Sunday, May 28, 2006

hey alls.. this is a pooem tad i wrote fer two pple..

1) Kelly..
hey.. i dun blame u realli.. i understand(some how) sorry fer the hate i grew to you.. thou it was like fer 2 hours? We must go out for another movie one day when a nice one is on!! then we'll laugh at nick's outrageous behaviours.. like his gay ice cream

2)Her..
hey.. i understand that u realli want it.. but it was kinda a big shot gun relation ship so no harm done! =D

ok so here the poem is:

What should I say,

Since faith i had in you,

is now dead,

And truth away From you is fled?

Should I be led With doubleness?

Or to follow Faith and stay on?

I promised you,

And you promised me,

To be as true friends,

And nothing less,

As I would be.

But since I see Your double heart,

Farewell my part!

I Sense that i am unwanted,

As if some plaything..

Though for to take

It is not my mind,

But to forsake

[One so unkind]

And as I find,

So will I trust:

My instincts,

Or your words that somehow,

Which seems to bind me so strictly?

Can ye say nay?

But you said That I always Should be obeyed?

And thus betrayed Or that I wiste--

Farewell, unkissed.

The Faith i had in you,

Has died along with my heart,

I no longer know what to believe..

You smiled,

You spoke,

And I believed,

And i was,

By every word and smile,

Deceived.

Nor hope I what I hoped before:

This last one is vain..

Deception..

Deceived once again..

I bid mi'lady farewell..

i really like this one plus another one i wrote.. hey!! this is copywrited!

i am sendin it in fer e school magazine.. haha.. i already had one poem enter and i want another..

the other one is love.. this one would be love and betrayal?

i dunno u take ur pick..

yea once again i was pondering over the importance of friends in life and realised that little friends do i have..

(nick, kenny,jolynn,cheryl,wen xin, christianto, mingjun,weihua,amany ncc seniors..)

geezz i dunno.. i dun think i have alot.. my friends from tuition sae that i am anti-social..

><>

well it is true that friends in life are imprtant.. at times when u feel so down over some teenage stuff who else but them to talk to? i mean our bloody parents dun understand shit bout us.. heck.. even my dad is tryin to match make me.. haiz.. wtf.. he keeps thinking i am veri veri veri hurt after any breakup.. wadda idiot.. he really is so shud dup.. and yea back to e topic of friends..honestly.. you'll find that u spend at least half of your life out wif friends.. ok let's not sae life.. day.. u realised? yea yea yea?

durin recess u dun sit alone now do you? unless it is wif an opposite sex that u hate or smth..

i mean u'd group wif em right?

and when eva u needa listeing ear.. who is alwaes there? your good friend!! when u need a shoulder to cry on whose is it that u would drench? ur friends!!!

your parents would onli not bother you and leave you in ur room where u'd onli feel worse..

haiz..

i dunno why but it suddenly hit me so greatly and i have been thinkin bout it fer a long time..

life's really gonna be cold with out any friends.. they are the ones that reach out a hand when you fall and they are the ones you laugh and learn bout things in life with..

you go through thin and thick with them!! wow-ness...

lots of examples eh?

haha..

lately i have also been thinkin bout my prom night..who'd i go wif? XD!!

Jie ning and i were discussin bout it the other day.. i shall grow talle most of all.. i am already 155.. yay-ness.. i wanna reach 6 feet.. haha...

i oso wanna watch over the hedge..=D

i oso wanna play arcade..

i oso wanna become 40 kg...

loll.. i am wondering..

suddenly thinkin bout relationships..hee!!

god has everything planned fer me i know it..he has already decided everything fer me..

haiz.. i just hope tad everything works out to plan..

hee...let life take it's course!! just go wif e flow.. ^^

AAAAAARRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH....

o.o doesn't tad mean god has decided whom i'll kiss and whom i'll marry...

eeeekkk!!!

it's scary to b able to do this kinda stuff u know? creeppppyyyyy....

damn i gtg and sleep soon..cause i gotta go back to school tmr afternoon.. i gotta give some crapp shit form back to CCP cause he damn ass hole he go give us on friday then we have to go backk...

geez...

of yea and the other dae i just went back fer my dental.. damn it hurt like mad and the apinkiller was already alot la.. boo..

i still got another session to get it filled.. =D then no worries bout ath else liao except fer the tooth droppin off..><

they are havin the student council selection camp soon.. haha.. yea.. cehryl told me so dumbeedeedoo!!

lol.. i like tad phrase..hmm... well gtg..

i'm gonna get started on my ferrari model.. haaa!! bb alls... and dun b an idiot to msg me on the 12th to 16th of june.. i ain't gonna b any where within 300 m of my phone.. cause i am goin fer OBS.. so see ya'll then!! boohoo.. no com..b!!

