Saturday, July 29, 2006

Hey Everyone.. it's been long since i posted..
i was busy makin this skin.. yupp... aint it nice? i stole some of the photos.. XP
so i did credit the girl who found the photos.. Thanks a bunch..
well... NCC yesterday was really slack.. and i really mean SLACK!!
i mean like we pump onli like 120?
tad's all!! we had so called p.t. where my group did pt first.. we ran.. pumped.. did sit up..
blaH BLAH.. then we played captains ball..
and there was this lame rule where when ur opponent scored a goal u had to pump 25.. lol..
so evryone made a plan with out letting the seniors knowing.. we allowed ea group to score one and stuff. so we like kinda pretended.. but in the end everyone still had to pump 50.. wow ness..
right, then we got ready for masters parade... where we got a bronze total defence.. and our orientation badges.. at first i was wondering why is it that there are part b gettin the badge when we dint do much? till i realised that it was jus given to everyone, fer wad?
i dunno.. who cares? so long as we got another badge! muahaha
well that we got that and we owed 88 pumping fer i dunno wad the hell.. lol..
in total it was really honestly very very slack..
and speaking of being slack.. mr kwang..
my DnT teach.. was going through everyone's ideas.. he went through everyone's 3 ideas..
but when he came to mine.. he looked at my first idea.. the convo was like this,

"Why is this on a small peice of paper?"
"O i was walking when i got ispired and jotted it down.."
"O i see...hmm.."
"=.="
"Well i like this idea alot....."
"O ok...."
"And u know what? i dun wanna look at the rest!"
"wad the...."(hearing is not beilieving)
"CAuse i think this idea is every good and i want you to do this.."
"err.. ok.." (diao)
"please go home and go and make ur mock up.."
"ok.."
it was like so wierd.. and i took time to think of the other 2 also.. bohoo...
and i also took time to actually think it over and draw it nicely.. dots..
wasted..haiz...
blah blah blah and it went on...

speakin of which.. leonard came online..and he makes me think of miao qian..
who which should b given an award for callin me an ass hole..
it was like this..
she was laughing with her friend like mad people out side the toilet there....
i walked past rolling my eyes..
and she said..
"Dun roll ur eyes at me like that... ass hole.."
i dint say shit and walked on.. unknowingly why.. since that incident
(for those who know..actually onli nick) i have not talked much..
well then i jus walked on.. actually i was looking for Someone..(notice the caps)
but dint find that Someone..normally i would responed to her with this..

"Ok Miao Qian..But u must know it takes a bigger ass hole to recgonise another ass hole.."
of which would impliment that she was a bigger ass hole..
but no... i dint say a thing...
rawr...so bad de you MQ.. wad happened to the guai kia from last time?
lol.. gtg..
packing for camp feast!!!! YYYYYYEAAAAA!!!

All Love Lost @ 5:18 AM

Friday, July 21, 2006

heys alls... i dint post fer long... have been busy.. lol.. studying and tad founders dae shit...
well done to everyone the other dae!!!1
YUPP!!! we stayed till like 6-7?
haha... KEEP IT UP EVERYONE!!!
which would go to...
1) NCC
2)NPCC
3)GB
4)SCOUTS
5)GG
6)BB
7)DANCE (though i din see the perfomance)
8)STOMP!!
9)SJAB!!

haha.. yupp yupp..o and i fergot..

10)PUB!!!!
yupp..they spent alot of time( and money on streamers and stuff) to decorate the whole freakin skool.. it was like damn kool!! muahahaha... KEEP IT UP PUB!!!! XD

well.. they got the NCC to blow balloon fer em.. ea person got to blow one.. lol.. it was like alot.. cause there's already 27 in part B and i think 28 in part A so u go do e math...
haiz...now i got muscle ache like idiot like tad.. cause todae we pump at least 300?
lol... 200 was 5 by 5... still it was crazy.. wen i recover all the blood suddenly flow down... ouch man..den P.T. was weird..
i tot it was gonna b IRON MAN but nope.. sad sad sad sad sad and good cause i got muscle ache from yest cus NCC carry chair from tower hall to main hall.. darn heavy i tell you.. lol...
the event, founders dae is gonna b a really good one.. lol.. YUP!!
50 12 dollars streamers... which means e school spent 600 on the big poppers alone.. wad about the small ones everyone is gonna get? lol... and imagine the mess!!! lol...
yupp.. anyways WH oso fell sick..(bohoo no one from my class changin into no.4 wif me..)
well den got alot stupid moments todae..

