. yesterdae i too moody.. now all letting go...
wad eva...
might wanna change the skin of my blog again..
next time...
maybe next year...
i mean change the theme of my blog skins.. so ar all my blog skins all is the
heart broken.. sad kinda worth less thing..
wad eva...
pple i need more linkies..
so pls send me ur blog url okie??
haha...
dunno URL or wad so eva la..
wad bullshit i oso dunno...
ah shit...
now an irritating dragonfly is flying above
me banging into the light.. wotta idiot..
lol...
oh... it kana burn by light.. haha...
i had the light on for at least 3 hrs...
must be hot..
lol.. it still alive..
lol.... heeeee..
may be i go burn it furthur...
heee...
no la i not so bad one lar.. i not kinda person...
lol...

i so happy... goin to italy for holidae....
hahaha!!!
then can eat exotic food..
next holidae may be in hawaii..
so kool...
haha..exotic man...
ok.. so here comes the latest rumour..

rumour: everyone including pple form sec 1,2,3 hate lisa from 1k ,05...
they sae she damn bitch...
wad eva...
i dunno lar..
i take no sides..
onli my side.... XP
okie...
gtg....play com actually hahahahahaha....
srry..
heeee.....
go answer natures call first.. hahaha... bye!!

2005-11-10T22:02:00.000-08:00

ok...errr......
the dae todae was ok.. it would have been good..
but guess wad?
in the morning incredibly...
cheryl mun woke up at around 7 or wad so eva...
and she was like messagin me and all of a sudden
she said wad.....
err... i qoute...
lamme get me hand phone first..w8 arhx....
hmmm.....
she said...
'and you better stop calling stefan name sor else he will do some thing to you you won't want him to do....'
oh wow.. yeah i am so scared...
oh my!! i am shaking with fear!! (spastically)
as if i am afraid of stefan the fukin faggot...
read then read la cheryl mun..
you know some thing??? not a bloody dae goes by
without u disturbing me or insulting me..
you go to the mirror and tell the person in it to
bloody leave me alone....
u have been bloody irritating these daes.. and it is
not cute anymore..
so get lost...
there is a limit to bein' friends' so watch it..
u are stepping out of line..
and it is bloody irritating...
and another thing.. there is no ap-ness between us...
it is u raining on my parade..
so suck it up wuss....
wad eva...

and about DnT todae..
hmm....
it was already beginning to look
good since yesterdae..
my friend and i may have a good
chance at gettin maybe a gold medal
if the instrument works that is.....
and another stupid thing is that me and two other friends
are suppose to do 3 projects in total.. X(
more work for every one...bohoo...
ah but the diff. part is onli the part where we must think up of an idea to make
work easier or something...
dunno la..
we may have to make a toy...
cause in the Tan Ka Ki Young Inventors Award(TKKYA)..
we can make a toy.. a challenging one..
wad eva...
sianz.. here i am again rotting infront of the computer...
wth am i doin??
bohoo....
lo..ok wad eva.. i wanna play com now...
c ya pple!!

2005-11-04T07:56:00.000-08:00

hey pple...
was chatting to my friend..
still am actually....
she racked up a past event for me...
not concerning her that is..
nvm...dun wanna sae...
here's something intresting i came over
while surfing the net...

SCORPIO & SCORPIO: Sexually you are truly compatible, however out of the bedroom you are far too much alike -- creating problems and mind games. You will always think that the other is having an affair...

some stupid sh!t that i dun wanna tok about...
those who are clever enough you can go ahead and tag it..
wtf.. wad eva la....
i got something wrong with me todae...
i dunno la....
any wae.... gonna learn drums tomorrow!!!
yippee...
wad eva.....
i so childish say..
nvm...wad eva...