All Love Lost @ 7:23 AM

Saturday, May 27, 2006

NE-YO LYRICS

So Sick

Mmmm mmm yeah
Do do do do do do do-do
Ohh Yeah

Gotta change my answering machine
Now that I'm alone
Cuz right now it says that we
Can't come to the phone
And I know it makes no sense
Cuz you walked out the door
But it's the only way I hear your voice anymore
(it's ridiculous)
It's been months
And for some reason I just
(can't get over us)
And I'm stronger then this
(enough is enough)
No more walkin round
With my head down
I'm so over being blue
Cryin over you

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

Gotta fix that calender I have
That's marked July 15th
Because since there's no more you
There's no more anniversary
I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memory
And how every song reminds me
Of what used to be

That's the reason I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

(Leave me alone)
Leave me alone
(Stupid love songs)
Dont make me think about her smile
Or having my first child
Let it go
Turning off the radio

Cuz I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)

Said I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishin you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
Why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)
Why can't I turn off the radio?

All Love Lost @ 11:33 PM

hey alls.. haha.. srry i din't post fer a long time..
i was busy wif my other blog.. the url is: www.AbyssOfDeath-.blogspot.com
yea..but it is password protected.. if u want e password u gotta be in my ciecle of trust..
yupp..i may wanna change e pass montly.. so u had ask and not hack or wad eva shit..><
yea.. haha.. yest.. i went to play lan game.. lol.. the game tad i played most was GB..
no.. not gangbang... but gun bound.. carn believe my account is still there..
lol.i'm onli a double wodden so shud dup..
yupp.. i just gained 60gp yest.. haha.. play 2 hours.. i did play other games but ehck i ain't gonna to bout tad..
lately i noticed e importance of friends and was wondering bout all the hate i had for anyone..
i realised tad it was alot.. >.haha.. so yea.. i got rid of it all.. i mean it is really bad..
cheryl mun and i seem to b on betta terms now it seems..
haha.. were're gonna catch MI3.. yea i know i lagg la..
i have not catch it yet..but i catched Xmen3 the last stand with nick and kelly!
yea.. not e kelly from our school..so yea.. haha..
kelly said i was dao-in her tad day..and she was trying to give me 'why are you daoing me'
look.. but sadly i din't notice cause i din really look at her.. dun ask me why i was like that tad
day.. i just am.. perhaps by stress?
oh yea chere.. betta take care of tad foot.. try not to walk too much (sounds stupid)
i mean like our bloody school is on a freakin hill!! some nice positioning it is on..
stupid..in fact every day i go home confirm will get foot ache.. lol..
ever tried walking 10 mrt stations b4?
i did tad once.. fer fun.. turned out i had 13 blisters on my foot.. geezzz...
got a scolding from my dad cause my wounds dun heal very fast compared to others..
yea.. speakin of scars.. i was tokin to chere bout self-inflicted wounds b4.. haha..
yea.. all e scars on my arms are all caused by penknifes and some funny tool..
yea.. oh!! yea i made it into OBS!!!!! yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...................
OUTWARD BOUND SINGAPORE!!!
yea yea yea yea yea yea yea yea yea yea..
haha.. here come the 3 other badges.. then next year go again.. XP
haha.. we'll b kayakin fer 3 days 2 nights or so CCP says..
muahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.....
BB got 3 pple goin.. sjab and ncc got e most.. hee! oh ya.. and my dearest jie si jie(wierd) is goin too!! hahaha!! siao liao.. hmm.. come to think of it..
i really have not posted fer a long tie alrdy.. haha.. i'dike to see WH blog.. it's kidna dyin i see..
he is oso goin fer OBS.. hee!! dumdeebeedoo!!
oh yea andtokin bout nick and kelly tad day...
Nick used this reason,:

"I need to talk bout somthing important to her later, so i need to sit next to her"

And guess wad? he din't day shit to her.. lol.. wadda liar... instead he keeps leaning towards my seat..
and when he walks he keeps bangin into me and i'm like

"will you keep the fuck away from me for the 10th time?"

and when we went to 711.. we were lookin bout fer stuff but i and kelly din buy ntohin.. onli nick did..
kelly was like sayin this to me all of a sudden when i was browsin through the lousy selection of wine,:

"Hey alex, why dun u buy that? i'm sure you ned the extra tinglin sensation one."
"Kelly, i dun realli need that cause i am a virgin and i plan to keep my virginity you know.."

yea.. she was like pointing towards the condom selections.. haiz..
And there was a point where Nick went and bought this, "gay ice-cream", and it had sort of a top part which was a green jelly and a bottom part that was normal ice cream.
Well there was some point where he was eating the jelly bit and the whole
bloody thing came off and he practically choked on it.
Kelly and I were laughing insanely and then i was like going something like this:

"You're supposed to LICK the ice cream!"

"How the hell am I supposed to lick jelly?!"

"Haven't you heard of NIBBLING?"

and there came another point of time where i was pissed at nick so i held him i told kelly she is obliged to kick his middle leg and this was her post..