1) when mr yao was askin me qns about ncc and stuff...

yao "So...How's NCC?"
Me "ok....."=.=
"sure or not?"
"yes sir..."(how sure can i not be?)
"do you think the punishment that the seniors give you are reasonable?"
"most of them yes.. but there are few monets when it is not really.."
"like when is it unreasonable?"
"like yest.. they asl us to run frm the tree to NCC's mr oak...then they knock us down 20 every 5secs"
"wha..really argh? who knock de?"
"errmm... i fergot.. dunno who la...one of the ps i think.."(dotssss)
"U DUNNO?! like this yest onli u oso ferget?"
"yes... err acctually i dun really bother to rmber.."
"dun bother argh.. then wad? u jus do la and den dun care?"
"yes sir.."
"oohhh....so u r tad kind of follower kind and not that leader kind is it?"
"err not really sir.."
"So if i asked u to talk infront of ur own part will they listen to you?"
"yes sir..."
"out of respect or friendship?"
"I would suppose both sir.."
"So u are tryin to sae tad u dun have enuff chances to do so is it?"
"errr kinda i guess so" (oh shit)
"ok nvm.. u rmber those....

blah blah blah and it went on.. he was askin me y i wrote those 3 cadets name to b e best ones and plus he asked me the worst qns.. who do u think is the worse 3 cadets...?
oh shit... i couldn't say names...!!!
RARGH!! Y U ASK ME? I DUNNO!!!!!!
anywae i anyhow sae la.. lol..
den leonard got qoute i "shit" from csm jonathan..
he said tad leonard was laughing when he said he wasn't..lol..
den leonard had to pump 50 without us.. wth....
i dunno wth he did.. something to do wif laughing..
but hell it was serious.. man.. i dunno wad happened larghz..
i jus left early and went canteen.. den wen xin suddenly tok to me...
i was kinda surprised actaully...we dun even sae hi except fer tad one time...>.<
WX "Eh alex..has NCC ended yet?"
me "yea it has ended," durt i know y she was askin so i added..
"but the sec3 are having a briefing so i dunno wad time end..."
"orh ok...thanks.."
dun come and ask me wad the reason i knew was.. u wanna know u go see her blog urself.. i aint gonna sae a thing..
lol.... i gotta go to skool at 9 tmr.. but i goin at 6 go slack..
sianded..stand der pop popper.. lol.. i feel kinda stupid...
And to top it off.. WH may not b der tmr.. he's still sick.. lol.. but part B gonna watch POC tmr.. 2.30.. lol..my mom lemme go but she onli gimme 10 bucks..bohoo...
NICK!!!!!! I WANT MY 30 FREAKIN DOLLARS TAD U FREAKIN OWE ME!!!!!RAWR!!!
hehee..
well.....i got nothin to do now.. i completed my other drawing... haiz..i jus feel depressed suddenly cause i feel tad alot of sad things are happening now..
geezz...
next week is esplanade concert week thing.. plus next monday is hist common test and i dun understand a thing la.. lol..no la kiddin...
but at least all the NCC pple will miss one dae of skool cause we will all b at a camp that is fun but it is compulsory if u wanna b promoted... which, in this case, doesn't make any freakin sense at all.. lol.. a fun camp so u can b promoted.. wth?
lol....o shit.. WH lehz? damn man u betta get betta by then.. u got one week and a few hours.. lol..
i mean like u dun wanna miss tad camp right? PAINT BALL EH!!! PAINT BALL!!!
lol.. or so i guess.. lol.. i wonder how its gonna b like.. hopefully the toilets are good too..and speaking of good.. the food too.. lol..
wel i gtg.. lol... big dae tmr.. see ya'll

