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Friday, March 03, 2006

hey all.. this is my first post of the month.. haha...
crazy and irregular sia all my posts...
well today i woke up at 7 had
two slices of toast and a cup of coffee..
then my dad fetched me to bedok reservior..
yea..
fer ncc..suppose to have it every week?
jokes..
and today is my first run of the year..
seems i must train.. but i must be crazy to jog 4.3 km.. it's like from my house here
jog to the siglap connector park all the way to east coast then back.. my god...
far...indeed man..
sianz..
then after the run Sheng chao, pang yi, jem,yi yang, jing feng and some others and 1 part a cadet..
went to tm to eat..
i had the egg muffin meal..
jokes..
then i came home and slept for 4 hours.. jokes.. 10 to 2...
wad a pig i am..
then yesterday.. hmm..
yea NCC was kinda like a killer yesterday..
roll call then water parade..
then our PT so called became changing parade and pumping parade..
jokes..
then there was this one time we did 5 pumping on the hot tar ground meaning road..
and bloody hell..even though it was onli 5... the ground is so freakin hot that
no 0ne could actually hold it there..
every one was like jumping around on their hands...
if u did manage to hold your hands there for 5 mins..
you could eat ur hand practically..
jokes..
then till now many of us still got the burns from that pumping..
jokes..
and jie si got a fever that day..
Rest well ok sis?=D
get well soon!
then mr yao was not happy at wei hua cause he did not tie a knot at his boots..
so he got pissed off and asked us to bring
our uniform on monday and fall in for UI..
sh!t man..
i mean like i got tutition on monday..
then wad?
wear my uniform there?wha.. crazy man..
heck.. looks nice any way my uniform..
^^..the colar can really stand.. as in really stand.. cause i added alot of startch..
but at least not as bad as the SJAB..
their collar and other parts of their uniform have to put wax and melt it into the uniform..
jokes man.. i mean like it's really uncomfortable..
then so wei hua apologized to yao and then got a lecture in the end.. yao said that he got some kind of a attitude problem..
then of course WH asked me if he had some kinda attitude problem..
and of course we all know he does so i told him
that he really was too AP..
i mean he really gives you that kinda face that shows you ignorance
and makes you feel lame at wad u just said kinda thing..
well..
we all have our own demons to fight..and along the way we always hurt people and stuff..
then when i came home naturally i used the com and
talked to kuro as always and who'd expect cheryl mun to appear..
jokes..
then talked to her bout me having the chance of me having lukemia..
and she was like..(qoute i)

Really.. u should go see a doc la..and u are taking this matter as a lughing matter and here i am bein worried bout you..

then i asked her.. "uh-huh..and why are you so worried?"
thou then replied..

"i mean like u are my Ex and a good friend of mine.. i dun wanna lose you.."

whoa..
ok wad eva... but please do not fret cause my dad onli suspects it.. he's not sure..
i have not even confirmed with the doctor yet.. jokes..
seems that she is really concerned bout me ahving bloody cancer..
still i realise though i may not have lived my life to it's fullest..
i know i did as much as i can..
and even if it really is my time to go i shall not fret and cry bout it..
with my last few days..
i'd write letters to everyone who means something to me..
tell you who i'd write to.. in order of merit..

-Cheryl mun
-Wei hua
-Nicholas
-2J
-Andy,Alexander and the whole outreach in toto..
-AHSYF
-And to any one who means alot to me in my life..

still i know that i will not die..
hey come on..
i'm still young and healthy ok?jokes..
i mean not like i am gonna just drop dead infront of everyone..
but it really is freaky to see something like that...
i am once again reminded of my grand mother..
i never did make it in time...
i never did make it in time to see her give out her last breath..
i nearly fell down on the way..
i ran all the way from the first floor to the 5th..
i ran..i just ran...
hoping that she'd wait..
though i had muscle cramp that day.. from NCC it was the 4th of jan..
a friday..
my muscle cramps just faded away..
i just ran and ran..
but by the time i reached.. i was a minute late..
the doctor was calling it.. 8.11 pm..
i was upset....
really..
it was just one minute..
then suddenly the whole world seemed to turn down on me..
it just seemed to collapse..the pillars of my life..
like my life was being sucked out of me...
you ever get that feeling on a day where u are just really tierd
and the day just couldn't seem to get any worse when it did?
that was what i felt onli 100x more life-leeching
my muscle cramp suddenly came back and i fell on the floor...
i got up and went near my grand mother..
i just cried.. my dad came up to me and told me that
she went away peacefully and painlessly..
she just fell short of breath..
haiz..
memories can kill you at times and yet save you..
it's just which side you decide to look at it from..
half filled or half empty?
it is really sad at times...

well here's something i just suddenly wrote..
i printed it out.. so here it is..

I was afraid to talk to you..
When i talked to you..
I was afraid to hold you..
When i hold you..
I was quiet with you..
Becuz I loved you alot..
I was afraid to love you..
Now that i love you..
i can't bear to lose you...
Some times we experince pain in love..
But yet if it does not hurt...
Then we can't call it love..
Hold on to the person you love..
Before he or she slips away..
And you can never get them back..

When u are together you pertend to ignore that special some one..
But when that person is not around you tend to look around to find them..
At that time you are in love..

Although there is some one that always makes you laugh...
Your attention is always drawen to that special some one...
At that moment you are in love..

Although that special some was suppose to call you back long ago
to tell you of thier safe arrival, ur phone is silent..
You pace up and down waiting desperately for that call..
At that moment you are in love..

If you are more excited for a short e-mail from that special someone
instead of many other long emails..
At that moment you are in love..

