Sunday, October 08, 2006

heyysss all.. lol..
today was maths and geog...
well.. i kinda scrwed up my geog so i pray fer the best..
maths... ok.. if i dun get a1 cause of that empty cone question and cut open thing...
i am really gonna run around.. scream my head off and jump off the building..
honestly.. first time i actually feel good bout this test.. lol..
ah well.. over the next two days i am gonna die.. die die die die!!!
i havem't study chinese finish yet.. i cant rmber a shit bout history besides the dates..
1819 which is when s'pore is founded and when raffles signed tad treaty wif tungku hussein..
1950 which is maria hertogh riot..
1954 which is antinational service riots..
1955 which is hock lee bus riots
1956 which is the singapore singapore chinese middle school student's riot
and that communist ideas were spread from russia to china then to malaya then to here..
and that the japs captured s'pore on feb 1942 and left aug 1945..

i am so freakin screwed...
ah wells... i hated history in the first place so who gives a shit? i'm dead all in all.. lol...
and for the first time in my life i feel bad bout science..
i mean like i've forgotten all bout chemistry and bio!
GRARGH!!!!! this really stinks ok?
T.T i am so dead.. and there goes my subject combi..

And here's a shout out to:
Debra!
lol... happy birthday gurll....
haha..i onli jus found out it was her birtday today wen i went on to msn and she told me..
lol.. heyy..rmber dun use TAD pic to trick guys.. or they'll probably die if they met you in person.. =X..muahahahaha..
and lucky you... dun have exams.. T.T

And to Angela!
well well.. heard you are sick..
well..jiayous la.. try to come fer exams although you'd feel shitty..
hope you get well soon..
yupp yupp..drink lots of water.. study in bed and do well fer exams!
see ya next time!

ah well.. gtg.. wanna make one final attempt to read the chapters of history...
and probably i'll be changing my blog's website soon... but i'll keep in touch with those who
i want to by tagging.. see ya'll..
gd luck fer remaining mid years! tckers!

All Love Lost @ 11:36 PM

Friday, October 06, 2006

It already has almost been a year.. yet it seems like a life time ago...

life has that effect on you..

It passes so quickly doesn't it?

EOY are already here and i am like an idot here blogging..

ah heck..i'll jus take 20mins...

yesterday was really stupid..

i was listening to mp3..reading geog notes and was walking down to the bus stop..

and this stupid driver had to come all the way in my face and horn at me..

i was shocked out of my freaking skin..

of all things he had to do he had to come straight up to my face.. he couldn't have like horned from far away..

well...an idiot's born every minute and i'm one of them..

yesterday i was suppose to blog but i jus dint feel in the mood...

i was jus too pooped.. really tired and i jus went to take a nap..

stupid.. of all times..

i get one of my stupid insomia nights yesterday..

i dunno why i suddenly got it..

but i felt really down and depressed..

it was just so saddening..

hell.. i jus got up.. went down to get a cup of water and medication and got drugged to sleep..

the stupid medication was for running nose which i obviously dodn't have..

i jus took it fer it's drowsy effect..

so i waited fer bout and hour and soon knocked out onli to wake up at 6.30..

although it somehow felt like i onli slept 5 mins although it was 6 hours..

and i kinda got this hungover effect that morning..

ah well..

and lately i got this stupid pimple outbreak..

i got like so many dots on my face..

geezzz.. can't wait for them to be totally gone..

never liked pimples..

ah well...

oh yeah..

here's a shout out to:wei hua

Sorry fer smashing ur nose fer the SECOND time during basket ball!!

I DINT MEAN IT!! IT WAS A FREAKIN ACCIDENT!!!

grargh... the first time was i passed the ball to him but he looked away..

and when i shouted out to him, he turned and..SMASH..

T.T

then today was that i jumped fer the ball and so did he...

we both landed with me carrying the ball and stupidly enough..

my elbow smashed his nose again.. wha lao..

i dun wanna ding him anymore sia..

and i betta be more careful next time..

It has left a lasting memory in my mind..

I felt both happy and sad..

I felt happy for You..

That You could find what i couldn't provide..

That You were happy..

And i felt sad..

Sad at how pathetic i was..

How lousy i felt..

My days on this world are already numbered..

I don't know how long more i can live..

Another day?

Week?

Month?

Year?

I'll never know..

But i know that i'll always remember You..

And in my dyingt moments i'll smile and say to myself..

"I loved Her with all my heart..

But some how it din't seem enough..

But i'm glad i made it worthwhile.."

Maybe You din't hear it..

But i said my Goodbye..

