Saturday, September 09, 2006

A shining blade..
A little tear..
The blood is such a nice wonderful sight..
It's sweet poison to me..
Maybe You don't realise..
But it gives me sweet relief..
---Cut here it says..
And i obey..
Only because It helps me greatly..

I feel dead..

I feel hollow and have no heart..

I don't feel for anything around me..

Death and blood seem like such a beautiful thing..

I have no sense of belonging,

I need something to press me on..

There's nothing in this world that i can live on for..

Or to fight for..

Life now seems so meaningless..

So different from years before where everything was beautiful..

some how nowadays i dont enjoy everything i do..

i try to make the best of everything..at least i got friends i know i can lean on..

friends who are there for you and give you a helping hand and support you..

not the kind that pushes everything to you and just says thanks..

not the kind that back stabs..

not the kind that casts evil stares at you..

not the kind that blames everything on you when something goes wrong..

lol.. the drawing done by celseteis still on my hand.. lol..

i've been staring at it on and on..

it's rather funny somehow..

Done By: celeste cheng..

lol... that's what you can read on my hand..k wad eva...

it's fading already.. gonna go over it wif marker again later when i get home..

this morning when you woke up i was like really tired..

couldn't sleep cause something was constantly in my mind..

i dun know what it was but it just stayed there..

jus some feeling..

i wonder what it is.. some one tell me..

i've lost enuff sleepp over other stuff..

celeste ah celeste.. stop stealing..drinking ALCOHOL in excessive amnts already la..

so young do this kinda thing already.. dun larghz..

stupid gurl..

Why is it that humans do things and only think bout themselves?

they dont think bout the hearts that they hurt of the people that love them so..

life's a bitch..

Or perhaps it is only humans' nature to be so self centred...

guess it's the same for me.. i judge people before looking at myself..

some how i constantly try to remind myself that i am not perfect so i cant judge..

onli god can be the one and onli judge..

but honestly.. think bout it.. how many of us do things that please us but not others..

lol... kk.. well goin fer the bbq party now.. see ya'll

All Love Lost @ 2:40 AM

Name:Alexander Ho Guan Ting(freakin long)
Mandarin Name:He Guan Ting(eww)
Stage Name: Nanahara Shuya(not many call me by this)
Birthday:28 oct 1992
Blood Type: A+
Height:158cm(SHUD DUP!!)
Weight:41kg Horoscope: Scorpio
Place of Birth:Singapore,Thompson Medical Hospital
School:Anglican High; school filled with gays and lesbian

Likes
Celebrities: Will Smith..especially when he acted in Hitch!!
Author: None
Book: Armaggedeon Summer,Devils's Foot Steps
Singer: Green Day,BackStreet Boys,Eminem,Good Charlote,Yellowcard,Fallout Boy
Songs:(one from each of e above)Whatshername,I Still..,Lose Yourself, The Anthem, Ocean Avenue,Sugar We're Goin Down.
Animal:Spiders.
Finger:the most often used one, Middle finger
Colours:Black,Orange,Brown,Baby Pink,Green
Movie:FINAL FANTASY ADVENT CHILDREN!!!,Pirates of the Caribbean,Blade 1 n 2,Hitch,Xmen,The Girl Next Door..
People:Her.. Food:Anything edible.. Weather:(s'pores)Sunny with some Clouds and lots of Wind!(overseas)Snow with NO WIND!! Or just lots of sun and some clouds
Numbers:1, 9, 13
Word:Supp...
Drink:Diet Root Beer, Pepsi Max, diet coke..
Season:WINTER!!!
Country:JAPAN!!!! All the cherry blossoms.....
Disease:Diabetes(cause i have it)
Article of clothing:Jeans
Place:Infront of e com
School Subject:P.E., Recess, Free period

Hates
Book:Text Books
Singer:Hillary Duff
Colours:Turqoise, Bright Yellow.
Fruit:Rock Melon
Movies:Pointless movies
People:Teachers
Weather:When the afternoon sun is out n there are no clouds
Number:4,7,8
Word:WWWHHHAAA!!
Drink:Coke
Season:Summer
Country:Malaysia
Article of clothing:tight pants..
Place:Classroom
School subject:All But P.E., recess and free period

Darlinks

[*] *_Cheryl Mun_* =)))
[*] *_Miao Qian_*
[*]*_Shu Yi_*
[*]*_Wan Yun_*
[*] *_Nick_* =))))
[*] *_Kuroda_*=))
[*] *_Yuin Theng_* =))
[*]*_Jenna Lim Ying Aoki_* =))
[*]*_Kerrie_* =))
[*]*_Sheena_* =))
[*]*_Jane_* =))
[*]*_Xia Xue_*
[*]*_Wen Xin_*
[*]*_Chen Yin_*
[*]*_Caleena_*
[*]*_Chermain_*
[*]*_Clarice_*
[*]*_Crystal_*
[*]*_Justina_* =))
[*]*_Vannesa 2A_*
[*]*_Shu Yi_*
[*]*_Megan_*
[*]*_felicia 1D_*
[*]*_Debra_* =))
[*]*_Jollin_*
[*]*_Lewis_* =))
[*]*_Amelia_* =))
[*]*_YiYee_* =))
[*]*_AHS 1J 0'5_*
[*]*_Jing Hui_* =))
[*]*_Li Jing_* =))
Memories
September 2005 October 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 March 2006 April 2006 May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 February 2007

When you love someone so deep inside,
It seems like it's so easy to hide.
You've loved Her for so very long,
You would think She could never do any wrong.

Every day you would hope and pray,
That She would always stay that way.
She treated you like you should be treated,
You thought your life was finally completed.

You thought your love was growing true,
And then one day it was all so blue.
She suddenly put you down and it hurt,
You thought all you were to her was a plaything.

She started ignoring you and you wondered why,
What wrong had you done to deserve this?
Soon itâs all you think about,
And you feel as if your head were about to explode
All you wanted to do was curl up and die.
You thought your relationship would never end,
But that was all so fake and pretend.

One night She was so sweet to you,
You thought all those things were maybe untrue,
Later She was back the same,
You thought you were the one to blame.

She thought the relationship was getting too serious
And that you had become a little too curious.
By this time you knew it wouldn't last,
All the nice things She said were in the past.

You thought that you would marry Her some day,
And walk down that red carpet
But this time God wanted to get his way.
You wanted things back how they were before,
But you knew this couldn't happen anymore.

It was a Saturday night about ten o'clock,
You heard the news and it wasn't a shock.
You knew this was going to happen soon,
As you laid there and cried in the pale lit moon.
All alone suddenly..