All Love Lost @ 6:05 AM

Saturday, July 08, 2006

Hey alls.. wowness..
i realised that my blog is like so dead? hahahaha...
i am gonna go blog hopping again..later tad is..
i found the skins i was lookin for!! hahahaha!
it took me 3 hours to go through all of em.... sadly the song was suppose to b "For You"
By the callin.. it was e sound track in daredevill...
besides "wake me up inside" by evan~..
yupp..
today i woke up and had to study... breakfast was not back yet.. so i had to study first... i studied geog... and i will study again..like a slacker...
then i went out to PP.. bought some clothes and my swimming trunks... my god...
its been like 6 years since i got into a pair of trunks.. wha lao..
i felt so damn weird in it larghs...
RARGH!!!

wen i tried on the costume on at home...
my maid and sis were lookin at how it was.. i mena they were lookin cause i wanna
ask em how it looked and how it was lar..

(sis)"Hey hey wait.. lemme see smth.."
"What............."
"Wait lah! Lemme see ur hip there.."

I just stood there and let her look at it..

" wha lao.. Ur hips there got that V-shaped line"
"So what? I dun like it.."
"Dun like it?? It's nice largh!"
"Please Lah..."
(Maid)"Hey That is damn nice lah..."
(sis)"Yar...U know how many body builders out there want that kinda thing?"
"No..Not really...Do you?"
(Maid) " It Really is nice lor.. Not many people have that"

Then my sis started poking my stomach..
"Nice muscles"
"Please LARGH!!!"
"honestly!"(continues pokin)
(hits her hand) " Stop it! I ain't a manequine"
(maid) "eh.. at least u dun have much ribs pokin out now.."

i looked down and to my side..
"oh yea.. I just realised.."
(sis)" Ohh...I just seen that too.."
"Yay... i got not much bones exposed like a guitar.."
(maid)"hahaha.. last time can count how many u got.."
" MUAHAHAHA!!!! NOT ANYMORE!"
(sis) "Down here have.." (points at my side)
(Maid) "That is normal la!"
"...... my stomach muscles are outta place.. i trained em wrongly at p6 ya know.."
(sis) " AhH That is u cant do ath bout the largh"
"...." (pokes stomach)

LOL! i was like standing there lookin at my trunks...
Or acutally more like peerting at how i looked in my trunks and how my hip there were
Lame... but honestly...it's been freakin long since i got into trunks..
oohhhh... speakin of which i am having chicken curry fer tonight's dinner..
yayness... my fav... home cooked.. can smell the curry..
haha...
As i were saying.. last time i neva liked trunks.. i always wore a suit.. dun ask me why...
i neva liked exposing my body..even when swimming..
lol... but not so bad.. at least these pants are square cut..
no V Shaped shit..my mom wanted me to get one like that..
i told her.. the square cut or the suit or nothing...
so ahahaha.. had the pants...
it kinda reminded me of my pri school pants..
they should be this small if i were to wear them... now that is..
well...ooo..5.23.. i wanna go excercise..
no wait.. i can't; i got muscle cramp from workin out the other day..
i think i like over did it..
tralalala...speakin of which.. fer those who are intrested.. tuesday.. got b ball match..
i wonder if AH is playing.. i think they are.. my mei from Temask is gonna go there...
well..
i gtg...it's dinner.. yayness.. se ya'll!

All Love Lost @ 2:04 AM

Friday, July 07, 2006

i felt like writing some stuff about my life at a point of time inbetween the end of sec1 and till now..

Wasn't it Amazing?

We had it for a year and more..

I had always been happy about it..

Everytime i prayed to God,

I asked him to forgive me for the sins i had done,

The sins i had done to b by ur side..

And yet again i thanked him..

For what?

I thanked Him that u were still here..

By my side

And for the time that We had spent together..

I always looked out for You then..

To see if u were ok..If no one was giving u troubles..

And i confided alot of secrets in You..

And so did You..

Still rmbr that time on e bus?

We were caught..

I wasn't ashamed then..I just was smiling away..

I was some how happy..

There's no words desciable for how i felt..

I was always smiling..

No matter what happened..

I wish here i could say it was my happy ending..

Like in a fairy tail..

But as i said.. It was like a fairy tail..

But this wasn't..

Jus like how i felt..

Wen i received tad Message..

I was really saddned..

Right then I was on the bus..

And,perhaps u don't know,

I sat at the back of the bus and cried..

