Sunday, September 10, 2006

heys all...
i'm just kinda really down and depressed once again.. fer four reasons this time..
1) holidays are ending
2)i can't see Her tad often anymore..
3)i got one more chapter to study fer science ct tmr..
4)i dint do any homewrk..

lol..
i am super gonna get screwed fer this la can... i still have to go and photocopy the whole freaking hist work book cause i lost it.. again! fer the 3rd fucking time!
Who the fucking shitty fuck keeps takin my wrkbok?!
I'm gonna rip ur fucking head off u bitch!
grr...

Once again.. i am thinkin bout the 2 people in my life that i am thinkin of the most right now..
both of them need help in some way..
m,aybe not one of them..
that person is capable of handling things on her own i guess...
though she makes statements tad onli apply to her and not to those around her..
whose who once felt so whole and happy.. whereas the other..
has just walked astray..
not knowing what to do.. that person steals.. drinks and god knows what else..
if i were to have to help one of these people..
i'd help the latter...
it is useless helping one who'd be so selfish to themselves..
to hurt others where others cant hurt them the way they did...
life's neva fair.. indeed..
but this time it was out of 'life's' hands and this was caused by the own person will.
if that person wasn't happpy with something..
that person should just be upright bout it..
and tell me what's wrong.. but no..
she had to some how seemingly lie to me and to trick me..
and to just hurt me where it would hurt me the deepest..
i try not to hold a jurdge against that person.. tryin deep down to be friends and to help in any way possible.. but yet it seems so hard..

as for the latter... i dunt see much of you any more..
and it's stupid as i've just seen you the other day on friday..
it was fun being with you..honestly..
i can know so much more bout the world of your mafias so called... haha..
i wish i could just see more of you some how.. it's so difficult to talk to you to know you more..
when i msged.. i tot that u dint want to answer my msgs and you were unhappy..
unhappy bout something i did..
i felt so bad deep down inside.. till i realised you weren't ignoring me..
but jus that you dint have your phone wif you..
i felt that i was to blame..
i feel so helpless in this world..
i want a sense of belonging.. some where out there i'm sure it is there..

To see you again it would be good..
i miss you already when it is..
when it is only the 3rd pointless and cold day..
without you it jus feels so empty..
come back firefly..
and light up my life...

All Love Lost @ 1:28 AM

Name:Alexander Ho Guan Ting(freakin long)
Mandarin Name:He Guan Ting(eww)
Stage Name: Nanahara Shuya(not many call me by this)
Birthday:28 oct 1992
Blood Type: A+
Height:158cm(SHUD DUP!!)
Weight:41kg Horoscope: Scorpio
Place of Birth:Singapore,Thompson Medical Hospital
School:Anglican High; school filled with gays and lesbian

Likes
Celebrities: Will Smith..especially when he acted in Hitch!!
Author: None
Book: Armaggedeon Summer,Devils's Foot Steps
Singer: Green Day,BackStreet Boys,Eminem,Good Charlote,Yellowcard,Fallout Boy
Songs:(one from each of e above)Whatshername,I Still..,Lose Yourself, The Anthem, Ocean Avenue,Sugar We're Goin Down.
Animal:Spiders.
Finger:the most often used one, Middle finger
Colours:Black,Orange,Brown,Baby Pink,Green
Movie:FINAL FANTASY ADVENT CHILDREN!!!,Pirates of the Caribbean,Blade 1 n 2,Hitch,Xmen,The Girl Next Door..
People:Her.. Food:Anything edible.. Weather:(s'pores)Sunny with some Clouds and lots of Wind!(overseas)Snow with NO WIND!! Or just lots of sun and some clouds
Numbers:1, 9, 13
Word:Supp...
Drink:Diet Root Beer, Pepsi Max, diet coke..
Season:WINTER!!!
Country:JAPAN!!!! All the cherry blossoms.....
Disease:Diabetes(cause i have it)
Article of clothing:Jeans
Place:Infront of e com
School Subject:P.E., Recess, Free period

Hates
Book:Text Books
Singer:Hillary Duff
Colours:Turqoise, Bright Yellow.
Fruit:Rock Melon
Movies:Pointless movies
People:Teachers
Weather:When the afternoon sun is out n there are no clouds
Number:4,7,8
Word:WWWHHHAAA!!
Drink:Coke
Season:Summer
Country:Malaysia
Article of clothing:tight pants..
Place:Classroom
School subject:All But P.E., recess and free period

Darlinks

[*] *_Cheryl Mun_* =)))
[*] *_Miao Qian_*
[*]*_Shu Yi_*
[*]*_Wan Yun_*
[*] *_Nick_* =))))
[*] *_Kuroda_*=))
[*] *_Yuin Theng_* =))
[*]*_Jenna Lim Ying Aoki_* =))
[*]*_Kerrie_* =))
[*]*_Sheena_* =))
[*]*_Jane_* =))
[*]*_Xia Xue_*
[*]*_Wen Xin_*
[*]*_Chen Yin_*
[*]*_Caleena_*
[*]*_Chermain_*
[*]*_Clarice_*
[*]*_Crystal_*
[*]*_Justina_* =))
[*]*_Vannesa 2A_*
[*]*_Shu Yi_*
[*]*_Megan_*
[*]*_felicia 1D_*
[*]*_Debra_* =))
[*]*_Jollin_*
[*]*_Lewis_* =))
[*]*_Amelia_* =))
[*]*_YiYee_* =))
[*]*_AHS 1J 0'5_*
[*]*_Jing Hui_* =))
[*]*_Li Jing_* =))
Memories
September 2005 October 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 March 2006 April 2006 May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 February 2007

When you love someone so deep inside,
It seems like it's so easy to hide.
You've loved Her for so very long,
You would think She could never do any wrong.

Every day you would hope and pray,
That She would always stay that way.
She treated you like you should be treated,
You thought your life was finally completed.

You thought your love was growing true,
And then one day it was all so blue.
She suddenly put you down and it hurt,
You thought all you were to her was a plaything.

She started ignoring you and you wondered why,
What wrong had you done to deserve this?
Soon itâs all you think about,
And you feel as if your head were about to explode
All you wanted to do was curl up and die.
You thought your relationship would never end,
But that was all so fake and pretend.

One night She was so sweet to you,
You thought all those things were maybe untrue,
Later She was back the same,
You thought you were the one to blame.

She thought the relationship was getting too serious
And that you had become a little too curious.
By this time you knew it wouldn't last,
All the nice things She said were in the past.

You thought that you would marry Her some day,
And walk down that red carpet
But this time God wanted to get his way.
You wanted things back how they were before,
But you knew this couldn't happen anymore.

It was a Saturday night about ten o'clock,
You heard the news and it wasn't a shock.
You knew this was going to happen soon,
As you laid there and cried in the pale lit moon.
All alone suddenly..