Thursday, September 22, 2005

srry.. i so long neva post liao....
cause i got not time last night...
yesterday i went home with chere...
yuppo....
we did sit down next to each other...
but it felt so weird...
i used to hold her hand..
but this time i did not.. i was hoping to...
i was waiting patiently..
ever so patiently.. hoping she would just hold my hand...
but my hopes were brought down...
i guess my mind still did not accept the fact that
she was no longer mine...
still wad could i do...?
it is a hard thing to accept things at times...

any way...
yesterday for the first two periods...
there wasn't any teacher...
so happy... i down there put leg on table read comics...
hahaha...
now i am watching some ninga show...
it is called "tales of noshu"
oerr...
blood all over..
haha...sianz...
i got nothin to do now...
thinkin of nothingness.....
perhaps i should change the song again...
the fifth time that would be...
haha... okok....
it's dinner time for me... gotta go...

Need[yOu]BaCk signing off....
bye!!

All Love Lost @ 2:55 AM

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

hi pple....
sianz... my foruth skin now and gotta shower soon.. my mom naggin'..
sianz.. i broke up wif her not long ago.. sianz...
now i listening to sk8ier boy....so kool....
kinda seems like mi "has been" relationship..
well she broke up wif me because she was
too stressed up..
she says that it is not because of that she
dun love mi any more.. sianz...
dunno larghz...
she says i have been very cold to her and that
i have been veri warm to her friends...
gee....i dunno larghz...
sianz... i was so upset when she told me that
she wanted to break..
i was shooting air-rifle then...
practicing that is... was so surprised...
after the message i started going berserk with my shots....
i started shooting real fast and then soon my dad asked
me if i was alright....
truely i don't noe...
not even now...i don't even know my self anymore....
i am soo confused if i still love her and want her back
or i hate her now....
it is confusing...really confusing.. i have been crying my seld t sleep sometimes....
sadness.....
wad eva larghzzz.....
gotta shower now... wait for my next posts okayz?

All Love Lost @ 5:45 AM

Name:Alexander Ho Guan Ting(freakin long)
Mandarin Name:He Guan Ting(eww)
Stage Name: Nanahara Shuya(not many call me by this)
Birthday:28 oct 1992
Blood Type: A+
Height:158cm(SHUD DUP!!)
Weight:41kg Horoscope: Scorpio
Place of Birth:Singapore,Thompson Medical Hospital
School:Anglican High; school filled with gays and lesbian

Likes
Celebrities: Will Smith..especially when he acted in Hitch!!
Author: None
Book: Armaggedeon Summer,Devils's Foot Steps
Singer: Green Day,BackStreet Boys,Eminem,Good Charlote,Yellowcard,Fallout Boy
Songs:(one from each of e above)Whatshername,I Still..,Lose Yourself, The Anthem, Ocean Avenue,Sugar We're Goin Down.
Animal:Spiders.
Finger:the most often used one, Middle finger
Colours:Black,Orange,Brown,Baby Pink,Green
Movie:FINAL FANTASY ADVENT CHILDREN!!!,Pirates of the Caribbean,Blade 1 n 2,Hitch,Xmen,The Girl Next Door..
People:Her.. Food:Anything edible.. Weather:(s'pores)Sunny with some Clouds and lots of Wind!(overseas)Snow with NO WIND!! Or just lots of sun and some clouds
Numbers:1, 9, 13
Word:Supp...
Drink:Diet Root Beer, Pepsi Max, diet coke..
Season:WINTER!!!
Country:JAPAN!!!! All the cherry blossoms.....
Disease:Diabetes(cause i have it)
Article of clothing:Jeans
Place:Infront of e com
School Subject:P.E., Recess, Free period

Hates
Book:Text Books
Singer:Hillary Duff
Colours:Turqoise, Bright Yellow.
Fruit:Rock Melon
Movies:Pointless movies
People:Teachers
Weather:When the afternoon sun is out n there are no clouds
Number:4,7,8
Word:WWWHHHAAA!!
Drink:Coke
Season:Summer
Country:Malaysia
Article of clothing:tight pants..
Place:Classroom
School subject:All But P.E., recess and free period

Darlinks

[*] *_Cheryl Mun_* =)))
[*] *_Miao Qian_*
[*]*_Shu Yi_*
[*]*_Wan Yun_*
[*] *_Nick_* =))))
[*] *_Kuroda_*=))
[*] *_Yuin Theng_* =))
[*]*_Jenna Lim Ying Aoki_* =))
[*]*_Kerrie_* =))
[*]*_Sheena_* =))
[*]*_Jane_* =))
[*]*_Xia Xue_*
[*]*_Wen Xin_*
[*]*_Chen Yin_*
[*]*_Caleena_*
[*]*_Chermain_*
[*]*_Clarice_*
[*]*_Crystal_*
[*]*_Justina_* =))
[*]*_Vannesa 2A_*
[*]*_Shu Yi_*
[*]*_Megan_*
[*]*_felicia 1D_*
[*]*_Debra_* =))
[*]*_Jollin_*
[*]*_Lewis_* =))
[*]*_Amelia_* =))
[*]*_YiYee_* =))
[*]*_AHS 1J 0'5_*
[*]*_Jing Hui_* =))
[*]*_Li Jing_* =))
Memories
September 2005 October 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 March 2006 April 2006 May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 February 2007

When you love someone so deep inside,
It seems like it's so easy to hide.
You've loved Her for so very long,
You would think She could never do any wrong.

Every day you would hope and pray,
That She would always stay that way.
She treated you like you should be treated,
You thought your life was finally completed.

You thought your love was growing true,
And then one day it was all so blue.
She suddenly put you down and it hurt,
You thought all you were to her was a plaything.

She started ignoring you and you wondered why,
What wrong had you done to deserve this?
Soon itâs all you think about,
And you feel as if your head were about to explode
All you wanted to do was curl up and die.
You thought your relationship would never end,
But that was all so fake and pretend.

One night She was so sweet to you,
You thought all those things were maybe untrue,
Later She was back the same,
You thought you were the one to blame.

She thought the relationship was getting too serious
And that you had become a little too curious.
By this time you knew it wouldn't last,
All the nice things She said were in the past.

You thought that you would marry Her some day,
And walk down that red carpet
But this time God wanted to get his way.
You wanted things back how they were before,
But you knew this couldn't happen anymore.

It was a Saturday night about ten o'clock,
You heard the news and it wasn't a shock.
You knew this was going to happen soon,
As you laid there and cried in the pale lit moon.
All alone suddenly..