I just cried..

I Wished we had gone through thick and thin together..

Helping each other some how..

There was the Other day..

We took the bus back home together..

i sat next to you..

I was thinkin

"What is it i am doing here?"

I felt like jumping off th bus then..

And running home..

Or any where..

But i Din't..

I wanted to say then..

"I need you..please.."

But i Din't..

I knew it was pointless..

Then the other time i msged you..

u said things to me in a different mood..

In a happy light mood..

And b4 u said it i knew what happened..

I laid in my bed and Cried..

I cried myself to sleep that night..

My eyes were red the next day..

I felt like a helpless person in a bottomless pit..

Where ever i went.. when i tot of you..

I just cried.. no matter where i was..

Once on the similar bus we took...

I cried.. People stared at me..

i just cried.. I din care...

i felt weird...

That night..i gave in to the blade..

I bled.. i just looked at it..

And suddenly it felt better...

Then one other day...

I was thinkin too much i suppose..

Bout the past..

I dunno..

I fainted In the Rain... Nobody knew i was there...

But when i came to 3 hours had passed..

it was 4 in the afternoon..

I went home and changed.. and cut once again..

i felt better then..again..

U have no idea..

When school was open again..

what i did to hide from you..

i'd walk one big round to avoid you..

To not see you..

I ran away..

I hid and waited for you to pass..

Looked away just not see you..

All this was...just..

To run away from the actual facts..

I grew hate and Grudge..

Unknowingly..blaming You..

For everything..

The Pain..

The Memories..

The Breakdown..

But somehow.. it came to be that..

We turned from foes to frwens..

Yet..now we say hi to each other..

It's just so diificult for me..

U smile so innocently...

And makes me feel happy and not so pressured..

to just say 'hi'..

But then again..

Why is it that u don't reply my sms's?

i wait by the phone fer ur reply.. but u don't..

i feel messed up..

I both Wonder why u ignore me..

And want to 'be frwens' just as u requested..

U once gave in to the blade too..

i was concerned..

I worried for you...Hoping that..

U dint cut some where wrong like your wrists..

I was also concerned when u got those blisters on ur shoes...

I kept askin how it was..

and u always said it was ok....

I found it hard to believe..

Soon.. ur msgs became shorter and shorter..

and finally u dun reply...

i switch my phone off..

To stop myself from waiting fer ur msg..

I guess i'm just stupid..

i dunt know wad to do..

I wish..

I wish That..

I wish that i could..

Could wipe u out of my life..

it sounds easy and tempting.. may b i should?

the decision will b made in due time..

fret not..

fer i may migrate soon..

some where far away..

Then u wun have to see me anymore..

And So wunt i~

Whoa.. this is really long.. well gtg.. see ya'll..ath to ask just msg..

All Love Lost @ 5:49 AM

hey.. well today was kida of a stupid day some how...
i dunno how.. it just felt so la..
well skool ended at like 12 todae.. i reahed home at 2 btw..
we had these periods...
1) geog (wth..)
2)P.E. (yayness)
3) SEL (boo.. cause no mr tay)
4)Hist

P.E. was still e best subject.. i liked today's programme...
lol.. we took height and weight.. so shud dup.. lol.. i ain;t gonna sae shit besides my weight..
38.5.. rargh.. i miss 40kg.. but der will b cons if i get fat.. lol..
depending the way i gain it i guess..
well we had p.e. and it was the same as 2A..
hey~~ leonard.. lol.. (hinting at smthin)

nah.. i aint gonna say it to anyone unless they alreadi noe then tad aint my prob..
lol..well.. surprise surprise.. my wounds from my stupid roller blading stunt is gettin better..
yupp and i managed to run and play b ball with a little effort..
we were suppose to run 6 laps around the field todae but i ran 9..
i just felt like running.. so i did... yupp
well i noticed tad 2A ain't exactly wad u'd call active.. NO OFFENCE!!