It's so much easier to just Forget you..

To wipe You totally out of my memory..

Then to know you and to constantly remember You..

These Memories are both my greatest strenght and weakness..

But i know that there will be other strenghts out there..

This is why i choose to forget..

I'll burn to photos..

I'll erase all memories..

I'll tear out those moments in my diary..

And i'll definetly forget You in time..

'Cause i choose to..

I cried..

These Tears i cried..I'll Never ever forget them..

Just so You Know.. I Was..

Of course You wouldn't know..

Hung up inside your own heaven up in the clouds..

while i was stuck down in purgotary..

I saw..You know that i saw..

I cried..And I still am..

I hope it was fun for you to see me fall apart..

Not all sorrows..

All scars and wounds..

All Pains can be seen..

They are all hidden behind this happy face..

I hope i don't ever have to talk to You again..

I don't wish to see You again..

Our paths may cross one day..

But i'll acknowledge You as any other stranger with the same look..

This Friendship was never meant to last..

Your principles tell me so..

I don't hate You..

I can't Hate You..

Maybe one day..i'll greet You with a new name and face..

And defitnately with a new memory..

This is my Last and Final Good Bye..

All Love Lost @ 1:48 AM

Name:Alexander Ho Guan Ting(freakin long)
Mandarin Name:He Guan Ting(eww)
Stage Name: Nanahara Shuya(not many call me by this)
Birthday:28 oct 1992
Blood Type: A+
Height:158cm(SHUD DUP!!)
Weight:41kg Horoscope: Scorpio
Place of Birth:Singapore,Thompson Medical Hospital
School:Anglican High; school filled with gays and lesbian

Likes
Celebrities: Will Smith..especially when he acted in Hitch!!
Author: None
Book: Armaggedeon Summer,Devils's Foot Steps
Singer: Green Day,BackStreet Boys,Eminem,Good Charlote,Yellowcard,Fallout Boy
Songs:(one from each of e above)Whatshername,I Still..,Lose Yourself, The Anthem, Ocean Avenue,Sugar We're Goin Down.
Animal:Spiders.
Finger:the most often used one, Middle finger
Colours:Black,Orange,Brown,Baby Pink,Green
Movie:FINAL FANTASY ADVENT CHILDREN!!!,Pirates of the Caribbean,Blade 1 n 2,Hitch,Xmen,The Girl Next Door..
People:Her.. Food:Anything edible.. Weather:(s'pores)Sunny with some Clouds and lots of Wind!(overseas)Snow with NO WIND!! Or just lots of sun and some clouds
Numbers:1, 9, 13
Word:Supp...
Drink:Diet Root Beer, Pepsi Max, diet coke..
Season:WINTER!!!
Country:JAPAN!!!! All the cherry blossoms.....
Disease:Diabetes(cause i have it)
Article of clothing:Jeans
Place:Infront of e com
School Subject:P.E., Recess, Free period

Hates
Book:Text Books
Singer:Hillary Duff
Colours:Turqoise, Bright Yellow.
Fruit:Rock Melon
Movies:Pointless movies
People:Teachers
Weather:When the afternoon sun is out n there are no clouds
Number:4,7,8
Word:WWWHHHAAA!!
Drink:Coke
Season:Summer
Country:Malaysia
Article of clothing:tight pants..
Place:Classroom
School subject:All But P.E., recess and free period

When you love someone so deep inside,
It seems like it's so easy to hide.
You've loved Her for so very long,
You would think She could never do any wrong.

Every day you would hope and pray,
That She would always stay that way.
She treated you like you should be treated,
You thought your life was finally completed.

You thought your love was growing true,
And then one day it was all so blue.
She suddenly put you down and it hurt,
You thought all you were to her was a plaything.

She started ignoring you and you wondered why,
What wrong had you done to deserve this?
Soon itâs all you think about,
And you feel as if your head were about to explode
All you wanted to do was curl up and die.
You thought your relationship would never end,
But that was all so fake and pretend.

One night She was so sweet to you,
You thought all those things were maybe untrue,
Later She was back the same,
You thought you were the one to blame.

She thought the relationship was getting too serious
And that you had become a little too curious.
By this time you knew it wouldn't last,
All the nice things She said were in the past.

You thought that you would marry Her some day,
And walk down that red carpet
But this time God wanted to get his way.
You wanted things back how they were before,
But you knew this couldn't happen anymore.

It was a Saturday night about ten o'clock,
You heard the news and it wasn't a shock.
You knew this was going to happen soon,
As you laid there and cried in the pale lit moon.
All alone suddenly..