When you find yourself unable to erase the messages in your answering machine
Because just one of the messages are from that special some one..
At that moment you are in love..

When you get a couple of free movie tickets and you do not hesitate to invite
That special some one..
then,
At that moment you are in love..

Some times you keep telling youself..
that 'special some one is just a friend...'
Yet you can't help yourself from being drawn to that special some one..
then,
At that moment you are in love..

While you are reading this and some one pops into your mind..
that person is the very special person..

believe it or not.. yes..
i wrote this so called poem on my own experince..
or so wad i have felt and known..
i said known...
well yea...
nothin much else i got..
damn i wrote quite alot today.. even the scroller st the side is like damn small...
did i type that much?
ah heck well...i am gonna change the song..
and Cheryl mun said that Final fantasy sucks...
BOO!! go home!!
i mean it totally rocks!!
Anyone got ff7 advent children the show?
can send me or gimme?
ty!
i gtg...
wanna sleep.. muahaha...
biies!

All Love Lost @ 11:37 PM

Name:Alexander Ho Guan Ting(freakin long)
Mandarin Name:He Guan Ting(eww)
Stage Name: Nanahara Shuya(not many call me by this)
Birthday:28 oct 1992
Blood Type: A+
Height:158cm(SHUD DUP!!)
Weight:41kg Horoscope: Scorpio
Place of Birth:Singapore,Thompson Medical Hospital
School:Anglican High; school filled with gays and lesbian

Likes
Celebrities: Will Smith..especially when he acted in Hitch!!
Author: None
Book: Armaggedeon Summer,Devils's Foot Steps
Singer: Green Day,BackStreet Boys,Eminem,Good Charlote,Yellowcard,Fallout Boy
Songs:(one from each of e above)Whatshername,I Still..,Lose Yourself, The Anthem, Ocean Avenue,Sugar We're Goin Down.
Animal:Spiders.
Finger:the most often used one, Middle finger
Colours:Black,Orange,Brown,Baby Pink,Green
Movie:FINAL FANTASY ADVENT CHILDREN!!!,Pirates of the Caribbean,Blade 1 n 2,Hitch,Xmen,The Girl Next Door..
People:Her.. Food:Anything edible.. Weather:(s'pores)Sunny with some Clouds and lots of Wind!(overseas)Snow with NO WIND!! Or just lots of sun and some clouds
Numbers:1, 9, 13
Word:Supp...
Drink:Diet Root Beer, Pepsi Max, diet coke..
Season:WINTER!!!
Country:JAPAN!!!! All the cherry blossoms.....
Disease:Diabetes(cause i have it)
Article of clothing:Jeans
Place:Infront of e com
School Subject:P.E., Recess, Free period


Hates
Book:Text Books
Singer:Hillary Duff
Colours:Turqoise, Bright Yellow.
Fruit:Rock Melon
Movies:Pointless movies
People:Teachers
Weather:When the afternoon sun is out n there are no clouds
Number:4,7,8
Word:WWWHHHAAA!!
Drink:Coke
Season:Summer
Country:Malaysia
Article of clothing:tight pants..
Place:Classroom
School subject:All But P.E., recess and free period

Darlinks


[*] *_Cheryl Mun_* =)))
[*] *_Miao Qian_*
[*]*_Shu Yi_*
[*]*_Wan Yun_*
[*] *_Nick_* =))))
[*] *_Kuroda_*=))
[*] *_Yuin Theng_* =))
[*]*_Jenna Lim Ying Aoki_* =))
[*]*_Kerrie_* =))
[*]*_Sheena_* =))
[*]*_Jane_* =))
[*]*_Xia Xue_*
[*]*_Wen Xin_*
[*]*_Chen Yin_*
[*]*_Caleena_*
[*]*_Chermain_*
[*]*_Clarice_*
[*]*_Crystal_*
[*]*_Justina_* =))
[*]*_Vannesa 2A_*
[*]*_Shu Yi_*
[*]*_Megan_*
[*]*_felicia 1D_*
[*]*_Debra_* =))
[*]*_Jollin_*
[*]*_Lewis_* =))
[*]*_Amelia_* =))
[*]*_YiYee_* =))
[*]*_AHS 1J 0'5_*
[*]*_Jing Hui_* =))
[*]*_Li Jing_* =))
Memories
September 2005 October 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 March 2006 April 2006 May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 February 2007

Identify URSELF or jus FUCK OFF

When you love someone so deep inside,
It seems like it's so easy to hide.
You've loved Her for so very long,
You would think She could never do any wrong.

Every day you would hope and pray,
That She would always stay that way.
She treated you like you should be treated,
You thought your life was finally completed.

You thought your love was growing true,
And then one day it was all so blue.
She suddenly put you down and it hurt,
You thought all you were to her was a plaything.

She started ignoring you and you wondered why,
What wrong had you done to deserve this?
Soon it’s all you think about,
And you feel as if your head were about to explode
All you wanted to do was curl up and die.
You thought your relationship would never end,
But that was all so fake and pretend.

One night She was so sweet to you,
You thought all those things were maybe untrue,
Later She was back the same,
You thought you were the one to blame.

She thought the relationship was getting too serious
And that you had become a little too curious.
By this time you knew it wouldn't last,
All the nice things She said were in the past.

You thought that you would marry Her some day,
And walk down that red carpet
But this time God wanted to get his way.
You wanted things back how they were before,
But you knew this couldn't happen anymore.

It was a Saturday night about ten o'clock,
You heard the news and it wasn't a shock.
You knew this was going to happen soon,
As you laid there and cried in the pale lit moon.
All alone suddenly..

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