Alex was FRICKING FUNNY. He kept going "Can you stop standing so close to me?!" to Nick and scuttling away like Nick was some faggot. And at some point he grabbed Nick and told me, "You may now kick his little area." AHAHAHAHA! I didn't get the chance though. :(

lol!!! yea and there were two really intamate lesbians.. yea... we saw two of em right after e movie..it was really kooll...alothough i dun think they were lesbians.. i just assumed cause they were really close together.. yea.. one of em was crying.. so i guess e othe one was comfortin her.. yea.. but they just seemed intimate in a really wicked wae.. lol...
oh yea.. in Xmen 3... Scot, Jean and Xavier..
jean is kinda evil i guess.. she was killed by wolverine at the last part..
they were like this..
Wolverine is staggering up this little hill with parts of him bein blown away then he quickly recovers from the wounds very quicly too.. he's actually torn down to the skeleton.. u can see his adamantium skeleton..fianlly he reaches her and suddenly screams in her face in pain(lol) then:

Wolverine: Stay with me jean!
Jean:Help me..(crying)
Wolverine: I Love You..(crying)
then he kills her with his little claws and screams...

Jean is actually a class 5 mutant... yea.. xavier and scot was killed by her..scot's life force was sucked dry by her.. something like rouge and then xavier is blown into dust by her.. it was really lame la.. many parts.. i like angel too.. he's kool except for the part when he was young and was tryin to cut off his wings with cutting tools.. there was alot of blood(=D) and feathers all over the place..
lol...
yea.. then yesterday i went to my mom's friend's house to get away from my house and get my mind off the break.. then i was there watchin totally spies..>< it was very lame.. but it was rather kool animation.. really u look carefully.. it is..
then i went upstairs with the daughter to play gun bound..
NO... NOT TO DO ANY OTHER OBSCENCE STUFF!!
altough she was really irritain cause she kept messin up my spiked hair.. lol.. i just kept pullin off her hair vand and messing uo her hair.. heck i tied her up with a skipping rope with e help of her younger sis.. XD
obviously i untied her..lol.. u dun expect me to just leave her there tied up do you? her mom will kinda scold me.. oh then when i went to their fridge i saw this bottles of drinks.. one was sake and the other was liqour.. i had a drink of both.. woots.. it was really kool.. (hick)
i nearly went drowsy.. drowsy.. not drunk there's a difference.. geez...
NO I DIN'T DO ANYTHING WRONG!!
heck.. i typed alot(scrolling up)
yupp!! i'm gonna stop.. hope u all like the old skin and the new song.. XD!!

All Love Lost @ 10:11 PM

Sunday, May 14, 2006

heys alls.. ok this is gonna b a proper post.. lol.. now i am at a lan game shop wastin my time and money away doin this.. i feel like a complete idiot.. lol..
so yea i changed e skin and song accordin to HER wish.. lol.. she was pesterin me twice to do so yesterday and today..
yea and andy just asked me if i am free tmr.. actually i dun even know if there is school..
i feel so idiotic.. geez..i just played warcraft, CS, and dunno wad la..
i feel so damn crappy.. i think me wanna go back to palying GB... muahahahaha.. geez.. here damn noisy sia.. heck... wel i got 60 percent fer chinese.. wows.... an improvement from b4.. muahahahaha....woots....
wows.. everyone here all playin dota and gb.. i feel stupid la...
i can b doin this at homebut here i am typin.. ah la.. i du waste time.. later all..

All Love Lost @ 7:21 AM

hey alls...wow.. finally can post again.. har har har... or actually finally i bother to post again.. har har..oh yea jolynn.. pls shud dup bout ath concernin me n Her.. meanin dun u dare mention Her name to any one..
graghh!! lol.. i'm a bitta insane today cause i lost my freakin phone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 3 days ago.. when i went ice skating... at first there was 2 police pple when my dad called em.. then suddenly 7 came... WTF!!!
it's scary la...lol... well.. haha.. such logic.. 7 police pple fer one hand phone... good use of tax mulah..XD
btw my sis got a N70.. She has a N70... T.T.. and here i am w/o a freakin phone... bohoo....
i gotta use my dad's phone la.. and stuff.. then i only can call her.. i mean i prefer to message la.. bohoo...
speakin of which.. she and me are 5 days old jolynn.. haha.. yea when she said she wanted to patch.. a bus just nice went pass... XD!! then at first i could not hear wad she said.. lol.. then she was kinda like blushin.. lol!!... yea.. u were...
the other time went bugis and PP twice.. like idiot like tad sia.. just walk around like two lost souls like tad...
and not to mention to b like idiot... my blog skin.. dunno why .. mayb my internet is shit.. the webby open damn slow..den i keep thinkin template got prob.. geez...
wanna die sia la...
oh yea speakin of dying... here's a phrase i heard e most often so far..
"can u please go and die?"
lol.. okok... i give up.. i ain't got much left to crapp bout..
this post is just fer e sake of updatin.. i'll make a nicer update another time.. seya'll..

All Love Lost @ 3:32 AM