2005-10-26T02:59:00.000-07:00

hey pple....
just came back from school...
i was walking home with cheryl mun...
yar..amazing right?
wad eva...
i gotta go for tuition soon....
bohoo...
we are learning the sec 2 science....
wtf......
atoms and elements..yada..
i just came home and i got calls from my parents...
wad else but naggin....
alex do this...
alex remember about ur tuition...
alex remember to do that..
wtf!!!
i not 5 years old la...
i so happy..my b-dae is sooooo near..
muahahahahahaha..........
sian...
this sat also got company run.....
actually it is an excuse so that we,NCC, can go play LAN....
lol..
but my dad neva allows me....
and yesterdae my friend sent me a photo of
my friend's stead..
and i will not tell who that friend is...
any way.. in in the photo i saw another girl...
she was so cute!!!!!!
but guess wad...
i heard from my friend's stead that she was a les....
BOOOHOOOOOO!!!!!!!!
haha...
her name is kelly...
haha....
(thinkin of SC that kelly)
An d my friend's stead told me that kelly was
rubbing her private part on her leg.....
thta's so sick.....
sian..
all lonely and sad me again...o_0
hmm.....
still waiting for somethings to happen..
in the mean time i will just rot infront of the com...
lol.....
well....
here i am chewing on crackers and waiting for dinner....
wtf...
i go shower....
*sigh*
the thought of the toilet reminds me of something....
something i would neva forget....
forever....
*sigh*
those daes are over anyway...
no point in thinkin about it over and over and over agian.....
gotta shower and get ready for tuition..
cya..

2005-10-25T00:19:00.000-07:00

hey hey wad up....
lol...
i have been to alot of other blogs...
not to mention the exceptionally-you.blogspot.com
you should noe wad blog and whoose blog that is...
sian...
i trying to get my dad to allow me to learn drums..
my mum allow but me dad don't...
i found a music centre that teches..
muhahahaaha.....
still my dad don't allow...
stupak sia...
i so happy...
my b-dae is this friday!!!!
hahaha..
and some one's is coming up too hor?
wad eva.......
can't be bothered...
i still thinkin wad to get for me b-dae..
a drum set?
too expeensive... it is at least 5k plus lor.. bohoo....
or just get them to let me go play drum.. hahaha..'
wad the.....
me dog just came in to the room....
she scared of lighting..
haha....some dog....
yesterdae is just went out with my parents
to eat jap food....
i love it...yummy....
we ate the jap bbq...
so kool....
i just didn't like the prawns...
a bitta too raw....
haha....
sian....
still waiting for her reply...
she neva reply my e-mail....
i was waiting for so long.. i wonder wad happened.....
sobzzzzz.........
todae in school had alotta presentation sia.....
i trying to sleep then some stupak pple ariund me from
my class and other class make so much noise...
i wanted to shout at them "will you shut the XXXX up?"
but i can't be bothered to bother with these kinda lame and childish pple....
oh there was praise and worship todae....
so kool....
i loved all the songs....i joined the AHSYF...
so kool..
hopefully i get in and my parents allow me to join...
but who cares?
it is only about 1 hr sfter school...
and i normally go home only at 4...
but heck....
got alotta dNt camps comin up...
gotta prepare for the competition...
but heck...
gtg any way...
i feel too upset bout something to type any more...
that something suddenly just cam back to me....
and it made me upset..
and i am not talkin about it...
see ya guys next time...
god bless..

2005-10-21T02:28:00.000-07:00

oh well hoilidays are here!!!!!!!!!!
wohoooooo!!!!!!!!!
and the cool thing is that school iz gonna end next
thurs....
which is one b4 my bdae...
happy bo!!!
haha..
tomorrow i got bedok reservior run..
bohoo...
dun feel like running...
but still should go for it...
get promoted...
hehehe...
siao already me..
wad eva..
i like runnin..
kames me feel some wad free....
tehee...
soon i gonna go for drum lessens..
wohoo...
so cool and i gonna try and save up for a drum set....
i am gonna be taking quite a while...
but hey..
new year is round the corner...
hehe...
red packets...
lol...
money face sia me..lol...
hehe...
wad eva.. now at least i simmer down a little
over that incident...
wad eva...
gtg...
mom's naggin.. bb

emptyness............