*whew* which kinda reminds me of one dae.. some nice fella go post on e ED club member blog:
"We'll be back next year.. you watch out.."
wha lao... fer this we pump 100? 200 plus? lol.. but we deserve it..
heck.. not like we can do shit..

ok so as i said i noticed tad 2A wasn't very active.. after their run they just sit ther and do nothin till recess was over.. lol!
i was der playing b ball all e way.. so happi.. but i din shoot in much todae..
just ain't my dae today and plus i have not played fer a freakin long time.. so dun blame me..
well i shot mostly 3 pointers.. amazingly i can shoot so many.. last time shoot 2 gonna die liaos..
hmmm.... i saw tad really tall gurl tad i last saw at KKH.. and then there she was again..
wha lan... she is really damn tall la.. rargh.. they were like onli running up and down the breath of the b ball court at the bottom.. so damn lucky.. lol...

rargh... but i think i over did it in the b ball and running.. i got muscle cramps.. luckily i got no NCC.. if i did i'd be reporting sick all e time..tralalala..
i went to wen xin the blog.. the 2A one also.. wha lan.. i was walkin down from school then she suddenly say 'hi' to me.. i nearly tripped and fell..

she suddenly call me like tad is realli so out of e blue.. wha.. o then i went to her blog todae.. u wanna read just go read ur self... i aint gonna say shit bout it..
well.. i am suddenly feelin in a poetic mood.. haha...
gonna think of one.. moi wanna type more poems.. i like p~~

OOOOOOOOOOOOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!
RAAAAAAAARRRRRRGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!! the bloody adapter fell on my foot..
ouchy..*sniffles* right..
ok...hmm.. just wondering y is it i am suddenly listenin to Simple plan?
lol.. i like em alot! i like the songs Everytime.. One..Perfect..Jump..Shut Up!..Crazy.. and alot more.. haha...
well gtg...
be bac after my shower..

All Love Lost @ 5:48 AM

Sunday, July 02, 2006

hey alls... ain't posted fer a long time.. srry.. was busy wif stuff.. lol... like watching movies and playin and studyin.. lol..
later i am goin out wif king jun and sheena tad clinc and Cheryl TAN tad clinc..but i dun think i will follo em to k box.. lol.. my dad dun like and want me to do so.. dunno why..
i hope we watchin movie at tm.. then i can go arcade.. muahahahahaha..
well i really like this song tad i changed it to.. it called endlesss love by jackie chan and some stupid gurll i think i said tad b4.. it was used in the show the myth..
it ROCKS!! the myth rocks!! lol.. here's a poster..

I think jackie looks a little stupid in this show with tad long hair tucked in tad helmet.. and there lots of funny parts.. and lots of computer animated parts.. lol... one part to notice if u watch this show is when he accidently poked the korean guy with his sword.. you will see it move left and right.. lol..

well in total i rate this show 4 stars! lol... yayness...haha...

oo...it's 11 now.. gotta get rdy soon..well i guess my posts are all very crapp... well last sunday i watched super man returns with my parents.. it's so damn stupid and lame la.... i hope mingjun they all dun wanna watch tad later.. go watch garfield!! hahahaha... In this show..garfield2, garfield is treated as royalty.. it rocks la.. then u see him do all kinda of stupid things in the palace..lol...

which reminds me.. i still owe cheryl mun a movie... **sobs** i'm goin bankrupt from buyin my comic Kyo... i suddenly jumoped from 10 episodes to 20.. lol.. and it is 5 a book.. wow.. ok.. so 50 dollars was spent there.. it was suppose to b 3 from some second hand book shop but then it sold the whole thing to some one... boo.. so now i must buy new ones.. lol.. 5 dollars..

tralalalalala.... i'm listening to jesus of suburbia... now this part is i dont care and dear beloved.. i like dear beloved.. "dearly beloved are u listening?!"Speakin of which.. i was tokin to cheryl Tan on msn just now... and i wun tok bout wad has happened to her lately.. lol..yayness... Kuro is online.. tralalalala...haha...

suddenly i'm thinkin bout setting ur goals and reaching em.. lol.. my next goal is to make a candy red coloured bouquet! yupp! so i must await the next time i go to the flourist.. haha... get cute littlered flowers.. and then some ivy... (wandering into flower land)

ok pls shud dup.. i ain't gay! just because i like flowers dun mean i am gay! so SHUD DUP!! lol.. ok see ya'll goin to have lunch..

All Love Lost @ 7:58 PM