2005-10-12T02:14:00.000-07:00

hey...
long time really no post..
busi busi busi wif exams.....
neva mind.. busi for the week onli...
then fridae is freedom!!!!
YESS!!!!!!!!
F-R-E-E-D-O-M!!!!!!!!!!!
cool roller blade tricks and so on to come..
better yet i have my b-dae comin up....
prezzie...
you must give if you noe mi...
hahaha..
crapping...
any wae.. still got eng and home ec left..
was studyng home. ec just now wif JJ..
maki notes...
wad eva....
i damn Ap now....
was happy until guess who tok and pissed
me off on msn?
yuppo..
who else but....*some text missing*....
wish that ass hole learn how to shud the
mouth....

2005-10-08T22:27:00.000-07:00

heyz....
it's been a long time since i have posted...
exams and more exams la...
you pple out there should understand right?
unless you that kind that heck care don't care bout exams and don't give a fuck bout exams...
than i understand...
hehe...o_0
wad eva....
sianz..
my parents outta the house that's why i now i using com..
lol...
if not ar...
i would be on the floor ow bein slain by my pop....
lol...
wad eva.....
sorry....
nothin exciting has happened....
unless exmas count to you...
lame...sianz...
and my bloody head and arms hurt...
well heard that once exams are over.. some of the boys don't wanna come to school..
wtf.....
i think i got one demeret point from that mrs tan....
science file...
she expects us to redo the file if we photocopy the whole file....
she mad is it? and the photocopying cost me $5.50.....
one day' pocket mone down the drain..
sobzz...
wad eva..
and now jj angry at me..
don't wanna say a peep bout it so don't ask....
and fucking ian say what me no balls...
i pluck out his balls and pubic hair and shove it down his thoart then he knows....
basterd....
wadeva....
i think i wanna change my skin.. but that would make it my 7th skin..
sianz...
wad eva..
i hungry.. i gonna eat then sleep..
wad eva..
good night and godbless...

ReGeCtIoN....

2005-09-22T02:55:00.000-07:00

srry.. i so long neva post liao....
cause i got not time last night...
yesterday i went home with chere...
yuppo....
we did sit down next to each other...
but it felt so weird...
i used to hold her hand..
but this time i did not.. i was hoping to...
i was waiting patiently..
ever so patiently.. hoping she would just hold my hand...
but my hopes were brought down...
i guess my mind still did not accept the fact that
she was no longer mine...
still wad could i do...?
it is a hard thing to accept things at times...

any way...
yesterday for the first two periods...
there wasn't any teacher...
so happy... i down there put leg on table read comics...
hahaha...
now i am watching some ninga show...
it is called "tales of noshu"
oerr...
blood all over..
haha...sianz...
i got nothin to do now...
thinkin of nothingness.....
perhaps i should change the song again...
the fifth time that would be...
haha... okok....
it's dinner time for me... gotta go...

Need[yOu]BaCk signing off....
bye!!

No(tRuE)Lov3

2005-09-13T05:45:00.001-07:00

hi pple....
sianz... my foruth skin now and gotta shower soon.. my mom naggin'..
sianz.. i broke up wif her not long ago.. sianz...
now i listening to sk8ier boy....so kool....
kinda seems like mi "has been" relationship..
well she broke up wif me because she was
too stressed up..
she says that it is not because of that she
dun love mi any more.. sianz...
dunno larghz...
she says i have been very cold to her and that
i have been veri warm to her friends...
gee....i dunno larghz...
sianz... i was so upset when she told me that
she wanted to break..
i was shooting air-rifle then...
practicing that is... was so surprised...
after the message i started going berserk with my shots....
i started shooting real fast and then soon my dad asked
me if i was alright....
truely i don't noe...
not even now...i don't even know my self anymore....
i am soo confused if i still love her and want her back
or i hate her now....
it is confusing...really confusing.. i have been crying my seld t sleep sometimes....
sadness.....
wad eva larghzzz.....
gotta shower now... wait for my next posts okayz?